Jump to content
  • Welcome to the TransPulse Forums!

    We offer a safe, inclusive community for transgender and gender non-conforming folks, as well as their loved ones, to find support and information.  Join today!

2 days dressed as Denise loved it


Denisenj

Recommended Posts

I've cross-dressed all my life and been out a few times over the years

Usually in the evening I never went out in the daytime but the past year I dressed a lot more. Started wearing my nails longer and having them polished. I never dreamt I'd be able to go into a Macy's or a Paschal or Wawa or store dressed as Denise. I liked it so much I even started on HRT back in May. But after two months I stopped cuz I want to find a girlfriend. Recently divorced I'm an older crossdresser but I present fairly well. Well I'm seeking out counseling and therapy on Monday I had a full set of coffin nails put on and spa pedicure Tuesday and Wednesday I spent the whole day as Denise doing everything I would normally do as Dennis. I'm starting to wonder I'm I really just a crossdresser or am I really transgender. What's great about cross-dressing is you could come home take it off and go back to being you. But now I'm ask myself who is the real me. I went to my favorite Golf course sports pub the girls knew about my cross-dressing from pictures I show them. Word a pleasantly surprised when I came in as Denise I couldn't get enough compliments it felt so good to be accepted in society as a woman. Followed that by going to the casino. No I'm not taking a break purple palace off my longer coffin shaped nails I'm really starting to enjoy the look and feel and you're not that long. I didn't get gel so I could take the color off if needed. How many crossdressers would go out and buy mode with a full set of coffin shaped nails. I love the look and feel so much I've been doing it but this is the first time I got a full set of nails put on. I like the advantages of cross dressing but then I like being too nice also I'm at a crossroad

 

IMG_20201014_132257736_BURST000_COVER_TOP.jpg

IMG_20201012_185824946.jpg

Link to comment

When I came out to my wife last year I really didn't know whether I just needed to be a man spend time dressing as a woman or if I needed more than that. I had a number of therapy sessions with a counsellor specialising in gender and sexuality issues and we agreed at the end that I could be regarded as Gender Fluid primarily because when I am Niamh I want to be regarded as a Woman and experience being a woman, not as a man who is dressed as a woman, but I also enjoy time as a man. The other area which indicated to my therapist and I that I was transgender was my desire to experience MTF hormone treatment.

 

I'm taking things slowly and I don't know if I will ever wish to be a woman full time. In my fantasy - I could have a button to change between genders at will. Unfortunately life is not like that. 

You have to come to your own conclusions as to where you need to go, but working with a good gender therapist should help you understand what that is.

Link to comment

Well for years I want to get my ears pierced.if I could go round in semi guy mode with longer coffin shaped nails polish too beautiful purple the girls gave me so many compliments on how nice my nails look I went ahead and got my ears pierced at Claire's tonight. Number 5 diamond studs. The girl was like 19 years old and we talked and she said she was intrigued by me I went there in semi guy mode at a girl's spare flats on some skinny jeans and a little bit of eye makeup she said I made her day that I was so confident in myself.I can't wait till they heal up so I could change out the studs and start wearing some really girly earrings when I dress up bigger hoops I'm really starting to enjoy my feminine side more and more everyday

Link to comment

Sounds to me as though you are more than a crossdresser Denise, at least that's the sense I'm getting.  At the end of the day though, it doesn't really matter how we try to identify.  Clearly, it's more important to find our happy place. 

 

My happy place is expressing two genders and not having to choose one over the other.   And long ago, I stopped trying to classify myself with a label.  I used the term crossdresser when describing myself, for many years, but I realized it only described what I was doing, not who I am.   After years of trying to find a category to put myself into, I had a bit of an epiphany and realized that I am unique, in fact each of us is unique, so trying to find a singular category that fits us, is next to impossible.  

 

I express my feminine side socially at least one day a week, occasionally more, sometimes less, it depends on work and life chores, but that time as Sally makes me very happy and keeps me fulfilled.  I have every confidence you'll find happiness and contentment as well.  It may be your current path, or a something completely different, but you'll certainly find your way.

Link to comment

Nice response Sally. I think you're right Sally but even though I think like a woman and I like to dress as a woman I still like to be there and take care of women Yeah tonight a girl that I like and that I treat good said I'm taking you out to dinner wherever you want to go. Well I was Dennis and she knows about my cross-dressing but I wasn't taking off my nail polish I like it so much and she didn't mind whatsoever he went to a sport pub,

I usually go to  after golf .

 I brought the servers  flowers and some donuts from the Amish market

I'm just friends with this girl Drr but it feels good just to be around a girl either as Dennis or Denise

At least she came back to my place we looked at old photos hung out had coffee and spent three hours here.I know I'm only going to be your friend but I  really think she likes me but religion is in the way . Tomorrow I'm dressing I'm going to the mall to see this girl  Linsey that help me with my makeup last year and to tip the girl who just pierced my ears .I never tipped her and I'm going to get dressed up as Denise and try to look good tomorrow

 I did get a nice long hug from her I didn't try anything else she knows that I like being a woman. And she likes me still.

IMG_20201017_200340138_BURST000_COVER_TOP.jpg

IMG_20201017_134857491.jpg

Link to comment
  • Forum Moderator

Denise it is good to see you enjoying yourself.  I remember finding a cis female friend and simply being accepted by someone as myself made a big difference to my accepting myself.  The picture of you two is great!

 

Hugs,

 

Charlize

Link to comment
On 10/19/2020 at 6:41 AM, Denisenj said:

IMG_20201018_145218724.jpg

IMG_20201018_140935293_HDR.jpg

It just feels good being a girl now I want to get a nose job I fix my broken nose and thin it out some. I really didn't need my color changed wanted to try white I'm not 2 excited about the white nails I think French would look a whole lot better.

IMG_20201020_164020741.jpg

Link to comment

Create an account or sign in to comment

You need to be a member in order to leave a comment

Create an account

Sign up for a new account in our community. It's easy!

Register a new account

Sign in

Already have an account? Sign in here.

Sign In Now
  • Who's Online   3 Members, 0 Anonymous, 127 Guests (See full list)

    • Faye1972
    • Petra Jane
    • Karen Carey
  • Recently Browsing   0 members

    • No registered users viewing this page.
  • Forum Statistics

    • Total Topics
      80.5k
    • Total Posts
      767.2k
  • Member Statistics

    • Total Members
      11,942
    • Most Online
      8,356

    taxicab
    Newest Member
    taxicab
    Joined
  • Today's Birthdays

    1. Amyjay
      Amyjay
      (58 years old)
    2. bettyjean
      bettyjean
    3. Breanna
      Breanna
      (52 years old)
    4. Emily Ayla
      Emily Ayla
    5. JET182
      JET182
  • Posts

    • Susan R
      Love it! This is great news. We need more of this to combat the excessive hate-filled rhetoric and misinformation. 👍
    • Susan R
      The experience was the same for me @April Marie. I slept much deeper and I woke up each morning feeling so much more restful sleeping with forms solidly in place. For me, wearing breast forms at night started when before I was a teenager. I had no access up to modern breast forms and certainly no way to buy mastectomy bras back then. I wore a basic bra my mom had put in a donation box and two pairs of soft cotton socks. I have some crazy memories of things I did in my youth to combat my GD but regardless, these makeshift concoctions helped me work through it all.   All My Best, Susan R🌷
    • awkward-yet-sweet
      Colorado isn't exactly a Republican place, and won't become one anytime soon.  I think those folks might be better off not spending their time playing Don Quixote.    We certainly have our share of California "refugees" moving into where I live, so I wouldn't be surprised to start seeing Coloradans too.  I suspect the trend over the next few years will see the blue areas getting more blue and the red areas getting more red as anybody who can relocate tries to find a place where they fit better.   
    • awkward-yet-sweet
      Well, at least it'll be a place some folks could choose.  Options are a good thing.
    • awkward-yet-sweet
      My family would have gobbled that jar up in a minute or two.  When we do have pickled herring, its usually for Christmas.  I didn't grow up with that particular dish, but I grew up in a Greek family so I like just about any kind of fish if I can get it.  However, ocean fish and freshwater fish taste so different.  We usually have more catfish and tilapia to eat than anything else.    What I can't quite get used to is the tons of cabbage my GF insists on eating.  When you live with a Russian, there is always cabbage soup.  Always.  When I first moved in with her, breakfast was "shchi" for soup and either bread or "kasha" which is a bowl of boiled buckwheat with butter and salt.  Those dishes can be made in any number of ways, some are better than others.  In the winter, it can even be salty and sour like kraut.  Not exactly sauerkraut, but packed in tubs with vinegar and salt so it keeps partially for the winter.  But I drew the line when the cabbage soup included pieces of fried snake one day.  😆
    • Ashley0616
      Good evening to you as well @Mmindy   That is awesome that you have support from her side. My dad has communicated with me once and that was because he was forced to. His new wife wanted to spend time with my kids. He hated me so much he was in the process of taking my rights away as a parent to my two boys. He was talking to a lawyer and I called him out on it. I don't love him at all. I'll respect him because I wouldn't be here without him but I wished I had another father. My uncles don't talk to me and unfriended me on Facebook. Almost all cousins except for two are still Facebook friends but they don't give me any support. My mom said she won't support me with that but she has said that she loves me. I have nieces and nephews that are still Facebook friends but they have yet to talk to me. I have one sister that supports me out of three. The other's disrespect me by deadnaming me. They have never called me their sister. I think for them they think it's still a phase. They don't ask questions about me being trans. I have to bring it up and on the look of their faces they don't look comfortable about it. 
    • Mmindy
      Good evening @Ashley0616,   I just got offline with HP tech support trying to get my printer tool box icon locked to my tool bar. This is one of the most important features of my printer that I like because it keeps track of ink, paper, and scanned documents. I'm diffidently not a computer geek.   I'll catch up with the other bookmarks next week. We leave to go home for the Easter Holiday with our families. Saturday with her side, and Sunday with my side. What's odd about that is I'm out to more of her side and they're reluctantly supportive. My side on the other hand are less supportive, and my sister just under me in age will not acknowledge my being there. She will be constantly moving to keep from dealing with me. I'm dead to her.   Hugs,   Mindy🌈🐛🏳️‍⚧️🦋  
    • Ashley0616
      I used to follow baseball and the team I would cheer for is Boston Red Sox. My favorite player was Papi. He was an awesome guy and even held a child during the National Anthem. I haven't watched baseball for a long time. It just died off to me. 
    • Ashley0616
      That stinks that nothing transferred, and no bookmarks were saved! 
    • Ashley0616
      I'm doing patches for now but I think soon I'll go to shots because it's hard to alternate when you are doing two xx patches at once. Unless she gives me Estradiol and progesterone
    • Sally Stone
      Go Cleveland Guardians!  I love baseball and I loved playing it when I was younger.  
    • Sally Stone
      My view is we are "dependent" on government, because as a society, we are too lazy to stay actively involved. So, we let politicians do our bidding for us.  I think we'd be in a better place government wise if we policed the actions of our politicians.  We elected them; they work for us.  Sadly, we are allowing them to run amok.  We are where we are because we have chosen to let politicians make all decisions without us.  Remember "by the people, for the people?" That was the intent of our democracy.  Today, however, it is "by the politicians, for the politicians," the people be damned. 
    • Mmindy
      "Play Ball! Batter Up!" is the closing line of the National Anthem as far as I'm concerned. It's the call of the Home Plate Umpire and signals the start of the game. I grew up in the TV and Radio broadcast of the St. Louis Cardinals. Harry Caray, Jack Buck, Tim McCarver, and Mike Shannon, were the voices on my transistor radio. KMOX 1120 AM pushing 50,000 watts of Class A clear-channel non-directional signal. It could be picked up all across MO, IL, IN to the East. KS, OK, CO to the West. IA, MN to the North, and KY, TN, AR to the South. There has always been a rivalry against the Chicago Cubs, in the National League. As for the American League, I have to pull for the Kansas City Royals. I've also been a Little League Umpire, and fan of everything the Little League stands for. Going to Williamsport, PA and seeing the Little League World Series is in my top 10 things to do on my bucket list.   Mindy🌈🐛🏳️‍⚧️🦋
    • Mmindy
      Good evening everyone,   I don't think my mother ever cooked a meal that I didn't like. We also had a kitchen where mom fixed the food, dad filled your plate, and you eat it. It wasn't until our baby brother was born that we could have Pop-Tarts for snacks. Before that all snacks had to meet mom's approval, and in her opinion wouldn't prevent you from eating supper.   Well my day started off on a good note, but has become frustrating because my IT person didn't transfer my saved videos I use for teaching. Then I found out that they didn't save any of my book marks for websites I use frequently.   Best wishes, stay motivated,   Mindy🌈🐛🏳️‍⚧️🦋
    • MaeBe
      The number is relative to method of deliver, the time of the dose, and when the blood is drawn. However, I do want to keep away from DVT and other potential issues. I assume I may be getting backed down from my current dose, but my doc told me to stick with the higher dose, so? I also wonder if this has anything to do the my breast growth and mental changes that have been happening over the past few years, like I have some estrogen sensitivity so a little goes a long way or something? I don't have enough data to postulate, but who knows!   With weekly, subcutaneous, shots you expect to see big swings of serum level estradiol from shot to peak to trough. My doctor is interested in mid-week testing (for E and T levels only), which would be post-peak blood serum levels but they will be higher than trough. Most, if not all, resources I've seen online is to measure at trough (which I might do just to do it next time) along with a SHBG, LH, and other metrics.   This is from transfemscience.org for Estradiol valerate in oil, which is very spiky compared to some other estradiol combinations. It's also for intramuscular, which will have a slower uptake and is usually dosed in higher volume due to the slower absorption rate from muscles. They don't have subcutaneous numbers, which I would expect to see similar spikes but higher levels at similar doses due to the relatively higher absorption rate direct from fat.   Are you doing pills, shots, or patches? And when you do get your levels checked are you getting that done when your levels are lowest or some other time?
  • Upcoming Events

Contact TransPulse

TransPulse can be contacted in the following ways:

Email: Click Here.

To report an error on this page.

Legal

Your use of this site is subject to the following rules and policies, whether you have read them or not.

Terms of Use
Privacy Policy
DMCA Policy
Community Rules

Hosting

Upstream hosting for TransPulse provided by QnEZ.

Sponsorship

Special consideration for TransPulse is kindly provided by The Breast Form Store.
×
×
  • Create New...