And I'm Kestrel!

[Heather Shay]

@Kestrel McLoughlin you are apparently at an age what the ravages of T have not done permanent damage and  you do have the ability to arrive at the gender app. approximation. Glad you can grow LONG HAIR and your smile is precious even if it wasn't enhanced. 

[Bri2020]

Welcome Kestrel,

Love your name- I occasionally see kestrels here in my area and they are one of my favorite birds. Gorgeous, the act bigger than they are and are amazingly graceful.  Everyone's commented on your tights and sock but I have to say the celt in me loves the cables accents in the skirt.

 

[Heather Nicole]

Hi, Kestrel!

 

I love your name and outfit!

[Lee H]

Wow, Heathick, who's your doc? She has the magic touch....

~~Lee~~

[Heather Nicole]

My doc is FaceApp's gender filter I wish I really looked like that!

 

[Abi]

On 9/19/2020 at 5:14 PM, Kestrel McLoughlin said:

My reluctance to come here was only because these huge questions I have to ask myself might trigger what hurts in some of you

 

Hi Kestrel,

    Your presence could equally be critical at some point when someone sees your perspective and finds comfort in that thought. No one wants to say the wrong thing but, if we all hold back because of that possibility then the community is lost. All any of us can do is try our best to add where we can and appreciate what has been offered. 

[Berni]

Hi @Kestrel McLoughlin,

 

I'm late to the party, but I loved your introduction. You spoke eloquently of the magic inside each of us. A luminosity. Lovely!

[Berni]

... also ...

 

Incredibly cute hat and outfit in your profile pic.

 

I've kept most of my (nice) boy clothes in the hope to, one day, wear them ironically as if I'm wearing my boyfriend's stuff.

 

Kind of my end goal / quest ... to wear all my old stuff and still be gendered Female.

 

Offerings to the HRT faerie have been given.

[Heather Nicole]

8 hours ago, Berni said:

Kind of my end goal / quest ... to wear all my old stuff and still be gendered Female.

 

I love that idea!!!

[Kestrel McLoughlin]

Thank you Abi, you're right, of course. I'll keep talking about it, I'll just always be gentle with people.

 

Berni, yes! Even when even more thoroughly in the closet, I noticed that the more formally I dressed, the more femme I looked. A white shirt, bowtie, hair parted and tucked? FLAMING LESBIAN IN DISGUISE AS MAN LOOK EVERYONE  I kinda love that; and yes, I too will be keeping my spiffiest masculine clothing, because the aesthetic of a woman wearing that kind of attire can be killer. A little make-up, cascading hair, hopefully some perky little breasts, I can rock that look......

 

All my love, everyone. You're good people. And fun!

[Kestrel McLoughlin]

Also this shirt has literally stopped traffic. Someone stopped in the middle of an intersection to declare its glory. To say nothing of the smoky woman who smouldered at me, “...And I’ll bet you’ve been to all those places, too...”

 

That would have been creepy, but she since vindicated herself as solid people: she squeezed my arm and whispered a thanks to me after I offered a disrupting comment at the workplace self-congratulatory pink shirt day. 
 

“Also, let’s remember that there are... invisible kinds of diversity, and not only must we speculate how to bring in further diversity, but also recognize the extent to which that diversity already exists among us; and a good omen of how healthy a workplace is is the extent to which your colleagues want to share that with you.”

 

That got them thinkin...

[Berni]

3 hours ago, Kestrel McLoughlin said:

 because the aesthetic of a woman wearing that kind of attire can be killer. A little make-up, cascading hair, hopefully some perky little breasts, I can rock that look......

 

Oh my god yes! I have a beautiful collection of waist coats that I intend having tailored once my breasts finish growing in. I love a woman in tweed.

[Susan R]

On 9/19/2020 at 3:14 PM, Kestrel McLoughlin said:

But my excitement to come here is because I want to experiment with this lumonisty I feel. I want to call myself Kestrel to people and be friends, be community.

Hello @Kestrel McLoughlin, I enjoyed reading your intro very much. I somehow missed it first time around. I’m glad you found us and decided to sign on. Thanks for sharing a little of yourself. I hope to read more about you and your journey thus far.

 

Warmest Regards,

Susan R?

[DeeDee]

Hi Kestrel, pleased to meet you. ? I think your personality just bubbles through in your outfit (I love the green dress!) and your posts. I'm afraid if I tried to put together a boho look it would just look like I fell in a laundry basket. I seem to alternate between geek chic and smart casual depending on my mood, flared asymmetrical skirts are just gorgeous, but I don't really have a style yet. Who knows. Hope to hear more from you.

[GraceH]

On 9/19/2020 at 6:14 PM, Kestrel McLoughlin said:

Kestrel is a light in my body that gets warmer and closer to the surface all the time.

 

Hi Kestrel,

 

Exactly.  That statement resonates with me and is not something I expected to find on this journey, but I do find, more and more.

 

--Grace