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Hey everyone. It’s been a while but I wanted to check back in for some more advice.

So I recently just reached 9 months HRT and things have been going normal. Due to the bug going on, I have been able to let hormones do their work without much social issues irl. I think it is because of that, that now I am concerned about the social transitioning side of things. So I wanted to check in and see if anyone had some advice.

For example, One thing that bothers me lately is Internalized Transphobia. I don’t know why, but I just cannot see myself as a girl yet. Even though there have already been some changes from hormones, it feels like it is just not working or something. Is this normal, or do I just need to give it more time? Do your facial features change a lot from HRT?

Another thing that has been on my mind lately is the idea of going full stealth. Some recent events I have seen in media have convinced me that it would be much safer and easier to be stealth. Do you think this is true?

Thanks!! J

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I'm at twenty months and can see the woman inside when I look in the mirror. I'm not self conscious about how I look when I'm in public and have pretty much given up prosthetics. I don't feel like I need FFS, but I was on the fence about that before. My therapist remarked that I'm getting a certain roundness to my features and her brain tripped "woman" before she remembered that she was talking to me.

I think part of that is transitioning socially. The people around me that I interact with on a daily basis (or at least that I did interact with on a daily basis before the world ended), treat me as a woman and that helped me accept myself as I am.


My facial features haven't changed much. Overall, I haven't had huge physical effects. My face is a little rounder. I have small breasts. My skin is super-soft. That's it. That's about typical for someone who starts transitioning in their late 40's I think with statistical variations for some lucky girls who get larger breasts.


I agree that it would probably be safer to go stealth. I'm mostly stealth myself. There are people who know because they were there while I was transitioning but I don't feel the need to tell people. I'll answer honestly if asked (I think), but nobody's ever asked and, frankly, it's none of their business. Unless of course they're a medical professional because they need to know. That's also a crapshoot because it's legal to discriminate against me for being trans in my state. That includes refusing me service. It hasn't come up yet, but I always ask a new medical professional if my status will be a problem. Other than that, it's nobody's business but my own.



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