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Guest Christine Beatty

Transwoman's Story In New Na Basic Text

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Guest Christine Beatty

When I first got clean & sober in the late 80's there were very few trans people in recovery and fewer non-stealth ones, even the big city I grew up in. Of course, there were no personal stories of clean & sober trans people either in the AA Big Book or the NA Basic Text, nobody for me to identify with.

Things have changed for the better. For one, last year NA released the sixth edition of its Basic Text, and there is a story by one of our own in there. Look on page 264 for the story "Terminally Unique." If you don't have the sixth edition, which was published last October, you can download the pdf from NA's website, here:

NA Basic Text, 6th edition PDF

The page number on the page navigation bar of PDF reader is 292.

Please pass this on to other trans people in recovery or who want to be in recovery. There's nothing like knowing there are "public" successes out there.

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When I first got clean & sober in the late 80's there were very few trans people in recovery and fewer non-stealth ones, even the big city I grew up in. Of course, there were no personal stories of clean & sober trans people either in the AA Big Book or the NA Basic Text, nobody for me to identify with.

Things have changed for the better. For one, last year NA released the sixth edition of its Basic Text, and there is a story by one of our own in there. Look on page 264 for the story "Terminally Unique." If you don't have the sixth edition, which was published last October, you can download the pdf from NA's website, here:

NA Basic Text, 6th edition PDF

The page number on the page navigation bar of PDF reader is 292.

Please pass this on to other trans people in recovery or who want to be in recovery. There's nothing like knowing there are "public" successes out there.

Thank you for caring and sharing your message. I'm not and never have been addited yet have an understanding of how drugs affect ones life. Hopefully life is better,

for you, and that 2010 will even be better positively & constructively.

Sandy

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