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 hello my name is Brianna I am 54 years old I'm praying that I'm just starting this process. Never felt comfortable in my own skin. from a little boy on I've always wanted to be female. I hope I'm not too old to finally do this. I do not have any support around me except for my ex who is transgender she lives in Cleveland and I live in Florida we talked last night and she told me to go for it she never knew how I felt

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Hi, Brianna. 

 

Welcome to Trans Pulse!  This is a great place for support, especially with so many real-world support systems shut down due to covid.  By all means, ask questions, answer questions, vent, whatever you need.  The community is here for you.

 

At 54, you are definitely not too old.  Many of us started transitioning in our 60s (62 for me) or even 70s.  You are a young whippersnapper! :)

 

Regards,

Kathy

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Welcome Brianna.  We all run on our own timeline but i know i lived with gender issues before puberty and through out my life.  I went full time at 63 and after the dust settled i don't regret the years i spent as a male but am certainly enjoying having found peace with both sides of my reality.

 

Hugs,

 

Charlize

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Hi Brianna!  nice to meet you, and Welcome! 

I am a few years older than you also, so I can tell you its never too late.  Happy you've found yourself and found this Forum.  Its been an immense help for me just in the last several months. 

I think its great you have the support of your Ex, and I hope you can lean on her to help guide you.  There's lots of experience and support in this Forum also.  The biggest recommendation I received here is to start gender therapy.  I hope you also have that opportunity.


Deep breaths ... one step at a time❣️

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Hi Brianna,

Welcome to Transpulse. I'm glad you're here!

 

Never to old.

 

Lots of love and a big welcome hug,

Timber Wolf ?

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@Brianna66 welcome. Speaking of old I am 68 going on 13 as I started HRT 10 weeks ago. Never too late and you have a group of amazing and supportive ladies, many in your age group who can relate to you and to them and even me the old timer.

 

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Hi Brianna and welcome. Congrats on finding yourself! As many others have already said, it is never too late to be yourself. Also mentioned, this is a wonderfully supportive place, the folks here have been an immense help to me and many others.

 

Hope you have a wonderful day! Hugs!

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Welcome to Trans Pulse, Brianna.  I was equally scared 12 years ago when I started my journey at the age of 54.  I'm doing great and happier than ever (except for COVID, of course).  Welcome aboard, and please do ask all the questions that come to mind.  We'll be here to help.

 

HUGS

 

Carolyn Marie

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12 hours ago, KathyLauren said:

At 54, you are definitely not too old.  Many of us started transitioning in our 60s (62 for me) or even 70s.  You are a young whippersnapper!

 

12 hours ago, Charlize said:

i don't regret the years i spent as a male but am certainly enjoying having found peace with both sides of my reality.

 

9 hours ago, Shay said:

Speaking of old I am 68 going on 13 as I started HRT 10 weeks ago.

Hi Brianna

I'm glad you're here, I know I'm glad I"m here. As KathyLauren said, "or even 70's." That's me. I'm 76. I'm on the very front end, just like you. For me, the best part of this Forum is learning from other girls what their experience has been and is. For instance, sometimes I feel doubt, but I learn from them that feeling doubt is common, nevertheless, they keep going along their paths, and doubt is replaced by certainty, until the next wave of doubt. That's where my head is, anyhow. I'm hoping to get a HRT Rx next week. Taking the first one commits me to nothing. I'll live every day as well as I can, try to feel the good feminizing effects, and decide tomorrow if I'll do it again tomorrow.

 

~~Here's a big hug, from Lee~~ 

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 thank you all for the sweet words been trying to find support groups or counseling around Tampa Bay not having any luck at all any suggestions

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16 hours ago, Brianna66 said:

 I hope I'm not too old to finally do this. I do not have any support around me except for my ex who is transgender she lives in Cleveland and I live in Florida we talked last night and she told me to go for it she never knew how I felt

It is never too late to become your true self.   :) 

 

4 hours ago, Brianna66 said:

 thank you all for the sweet words been trying to find support groups or counseling around Tampa Bay not having any luck at all any suggestions

https://www.eqfl.org/additional-resources-central-florida - Found this via a brief search, has a few sources, unsure if that is nearby. Perhaps try a pros and cons list on transitioning. See if that helps give you more clarity, all the best. :) 

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Hi @Brianna66.

Definitely not too old! I'm 56 and 5 months HRT. I started electrolysis at your age and was growing out my hair. I too felt I was a girl inside my whole life. I'm so glad i set her free.

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