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Well, I've done it. I've joined a forum. For transfolk (sic! :D). Mainly because there's a dearth of transsexuals/transwomen in my life. Actually, you could probably just end that as there being no people in my life. xD

I'm 19 years old, from a small town west of Syracuse, NY, and currently am unemployed and not in school. Six months ago, I started HRT on my 19th birthday in February and have been living as a teenage girl since April. I've noticed myself looking at guys differently for the past two years, and the Premarin might be

The area I grew up in doesn't approve of anyone outside of the gender binary, or the single "moral" sexual orientation in their eyes, so I've had to bear a lot of suffering because of it. You could write a book with the events that have happened in my life, and it would be as much a horror as a sob story. xD

I live with my parents and for the past year have been in their house. Before then, I had no friends anyhow... sooo I've always been cooped up in this house. A rumor was started in fifth grade that I was gay (this was while I was a young boy, with no idea what that was) and a shatstorm followed until I was unable to continue, emotionally, in highschool. So, I headed out to Maine and got my diploma in six months in a program they offer in Camden.

Some of my hobbies are gaming on my Xbox 360 I bought myself, reading, cooking, psychology, doodling, and the recent one--boys. >:3

I'd like to post a picture of myself, but I'm wary of it coming back to bite me in the arse. Hopefully I remember to come to this site more often. >_>

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Welcome to Laura's, Fanta. We're very glad you came. I have a plate of Sally's world famous cookies and some hot cocoa as a

welcome snack, so relax and enjoy.

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Guest Elizabeth K

WELCOME WELCOME WELCOME - plenty of us transpeople here! And MTF - FTM and places between. I know how sometimes you feel you are the only one in the world - you aren't - we are just a bit rare.

So look around - MANY teens here and smart people. Check that out - Teen Forum. Also you can go to ANY forum... lots of diversity.

Glad to met ya! 'n' and feel safe- as Donna Jean says - and our lovely Caroline Marie - we moderate the site to keep out the meanies!

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Guest ~Brenda~

Welcome Fanta,

You are now in the friendliest place on Earth (Sally's quote). Sweetheart, you don't have to be shy, worried or afraid here. No one will hurt you here sweetheart. You don't have to post your picture here hon if you don't want to. Some do, some don't post their picture. It does not matter. We don't judge.

I do hope to hear from you often. So post to the forums sweetheart. You will be amazed at how friendly everyone is here and are ready and willing to help you. I am certain, you are going to make such wonderful friends here.

HUGS

Brenda

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you are welcome Fanta :lol:

be sure you are at right site,

and you are at your home,and family

as will as true friends what they can understanding your pains,,

be happy dear,,

hope for you the best,,

Love ya

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Guest Donna Jean

Fanta....

Welcome, Sweetheart!

Yes, you're in the right place....

I think that you'll find this place very likable and a very good place to be!

Lots of truly wonderful people to talk with and lots and lots to read...

And we're very happy to have you here!

Relax and enjoy yourself!

HUGG!

Donna Jean

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Hello Fanta,

Well you have already met quite a few of the freindly folks here and more will some by as the day wears on, we are a global community so there is activity at some very strange hours for you but not if you're in Australia or England.

Sit back and enjoy that warm glow it isn't just the monitor screen it is the hearts and caring of all of the wonderful people here in the playground.

Come in anytime and stay as long as you like, you have just found a new home with an amazing family.

Love ya,

Sally

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Guest darlene lynn

Hey Fanta

Welcome

We're always here to listen and give a shoulder to cry on. So feel right at home. Kick back the computer chair get comfortable,cuirse the other forums, And feel free to post up a storm. Theres lots of gamers here, also theres a few how you say it more exsperienced Aunties and Uncles too.

Welcome

Auntie Darlene Lynnette

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Thank you for the especially-warm welcome, everyone. ^_^

And wow, I didn't expect so many people to be here! I joined TS Information Exchange (the one moderated by Calpernia Adams) and it seems awfully desolate there. The resources here have been a huge help to me already. There's a Voice Therapist in the area according to this site's listings that I hope to visit. :3

It seems much safer here than I first thought (very moderated, which I like!) so I guess I do feel more comfortable with posting pictures. :P

Four Months HRT - I tried makeup for the first time, soooo I understand that it turned out kinda bad. xD

Six Months HRT - This was from last week, without makeup. I'm self-concious about my drooping eyes that I inherrited from my father (and they'll need to be surgically corrected).

* As a side note, I cannot smile. :( It may have been to physical trauma from bullies in school, a no-longer-adopted sister who did some terrible things to me, or this aracnoid cyst found on my brain last month. Either way, I can't move the left side of my mouth. If there's a way to fix that through regenerative therapy or surgery, I am unaware of it.

So, just lettin' you all know. I'm rather spunky and happy in life, but my face doesn't show it. I think it's a shame. =/

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Fanta,

You are gorgeous!

Don't worry that your face doesn't show joy in the usual ways, the true joy from your heart shines through.

I am so glad that you feel more comfortable here, I haven't been to very many other sites, my therapist sent me here because she felt that it was a good fit for me - that woman is a genious!

Love ya,

Sally

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