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Yes and learned bottling it up did not work at all.Learned bottling it up made it worse and put a toll on me

We’ve been around through all of history. DES was just one factor, but being trans is part of being human.

Hi, I'm Rachel. This is my first post to anyone, out side of family, that I am transgender. With that said.. I have spent some time reading over different areas and topics getting to know more about this site and the wonderful people here. So far so mush connection with others for me. And I am so glade I was able to find it I am 50 and just accepted my being female. Happily so is my family, so far. I have yet to talk to doctors about this, scared really, they may fight me getting the help I need. Well met and hugs to all that want one, Rachel

This is so true for me. It is hard. basically living two lives. Kymmie

I've only been gendered correctly once while out with my mom, but I'm pretty sure it was an accident lol. We were going througha drive-thru and the cashier told us, "Have a nice day ladies!" I was smoking a cigarette and had my head turned away at the time but turned to look at the cashier when I heard him say "ladies." XD I was waiting for him to correct himself, but he didn't and mom and I giggled about it shortly after lol. ...I'm pretty sure he was either just being polite or completely oblivious, already focusing on the next car in line, running on auto-pilot, eager to get off work lmao.

When I bottled it up before coming out.Made it worse and put a toll on me.Learned it did not work at all.

I was just thinking about the fact that DES may be the reason that i'm trans. In the long run, it really doesn't matter why I am what I am. It is nice to know though that there really is a reason for it. Turns out I'm not crazy. I'm still a freak of nature, but a happier one now that I know i'm not the cause of it. Another fine example of what happens when we mess around with mother nature.

Oh hey, I did that last night too. We were in the garden though, so WAY too cold for a dress. Two members wore one anyway and I respect their ability to sit in the cold like that, but I bundled my butt up like a sensible person. I didn't wear anything special, just jeans and a t-shirt (under a sweatshirt, under my pleather jacket), but I still had a blast. Love what you're wearing @Bri2020! That dress really compliments your new curves! Hugs!

I like the hat also, it would cover up my sparse hair on top nicely. It's a long process changing your wardrobe. Strains the budget. Winters coming soon and I need all new winter clothes. I haven't had anyone gender me correctly yet when i'm out. The closest i've gotten is one guy who is a walmart greeter stopped saying, "have a nice day SIR". He just gives me a puzzled look and says, "have a nice day" now. It's a start.

Oh yeah. Still introverted, but I'm much more likely to do the outgoing, social thing until my batteries are down around 20%. I just did a meetup with a bunch of other LGBT+ people last night. I had a room full of strangers , we just talked about stuff for three and a half hours over drinks and shared contact information. I had a blast. Well, mathematically, there should be about 60, though we tend to congregate in city enclaves more than small towns. Though thinking about it, an entire trans town would be kind of awesome. Hugs!

That's the way you've got to do it. Who gives a crap about what other people think. If they don't like the way you are, that's their problem. That's the way I roll. Got enough to worry about in life. I'm not going to add them to the list.

Silent movies can be the best! "Hi Allie" says it all (that and the look of worry disappearing from her face)! Both parents were Marines (during "Korea") with "dad" rarely at home . . . yet he was the one, after divorce, who eventually took sister and I in and said "love you regardless"!

I guess I should say, Exuberent for finally being myself, and sad when I see the pain i'm causing my wife, and angry that I didn't figure out who I was until such a late age.

It takes time with wives. Mine is slowly getting better all the time. It's been about 9 months since I came out to mine. I love hearing the good stuff like this. Congrats. We went to a family function yesterday. I gave my neice a hug goodby and she wispered in my ear, "You look pretty today". It was a good feeling. I thought there was only one other trans woman besides me in my town of about 12,000 people. I found out there is at least three others here. One is a nurse. I suspected I wasn't alone. Every once in a while I see someone when i'm out, and my brain says "something is different with that person". I don't ask. It would be pretty awkward if they weren't, like asking an overweight woman when the baby is due when she's not pregnant.

What prompted this latest big discussion with Mrs was her invite to accompany her to a friend's party...she always lets me decline such invites due to my established introverted personality. At least she now knows that the message that "there'll be guys there he can hang out with" isn't a good selling point with me. Went in guy mode but since starting on the happy pills I am not as closed up as I used to be, and she's the one who wanted to leave first for once. If this happens a few more times, to @Jackie C.'s point, she'll realize that I really am happier and nicer to be around if I'm not hiding away defending a fortress of solitude and it will end up helping her deal with all the angst she has over 'losing' her husband.

Expect to be treated with kindness and respect by someone who's probably met many trans people, and may be one themselves. They will want to get to know you, they will ask you to tell them about yourself, and ask you what your goals are in regards to the therapy sessions. They may ask about your fears, desires, and your own knowledge about being trans. My only suggestion, other than administrative questions such as fees, and such, is to be as honest as you are comfortable with, and forthright about what your expectations of them are. Carolyn Marie

There's no hurry to start transitioning -right now- if you are feeling uneasy about the situation or are unable to transition yet. There's nothing wrong with taking your time and exploring your options and what you want to do in the future. Living with your parents when you want to start transitioning can possibly be a barrier, but you really won't know unless you talk with them about it. Which you don't have to do if you feel unsafe. However, it is very unsafe to self-medicate with hormones, so please don't take any backroads to get on T. My personal recommendation would be to talk to your parents after you feel more comfortable with it yourself.

As hard as it is to deal with the gender dysphoria of not wearing a binder, I would highly suggest that you do not wear one right now. Binders have been known to crack ribs, so it is entirely possible that binding could adversely affect your health if you are having chest pains. Overlarge hoodies can be your best friends right now. And please see a doctor as soon as you are able to. Just start with your primary care doctor if you have one.

My partner,she has been a big help too.Relates to bottling realizing she was a lesbian divorced too.She also has two sons from the previous marriage that see me as a great second mom.My family learned to let go of the unhappy me very well

Those moments are the best

Sorry for the ramble LOL...I'm super divergent/distractable today.

Welcome Adrianna! I relate to suppressing for a long time, the bottle was mostly uncorked to try & make it go away. It didn't work. I'm happy you have found your way & your family supports you. I think you'll find the loving support, advice & acceptance here as wonderful as I have. Hugs! Delcina

I just join local groups on Fetlife, then go to group lunches and meetups, talk with people, put myself out there. I've had many, many many dates as a result lol. Not really interested in an LTR, though I was going with this one girl for a couple of years, but it ultimately didn't lead anywhere serious. Neither one of us were really what the other one needed in their lives. She was too hostile and sadistic; I was too needy and clingy lol. I ultimately broke it off with her, but it was totally mutual and respectful and we're still good friends to this day...with occasional benefits. ...It's complicated LOL. XD Met a guy on Fetlife recently that seems into me, but he seems too nervous and flaky. Gotta be kinda careful, because I got offered a ride home from the bar by this OTHER guy I met who tried to kidnap me before I put my gun to his head and told him to stop the truck. SUPER glad I decided to bring it along. So far that's the only time I've ever had to use it. I almost damn-near decided to try to grab the wheel and crash the truck before opting to try forcing him to pull over instead LOL. If I hadn't brought my gun, that is DEFINITELY the route I would have gone with lmao, and then we could have both ended up getting killed; this way both of us went home safe! (Or possibly to jail in his case; I called the cops immediately after to make a report, and I'm sure this probably wasn't his first time and the cops were probably already aware of him lol. Plus I wanted to make sure the cops got the full story from me first in the event the pervert tried to make a phony report against ME to make me out to be some crazy b*itch lol. It's happened to others before; ALWAYS make a report to the cops anytime you have to use any level of force or pose a serious threat to someone in order to defend yourself; don't just assume that because you escaped, the situation is over. ...It's over when monsters like him get put behind bars. )

Angry,I bottled it up for too long and it put a toll on me doing it

Even Behavioral Health caregivers who have special training in dealing with Trans people began as garden variety, ordinary Counselors. The only difference between the ones who have training in Gender Dysphoria and the others is that they are not afraid of us, and know us as human beings who are actually mentally healthy but are putting up with society who does not believe that. A Gender Therapist treats you like an otherwise healthy person who needs some feedback on feelings that are not quite like the ones Non-trans folks have. The ones you need are not guarding a gate, but they are standing beside you as you look out of the gate into the world as you know you have to live it and help you put plans and actions together to meet that world when you are ready.