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Morning all. I came out to my family as nonbinary earlier in the year, after having struggled with gender dysphoria for what I realised was about two decades. Lately, I think it's more than that- I strongly suspect I’m male, and would like to be referred to a Gender Identity Clinic so that I can talk it out and determine whether it's right for me to start HRT. When I look at myself in the mirror, my body’s not my own, and I started weightlifting some time ago to try and change it, but fighting against genetics, there’s only so much I’m capable of. Buying a binder was a complete revelation- of course, you can’t wear it all day, and my job is very physical (farming), so I’m limited to the house or shops, when shops become a thing again. There is a private service I've seen online (GenderGP) which I will probably end up using as I don't want to be stuck on a waiting list for who knows how long, but right now I'm just excited about the fact that I've settled on Jack (after reading through every baby-name site in existence) and found this awesome community of people whose support and guidance has already proven invaluable. I’m very much at the beginning of my journey, even though there’s been a lot of soul searching to get to this point, however I feel confident I can reach my goals and hopefully hit some milestones.


Looking forward to getting to know you all better,


-Jack

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Jackie C.

Salutations Jack! Pleasure to meet you.

 

I think I've only known one donkey in my life... Debbie the Donkey, she was... defective. Hunchback, kink in her tail, blind in one eye, one ear didn't work exactly right. Sweet creature, but probably atypical. She had pretty blue eyes... well, eye though. Completely with you on the spicy food too.

 

I agree about the exercise too. There's only so much you can do before genetics and hormones get in the way. My friend Ray is ripped, but you wouldn't mistake her for anything but a woman. There are some tricks, but they can only take you so far.

 

I know exactly how you feel with the dysphoria too. You look in the mirror and think, "That can't possibly be me." I've found that being me makes everything else easier. I'm actually happy to see myself in the mirror now. That's pretty cool. I hope you can find what you're looking for and make it your reality.

 

In the meantime, we're here to listen. Join the conversations that strike your fancy and maybe make some friends.

 

Hugs!

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Timber Wolf

Hi Jack,

Welcome to Transpulse. I'm glad you're here!

 

Lots of love and a big welcome hug,

Timber Wolf 🐾

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I wish I could have met Debbie, she sounds like such a character. One of the donkeys I work with will actually rest his head on your shoulder, but he's very unique in that regard.

 

Thank you both for the warm welcome! I know I have a long road ahead, but it's a privilege to be surrounded by so many inspirational people who are walking theirs.

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Sally Stone

Hi Jack.  Welcome to Trans Pulse.  It is so great to meet you.

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Hi Jack!  nice to meet you and Welcome!

 

Therapy at a Gender Identity Clinic is a great way to start.  I'm happy you made that determination. 

I am sure you will find many others on this Forum you can connect with, and share similar experiences.  Happy you are with us❣️

Deep breaths ... one step at a time

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