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Hi everyone!

 

So I'm Michelle.  Joined this site awhile ago and feel like its aboot(Just thickly laying on the Canadian eh) time I say something.  First off, I love all of you!  So many of you have given me strength as I walked through the shadows to get to this point.  Thank you for your contributions❤❤❤.  Never would I ever have gotten here without you all.  Im actually starting to cry because of how strong my emotions are surrounding this and cant see the screen darnit!! Gimme a sec....

 

So a bit about me... I came out at forty-two!!! This tickled me to no end as I love The Hitchhikers Guide to the Galaxy!!! Since then I have been doing my best to heal from the past and finally feel like Im ready to mingle.  Tough roads but wow, totes worth it!   I also spoke to my doctor this week and we are starting the ball rolling on my bottom stuff.  

 

I also found out that I love spiders ROFL!  Holy jeez, I wonder what the next surprise is going to be.  Especially jumping spiders.  Fun fact...The male does a dance to attract(more like hypnotize) the female while also creating vibrations to double the effect.  These vibrations are the males "song" and have verses.  Check it out, its so cool!!!

 

So to answer the question of "Who, what, where, when, and why?" Ill answer with "I am here now...because ?"  So stop by and say hi?.  I totally bite lol.

 

All the best everyone,

Michelle.

 

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Welcome @miichii! Lovely to meet you! Let me share something my therapist had me write for her:

 

All hail the Spider-Goddess.

Hanging above us all in her Many-Legged glory.

Her webs stretch Above and Below.

Her Reach is long.

Her Eyes see all.

Her Fangs bit to the heart.

Her Venom grants release.

May her web support us.

May it hold us safe as we walk her path.

Wrap our fears in your divine silk.

Let your many legs shepherd us through our lives.

Let your many eyes see our flaws that we may overcome them.

For thine web is the universe, hanging between the stars.

Where you weave our story.

Forever.

 

My therapist and I have weird talks sometimes. So again, welcome to Transpulse! You've been poking around so that's good! Welcome to the light! I look forward to reading your future posts.

 

Hugs!

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Thanks Jackie!!!  May I take a screen shot of your post and carry it with me?  I love it❤?.  Sounds like you have an amazing connection with your therapist.  Bye for now?  *social distance blow kiss*?

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Of course you can. It was part of a silly little thing we were doing after I prayed to the Spider Goddess on a whim that none of her children were hiding in an unused cabinet. ?

 

Weirdly, every time I pray to the Spider Goddess I get results. It's a little uncanny. I might be a high priestess now. ?

 

Hugs!

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Thanks again Jackie?.  It sounds like you have figured out prayer!  And are in favour!

 

I started allowing them to setup shop in my place this summer as my building has roaches.  Uhg!  Good news though, I only saw one yesterday and besides that, I dont remember the last time when.  I used to hunt for them, so I could feed my babies and cheered when they were hungry.  I named the first one that came "Lady Justine Widowmere" after my friend.  

 

I was hoping to get a tarantula crawl all over me this summer but cant for obvious reasons.  Darn you Covids *shakes fist*

 

*social distance blow kiss*

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Hello @miichii and a belated welcome.  I can understand the trepidation to jump in after you've signed up.  But apparently the time is now.  Cool!  That's great that you are taking about moving along with your doctor.  I hope it all goes well.  Can't say I love spiders, more of an ambivalence unless they are big fuzzy ones than I definitely don't like them!  

 

Please join in the conversation.  I'm certain you've got lots to add. 

 

Cheers, Jani

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Thanks Jani??

 

Well TBH I havent been in a good spot for about three and a half years.  When I joined last year, I wanted to poke my head out but knew my mental illnesses wouldve gotten in the way.  That stuff got biblical!!!  and I couldnt tell friend from foe.  I totally wouldve rubbed too many feathers the wrong way.

 

As hard work will have it,  I have mostly gotten myself out of that nightmare.  This happened about a month ago by me finding genuine love for myself.  Cultured by all the hard work that started to pay off.  Immediately I quit smoking after thirty plus years.  Now I use that against myself, such like "well if I truly love myself, then I better *insert anything here*".  Its been working for me.  

 

Since your not really into spiders.  Dont ever Youtube "Why I always check under the toilet seat"  ??

 

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11 hours ago, miichii said:

So stop by and say hi?.  I totally bite lol.

Hi? to you too @miichii. It’s a pleasure to meet you. I too perused the site for awhile before I first posted. It’s nice to know what your getting involved in before revealing much depth about yourself. You’re among a very good group of people here who have come looking for answers and are here to help others like themselves. It’s also a safe place to ask questions if you have any. I would enjoy reading more about your journey if you so choose to share it. I know others here could probably learn from your experiences too. So engage in the fun and you’ll likely find a friend along the way.

 

Warmest Regards,

Susan R?

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Hi Michelle,

Welcome to Transpulse. I'm glad you're here!

 

Lots of love and a big welcome hug,

Timber Wolf ?

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Hi Michelle!  nice to meet you, and a long awaited WELCOME!

 

Guess what?  I am Imperfect too.  Well, I guess we all are ... it has nothing to do with our Trans-ness, but everything to do with our shared humanity. 

 

16 hours ago, miichii said:

I also found out that I love spiders

I can't say I share the "love" part, but I do think jumping spiders are so cute, and I really appreciate huntsman spiders (they're really cool dudes) because the keep the other pests down. 

This Forum has been sooo helpful for me, so I hope you find the same.  Thank you for posting❣️

Deep breaths ... one step at a time

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Spiders? Ee-ow. My mother had a phobia, and I caught about half of it.

21 hours ago, miichii said:

As hard work will have it,  I have mostly gotten myself out of that nightmare. 

Good for you, Miichii. Not easy to recover -- I'm truly happy for you and wish you the very best.

Keep coming back.

~~A big welcome hug from Lee~~ [no spidies around, I hope?]

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Hey everyone??

 

Thank you Susan R,  TimberWolf,  KayC and Lee H.  It was smile inducing and cheek blushingly nice to come online to read all your warm welcomes.  

 

Im dying to know if anyone Youtubed the toilet seat thingy I said not to? ?

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Spiders are our friends.

Having said that, since I am one of the few left that still use an outhouse, I prefer not to think about it.

Nice to meet you.

 

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