Hello From New York's Capital Region!

[Guest WalnutObezyana]

Hello to all, and to all, hello! I am 17 and I identify as FTM/genderqueer. I've no name *see fun fact 1. I come with cake... and my share of gender baggage. I feel genderqueer rather than straight (or gay) up male because I feel as though a tiny woman lives inside of me, and she's made herself very comfortable. She and I know that I used to be her, but now I've moved on. (I do hope that no one thinks I truly believe that there's literally a minuscule woman living it up in my brain or something... I'm not that crazy... I mean, in order for that to happen, she'd need a little submarine to travel through my body with, and everyone knows they don't make them tiny enough for her. ) However, though I feel genderqueer, I don't really want to present myself ambiguously, so I really want to do what I can to be seen as male.

A few fun (if you can call them that) facts:

1) I don't have a first name worked out yet. I really want a new name, but I get very anxious and uncertain about names, and to date I've gone through at least 4 names. I don't mind going by my nickname, Walnut, although I realize that in real life, my nickname would clash with my desire to be taken seriously. (That, and I feel like I've grown out of it, and I need an actual name to go by...) But anyway, I'm always working this out, and I figure that no one here is going to seriously harass me for this, so it's safe to come here for some help should I need it.

2) I love humor, and I often fill my posts with sarcasm, wit, and cookies, usually to lighten the mood (when appropriate) and to help me deal with the stuff that happens to me in life.

3) I'm seeing a therapist for other issues in my life, and it's pretty well agreed upon (except for my mother) that I have generalized anxiety disorder, so to me, the littlest things can be blown into the biggest catastrophes, which does not exclude my gender issues. In fact, as I type this, I'm already fearing being rejected and criticized for this post, even though it's just an introduction. *sigh* In light of this, I would ask nicely to please not do what my friends did and say (jokingly or not) things like "Augh, I swear if you change your name one more time...!" Though, I'm pretty sure there's something in the rules for the forums that saying anything like that will not end well for the poster. That and this is a forum dedicated to trans issues, so if I were ever in search of a place quite sensitive to trans issues, I think I've found it.

I felt like providing some pictures, as a visual enhancement to this post.

That's me in 8th grade, just 3 short years ago. I was struggling with just my sexual orientation back then.

This is me as of 8/12/09... 1:30 AM, EST. Yeah. I lead a very exciting life.

I look forward posting some more and talking with all of you! And if I said something that doesn't quite make sense, I don't mind explaining (to the best of my abilities).

Toodles

[Guest NeverSayNever]

In fact, as I type this, I'm already fearing being rejected and criticized for this post, even though it's just an introduction. *

This is me as of 8/12/09... 1:30 AM, EST. Yeah. I lead a very exciting life.

Hello, welcome to the family!

You don't need to worry about your post being rejected, we've all known how you feel at some point.

As for the name changing, I tend to do that a lot, though I think I'm sticking with what I've got at the moment.

I hope you don't mind me saying this but as soon as I saw the second picture my first thought was "Nick Swardson!" 'Cause (to me) you looked a lot like him in that photo. Here's a picture of him.

By the way, that's a good thing (in my opinion anyway )

- James

[Guest Elizabeth K]

Wally

Sorry for the name, it just seems to fit. I am one of those moderators that you might feel are going to give you some grief.

GUESS WHAT? We don't do that! We do things really to keep us (and you are one of us now) safe and free from preditors and trolls and other kinds of meanies. We just check to see if the posts in general are appropriate for our members, I mean PG-13 and all, and don't talk aout dosages and things like that.

You have found a friendly site and YES - transgender issues! That's what we do here - besides having friends and people around that help each other. And you will find everyone here INSTANTLY understands you. It is so unique that way. And there are a lot of us with Social Anxiety and other things that keep us from feeling good about ourselves. Its a place to discuss feelings - and - if you want - change your name every time you post, just tell us who you are today! Grin. But post post and post some more.

And your intro? Just right!

You will fit right in - so

WELCOME WELCOME WELCOME

Lizzy

[Sally]

Hey Wally,

I kind of like that - you can keep your old nick name add Wally as a new nick name and be Walter if you really want to be taken seriously.

I usually ofer hot cocoa and some fresh baked cookies to our new members but you have brought cake and apparently some cookies too, so already you fit right in.

We are here to help each other so feel free to be yourself.

Welcome to the family.

Love ya,

Sally

[Guest Donna Jean]

Wally!

Hey, I like that!

How are you, Honey?

I'm Donna Jean and I like YOU already...

Humor=GOOD!

Sally...Lizzy?...Hey, they're good people (for moderators) ...and NSN? Just a good person over all! I truly think that you'll like it here and I'd like you to get comfortable.....OK?

Good...

Now ......can I have a piece of that cake?

Huggs..

Donna Jean

[Guest WalnutObezyana]

Thank you for the welcomes, everyone

NSN - Wow, I never knew I had a celebrity look-a-like. Now I've got something to brag--er, celebrate. Yeah, that's it.

Liz - I don't mind the name so much. I will say that at the moment, I'm test driving the name Wesley. Wesley, Wally... They both start with "W", so it works!

Sally - Ooh, I love hot cocoa! And Walter is a serious name, it's true.

DJ - Of course you can have some cake, that's why I brought it! And I'm pretty sure with a welcome like this, getting comfortable will be no problem.

[Guest Donna Jean]

Ha ha ha hha .

You're back!

Hey, Honey I've been waiting ALL day for you....

Finally....whew!

I just wanted to tell you that when you get 5 posts you can use the Personal Messenger and talk to any one that you desire off of the forum..(you know...secrets and stuff like that...lol)

Heck...I think that you're gonna have a lot of fun here (if I can help it!)

HUGGGGGGG!

Donna Jean

[Guest Jean Davis]

Hey Wally

I'm Jean, but you can call me anything you want as long as you don't call me late for CAKE!

Sorry it's my weakness.

But anyway welcome to the playground and I hope to hear more from you.

LUV

Jean

[Guest NicolaiAE]

Hello Wally!

Welcome to the playgrounds! No need to feel scared of anything, we're really laid back people.

Hope to see you around spreading you're energy

-Nicolai