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Damien Mcknight

I relapsed on self harm after being clean for 2 months. First time cutting my arm in a while though and did it in the middle of a panic attack, so there’s that. I’m okay for now though.

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Timber Wolf

Hi Damien,

I'm not a cutter or anything, so I'm afraid I really don't have any experience to help you with. But please consider getting medical assistance for any wounds. Infections are nothing to play with.

 

Also, a therapist or psychologist may be of help.

 

Lots of love,

Timber Wolf 🐾

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A. Dillon

I can only guess what you are feeling right now, but if I were you I would feel a bit guilty, I had been making so much progress and I let myself down. That is not true though. You made it 2 months, now you can try to stretch that to 6, maybe 8, just see how long you can go. These sorts of urges and emotions don't go away overnight, and you need to crawl before you can walk. Hang in there, the future is a brighter place for you. 

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Jackie C.

Dillon's right; recovery can be like that. Two steps forward, one step back. It's not something most people can beat cold-turkey. You've got to keep getting back up when the monster knocks you down. It's the only way to get stronger. In the meantime, look after your wounds. Keep them clean and disinfected so they can heal.

 

Hugs!

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Damien Mcknight

Thanks y’all

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Damien Mcknight

Update on my cuts: I cleaned them last night/this morning? and the minor swelling is now gone. The cuts seem pretty shallow and light (couldn’t tell last night), so they should be gone within a week or two like usual.

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28 minutes ago, Damien Mcknight said:

Update on my cuts: I cleaned them last night/this morning? and the minor swelling is now gone. The cuts seem pretty shallow and light (couldn’t tell last night), so they should be gone within a week or two like usual.

Good, keep them as clean as possible and always dress with new bandages everyday till it closes right. Aloe leaf juice helps me heal up quick, also keeps the skin moisturized. I know it's hard to focus during a panic attack, I have them far too often to my liking and literally have to go into a quiet place by myself to calm down cuz I don't have people for that at hand. I tend to try closing my eyes till I can follow the light patterns behind my eyelids and can breath full breathes with ease. I wrap myself in thick blankets just cuz the weight of it feels nice and makes the world spin less. Bottom line is let's not repeat the cutting part. Try making a plan, might be hard to follow but maybe a talk with a therapist or just exploring things you can do to pull you out. Please be well and stay safe.

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