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Hi,

My name is Tori, age 54, and I identify as female, as in her/she.  I'm a country gal who adores birds, animals and everything about nature.  I'm also a geek; I describe myself with the moniker "Cosmic Possum".  It means one foot in the old, natural world and the other foot in the modern one.  Tori comes from Emily Victoria, a lovely name given to me by my late partner, a most incredible and irreplaceable woman.  From 2003 to 2012 I was on HRT and lived openly as a woman but then moved with family from urban northern Virginia to a small timber town in Oregon where being trans was not so cool.  I have lived the past 8 years in mostly sweatpants and baggy t-shirts with my hair tied back.  Some people here know I'm trans, some don't.  I look androgynous so sometimes I hear "sir", sometimes I hear "ma'am".

The pandemic has given us a lot of thinking time and I've resolved to get MY life back.  I'm on the road to "recovery" and resuming my transition, if that's what you'd call my new approach.  I have a new perspective now that doesn't include societal demands nor any prescribed notion of who I have to become.  I don't have the same needs/wants as before... I'm less concerned with looking perfect and more focused on just being myself and curing my ails, hormonally and surgically.  Over these last eight years I feel like the young girl in me has grown into a woman... maiden into crone.

I have been looking for a place like this lately, or should I say, a place with people like you.  I've spent the past few days and nights reading a lot of posts and blogs here.  It's so wonderful to find people of like mind with mature perspectives that expands my understanding of myself and my future.  I am so appreciative of the brave, open-hearted dialogs and "diaries" that you all have shared here over the years.  Your writings are beautiful, deep, and enlightening.  I look forward to continue learning and growing alongside you gals and guys and maybe offer some contributions of my own sometimes.  Oh, and hopefully have some fun, too... we need more fun in this world right now.  Hugs and kisses!

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Salutations Tori and welcome to TransPulse!

 

Thanks for sharing! You're not that much older than I am. I might object to the term "crone." My therapist refers to me as more of an "Earth Mother." I might feel comfortable with crone in another thirty years. Maybe not. ?

 

In any case, I'm happy that you've found us and I'm glad you're here. I completely agree, we could all use a little more fun.

 

Hugs!

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5 hours ago, Jackie C. said:

more of an "Earth Mother."

 

Earth Mother... yea, I like that!  I only feel like a crone some days, haha.  Occasionally still have a Maiden day, but I don't feel like a Mother.  I might borrow that Earth Mother status. ?

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Hello and Welcome!

Thank you for sharing.

 

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Welcome Tori,

This forum is bursting full of kind compassionate people in all stages of life. At 54 you're still a "spring chicken" hehe. I'm 49 and feelin fine so don't worry about age--we're all ages here. 

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Thanks for the warm welcome!  One of my reasons for joining, I think, is for simple socializing.  I don't personally know anyone trans, and I have little experience talking about issues like ours with people like us.  I'm an introvert, so I'm fine with being alone most of the time.  I hope that I can jump into a few conversations here, but please forgive me if some of my comments seem a little weird.  I'm learning.

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First Welcome..I just turn 57 so I feel your pain.

Second, Please share you seen a woman that has experience a lot. Would love to hear more. and Third and most important.. Jackie C LOVE THE HAIR

 

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39 minutes ago, Alex C said:

First Welcome..I just turn 57 so I feel your pain.

Second, Please share you seen a woman that has experience a lot. Would love to hear more. and Third and most important.. Jackie C LOVE THE HAIR

 

 

Thank you, Alex.  So sweet of you to say and I'm sure I'll be writing plenty as time goes by.  Sometimes I think I could write a book.  I just glanced at your profile and noted your remark about progesterone, something I don't know much about either.  I think it's supposed to help breast growth which might be a good thing for women our age.  That will probably be my next search topic here, although I'm not looking for larger breasts.  And about still liking women, despite what my first doctor thought, there IS such a thing as a lesbian transexual.  As I told her, "I'm a woman and some women are gay.  What's so hard to understand about that?".  tee-hee

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Welcome! Glad you’re working to make you happy! I’m new here but this place is WONDERFUL. 

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Yes, I'm finding this place wonderful, too.  The people here are mature, experienced and very generous... exactly what I've been needing and what I haven't found at other sites.  I'm happy to see you're finding support here as well!

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