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Denisenj

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I've cross-dressed all my life and been out a few times over the years

Usually in the evening I never went out in the daytime but the past year I dressed a lot more. Started wearing my nails longer and having them polished. I never dreamt I'd be able to go into a Macy's or a Paschal or Wawa or store dressed as Denise. I liked it so much I even started on HRT back in May. But after two months I stopped cuz I want to find a girlfriend. Recently divorced I'm an older crossdresser but I present fairly well. Well I'm seeking out counseling and therapy on Monday I had a full set of coffin nails put on and spa pedicure Tuesday and Wednesday I spent the whole day as Denise doing everything I would normally do as Dennis. I'm starting to wonder I'm I really just a crossdresser or am I really transgender. What's great about cross-dressing is you could come home take it off and go back to being you. But now I'm ask myself who is the real me. I went to my favorite Golf course sports pub the girls knew about my cross-dressing from pictures I show them. Word a pleasantly surprised when I came in as Denise I couldn't get enough compliments it felt so good to be accepted in society as a woman. Followed that by going to the casino. No I'm not taking a break purple palace off my longer coffin shaped nails I'm really starting to enjoy the look and feel and you're not that long. I didn't get gel so I could take the color off if needed. How many crossdressers would go out and buy mode with a full set of coffin shaped nails. I love the look and feel so much I've been doing it but this is the first time I got a full set of nails put on. I like the advantages of cross dressing but then I like being too nice also I'm at a crossroad

 

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When I came out to my wife last year I really didn't know whether I just needed to be a man spend time dressing as a woman or if I needed more than that. I had a number of therapy sessions with a counsellor specialising in gender and sexuality issues and we agreed at the end that I could be regarded as Gender Fluid primarily because when I am Niamh I want to be regarded as a Woman and experience being a woman, not as a man who is dressed as a woman, but I also enjoy time as a man. The other area which indicated to my therapist and I that I was transgender was my desire to experience MTF hormone treatment.

 

I'm taking things slowly and I don't know if I will ever wish to be a woman full time. In my fantasy - I could have a button to change between genders at will. Unfortunately life is not like that. 

You have to come to your own conclusions as to where you need to go, but working with a good gender therapist should help you understand what that is.

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Well for years I want to get my ears pierced.if I could go round in semi guy mode with longer coffin shaped nails polish too beautiful purple the girls gave me so many compliments on how nice my nails look I went ahead and got my ears pierced at Claire's tonight. Number 5 diamond studs. The girl was like 19 years old and we talked and she said she was intrigued by me I went there in semi guy mode at a girl's spare flats on some skinny jeans and a little bit of eye makeup she said I made her day that I was so confident in myself.I can't wait till they heal up so I could change out the studs and start wearing some really girly earrings when I dress up bigger hoops I'm really starting to enjoy my feminine side more and more everyday

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Sounds to me as though you are more than a crossdresser Denise, at least that's the sense I'm getting.  At the end of the day though, it doesn't really matter how we try to identify.  Clearly, it's more important to find our happy place. 

 

My happy place is expressing two genders and not having to choose one over the other.   And long ago, I stopped trying to classify myself with a label.  I used the term crossdresser when describing myself, for many years, but I realized it only described what I was doing, not who I am.   After years of trying to find a category to put myself into, I had a bit of an epiphany and realized that I am unique, in fact each of us is unique, so trying to find a singular category that fits us, is next to impossible.  

 

I express my feminine side socially at least one day a week, occasionally more, sometimes less, it depends on work and life chores, but that time as Sally makes me very happy and keeps me fulfilled.  I have every confidence you'll find happiness and contentment as well.  It may be your current path, or a something completely different, but you'll certainly find your way.

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Nice response Sally. I think you're right Sally but even though I think like a woman and I like to dress as a woman I still like to be there and take care of women Yeah tonight a girl that I like and that I treat good said I'm taking you out to dinner wherever you want to go. Well I was Dennis and she knows about my cross-dressing but I wasn't taking off my nail polish I like it so much and she didn't mind whatsoever he went to a sport pub,

I usually go to  after golf .

 I brought the servers  flowers and some donuts from the Amish market

I'm just friends with this girl Drr but it feels good just to be around a girl either as Dennis or Denise

At least she came back to my place we looked at old photos hung out had coffee and spent three hours here.I know I'm only going to be your friend but I  really think she likes me but religion is in the way . Tomorrow I'm dressing I'm going to the mall to see this girl  Linsey that help me with my makeup last year and to tip the girl who just pierced my ears .I never tipped her and I'm going to get dressed up as Denise and try to look good tomorrow

 I did get a nice long hug from her I didn't try anything else she knows that I like being a woman. And she likes me still.

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Denise it is good to see you enjoying yourself.  I remember finding a cis female friend and simply being accepted by someone as myself made a big difference to my accepting myself.  The picture of you two is great!

 

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Charlize

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On 10/19/2020 at 6:41 AM, Denisenj said:

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It just feels good being a girl now I want to get a nose job I fix my broken nose and thin it out some. I really didn't need my color changed wanted to try white I'm not 2 excited about the white nails I think French would look a whole lot better.

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