im also very confused

[hal]

I have always been unconfident, specially in the early teenage years, but mainly because of bullying. i couldn't, and still can't, relate or have a good friendship with most guys. for a long time i just tought that i was just a little feminine and got a long better with girls, and i kinda like some masculine aspects of my body, like the square-shaped face, body hair or the growing beard, heck, sometimes i even like my penis. but recently i downloaded that faceapp app and it contais a feature to "see yourself as the other gender". i mean, politically, i don't agree with the way that its worded, but when i did try it i began question if i really like being in my skin. i'm just thinking that, if i was afab, i wouldn't even question this in the first place and i would still like(or like even more) my features. i tought that that doubt would go away in the next day, but here i am. I just wish that i had been born a girl or that the famous gender-changing buttom existed.

I imagined being a girl before, but i would always say to myself that it doesn't mean nothing, 'cause i think that i'm a pretty guy, but now i think that i would be a hell prettier girl.

I would ask this question on my twitter, but i think people there would be way more agressive answering this question.

Am i a trans girl?? i don't know if i feel comfortable with she/her pronoums, but maybe it's because i still look at myself as being a man, like, by having masculine features, because when i fantasize with my girl routine with the Faceapp version of myself, i feel just nice being called by feminine pronoums.

I did a test on the internet and it said i'm bigender, but i still don't know if that sounds right for me.

[VickySGV]

Welcome to the Forums Hal.  Your feelings and questions are pretty standard for what people come here with.  I think you will feel fine tossing ideas around with our other members here.  If you can, I would suggest finding and going to a Therapist who deals with Transgender people to really get you on the road.  There is no one way to be Trans and there is no single solution for our lives.

[Tori M]

Hi Hal, welcome to the forum.  ☺️  Several things you said ring of my thoughts and experiences, so I think you're on the right track to be questioning and looking for answers.

1 hour ago, hal said:

if i was afab, i wouldn't even question this in the first place

 

That's a great way of putting it and a definite clue for you.  Many people here have had the same thought.  Many different experiences have been posted throughout the forum and one thing I've done is just reading those to help me examine my own feelings.  This is a friendly, supportive place and there are no wrong questions, so post freely.  I hope you find what you are looking for!

 

Hugs,

Tori

[Abi]

I think you can find a definition on the internet for anything but, that does not define you. It is how you feel, which makes you who you are. A label can be just as nerve wrecking as not having a word to describe yourself. I would just take it slow and read a lot. Get to know people that seem to say they feel things you can relate to. They will be good friends to have in any event.