Thank you Carolyn.
It's amazing how much emotional energy this post took. Nervousness, excitement and a bit of fear.
It is the stories like yours and others who started later and have succeeded that is helping me.
One step at a time 😁
Now I just need to try and concentrate on work.
Hi I’m Mary Jane pretty sure I’m transgender but also maybe 2 other genders gender fluid or bigender 16 right now I’m kind, a thinker, I think a little too perceptive on some things, like to have fun but I also work hard, sensitive but I don’t know how sensitive, I know myself pretty well, i can look at different points of views and consider each like what people most likely always think of me in school (which I’m most likely boring to most people at school). Also I may be kind and sensitive but thanks to me dealing with bullies for a while I can be stop being sensitive and I can be mean if needed or if something triggers that part of me like if someone is mean to me
and I usually don’t say this anywhere but I’m smart I don’t know how smart (can it even be truly measured? As in how smart someone is)
just us in case you don’t know: I like to have fun like playing video games, going to the amusement park, watching great movies, etc and I like to hang out with people if they’re not too mean to me or to anyone
Ps still trying to figure out my gender
Welcome to Trans Pulse, Robin. Yes, recognizing the truth of who you are and taking that first step are huge milestones, and scary ones. We've all been there and know how you feel. You are in a safe place, and among friends who understand. It is a long road but one successfully traveled by many. I started my journey at the age of 55, and 11 years later I'm doing fine and am happy.
No one can predict what your path will bring, least of all me. But we can help out with answers, advice, support and resources. Ask and ye shall receive.
I'm not sure how to begin so I'll say hello to everyone.
The forced changes here caused by COVID made me look at myself a bit closer than I'd expected.
Having spent the last 50+ years circling the sun not understanding why I've never really fitted in anywhere I stumbled across one of Jackies (Rabbit) videos and .. (damnit I'm nearly crying, how does that happen ?, okay got it back together - is this going to happen - i kinda hope so) realized what I've been denying to myself.
Now I'm trying to learn what I need to know to become ME.
This is the first time I've said anything to anyone about how I'm feeling.
I should say I've been reading a lot of posts and now feel a bit less scared to post (so is this where the journey really begins, finally telling others how you feel or did it begin 40 years ago ?)
I've been really questioning my gender for the past month and I'm kinda confused. For context, I am AFAB, I was raised Roman Catholic, I suffer from depression and anxiety, and I've had a close brush with anorexia. I have always hated my body and the way I look. I used to think it was body dysmorphia, but I don't have visual distortions. I see myself as I am and I hate it. But I also have self esteem issues and depression and anxiety, so I don't know if it's just my pile of mental issues or gender dysphoria. I've always hated being stereo typically feminine. I hate pink and dresses and doing anything with my hair aside from brushing and washing it. I hate shaving anywhere and I hate high heels. I understand that anyone can like these things, but I've always hated them. I REFUSE to wear makeup, except for plays and such. I won't even cover up acne with concealer. Again, anyone can like these things, but in my culture and mind they are feminine, therefore I avoid them.
Someone please help me T_T
Hi @Holly92, nice to meet you. I have likely experienced some of the same things you have. I am also a bisexual woman but that is only part of who I am so we probably have many more differences than likenesses. I would enjoy learning more about those differences if you feel open to sharing them. I’m sure many others here would also.
Thanks for sharing a part of yourself today.
yea im going trough a similar experience im coping by settling on genders i think i am one of those is transgender the others are genderfluid and bigender i honestly think im one of those because clothes wise i want more variety, pronoun wise im fine with both he/him and she/her at least so far, and most days i feel like im in the middle of being a boy or being a girl the 1st one is for trans the 2nd genderflui and the 3rd bigender i just settle on one of those when im wondering my gender so maybe find genders that are you and say your one of them or say your all of them
Hey so im katherine 15 (I know I'm young I hope thats okay) I'm struggling with gender identity some days i just want to snap my fingers and change my body completely (as in no vag or breasts to having a p and some times neither) however im happy with using she/her terms but I feel like im wrong in the way that I don't experience high levels of body dysphoria which from my understanding please correct if im wrong is what kind of tells you in a way what gender you are (sorry if that was incorrect) its really stressing me out and some days I just feel so distant from my body and its not like I want to instantly have the "male" body its just like I don't want anything (but sometimes male or female and even both) but the term genderfluid doesn't sit well as even when I feel like a male i still wear stereotypical female clothing which i know sounds like a stupid excuse but from some if the gender fluid people i have met they have said thats how they deal with it sorry if I'm not making any sense however i was wondering if anyone is going through something similar and how they are coping with it