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Guest Singthesoul

First of all I'd like to say that I am going to say things in this thread I haven't told ANYONE.

Let's start off when I was younger.I never liked dresses, never liked dressing up and having to act like a girl. I'd always be the dad when we played house, or another role that involved a father-like/strong presence. I felt more comfortable being regarded as one of the boys and at the time my extreme Tomboyish behavior was pleasant for me. I was content. As many people here I am sure questioned whether or not I should actually be a boy. That was a common thought when I younger. Of course at the time it was all wishful thinking because I was young and didn't really understand those feelings.

I continued on that way until my early teens. Then I went through extreme weight loss. I lost 30 lbs and gained back a feminine figure. That combined with makeup[which I LOVE] sent me through this period where I really liked being a girl. Now though I feel like I'm a boy, but it keeps going back and forth.

Which is why I'm totally confused.

BUT WAIT THERE'S MORE!!![lol]

There is definitely things that change depending on which sex I feel like. Even if I chose not to cross dress, when I feel like a male I usually either dress really spiffy, as in dress shirt dress pants etc etc, or with baggy shirts and pants. When I feel more like a girl I'll go for tight clothes, more feminine and then I enjoy picking out clothes and doing makeup. My mannerisms change almost like instinct, posture, voice, facial expressions and what not. I tend to me more sarcastic when I feel like a guy. When I'm a girl I'm ditzy, zoned out and naive. At first I didn't notice this, but as of late I acknowledged it.

BUT WAIT WHEN YOU BUY THIS WE WILL INCLUDE:

To add to my confusion I had this realization. When I hang out with GUYS I like I tend to feel more like a guy. This leads me to believe that my male side is attracted to men, and likewise with females. So I feel like my male side likes men and my female side likes women. Now I am confused as to what sexuality I am :/

I always believed that I transcended gender, because if I try and associate myself with one gender it'd end up being like:

I feel like a guy in a girl's body, who wants to be a girl but also a guy but wants to cross dress etc etc.

So I really just needed to rant about that. Any ideas for poor me?

Quinn.

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Guest Evan_J
When I hang out with GUYS I like I tend to feel more like a guy. This leads me to believe that my male side is attracted to men, and likewise with females. So I feel like my male side likes men and my female side likes women. Now I am confused as to what sexuality I am :/

Actually? This is NOT an indicator of sexual interest.

Genetic , heterosexual men "prefer" to hang out with "the fellas" all the time. Its the subject of 90 million sitcom skits . Man has wife, man lies to wife to go fishing/shoot basketball/ play cards/ go to the race track with the fellas. Believe me , they "feel" like guys the whole time. That does not mean they are attracted to men. (And I dare you to try to say it to one of em and not get punched out :P)

Unfortunately, we live in a time where the pressure is to make "everything" sexual for you guys (meaning young people); "I like hanging around you, that must mean I want to have sex with you" :huh: . -NO. It means you like hanging around em. The "feeling more like a guy" I would speculate is just being able to feel that part of yourself more clearly because its a male environment; you are experiencing what it is to be "one of the guys" after all; thats called comaraderie.

Same thing with hanging out with the girls. You're experiencing a feeling of "sameness". Not sex.

In the world we live in people are getting away from "what is it to be a friend", "what is it to be comrades" , "what is it to feel akin" . They think all of those things are "sex". They are not :( And if it turns into a world where everything "means" sexual interaction, I for one "want out" IMMEDIATELY. Because thats not being a human

Anyway. That clears up that. Now, if you say, "while I'm hanging around with the guys I can't help but look at their rippling muscles and wanting so and so to press up on me" well that would be sex lol . And I'd call it bisexuality if you also were trying to "feel up" "Suzy" accidentally on purpose without her knowing that you were :rolleyes: .

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Guest Elizabeth K

Read the non-erotic parts of Evan's postings and marvel! Great insights!

BUT caution!!!

Read the erotic parts of Evan's postings and.... well... whew... GREAT INSIGHTS!

Hey Evan - when does your book come out?

Errrr. come out in the regular sense - errrr...

Please diregard this posting.

...................................................

Sing

Again, You just definded transgender as TRANSCENDING - well done!

Lizzy

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We are on the verge of losing friendship as a word and a concept.

Evan is right, each generation is getting more and more programed to believe that sex is the only reason to even speak to anyone.

Now we are approaching not even bothering to learn their names afterwards.

Wouldn't anyone like to just be a friend anymore?

I remember sitting in a pancake house at three in the morning just talking to a girl I knew and other nights it would be with a guy and I felt like we were having a good time but now - I see the error of my ways - I am a virgin so my life has been totally wasted - wrong!

I just have more on my mind than sex and it even makes it easier to transition without that extra burden.

Love ya,

Old Fashioned Sally

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Guest Singthesoul

I just love the fact that everyone can like understand on some level :D

I definitely worded the last part wrong :/ I meant to say, 'when I like a guy[as in attraction] it usually happens when I feel more masculine.' As in if I hang out with them and I feel more like a 'female' I might have a 'crush' on them but I don't feel anything sexual.

BLEH I'm just a confused person D:

It would be so much easier without labels, but that's why I'm here!

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Guest Jean Davis

Hey Quinn

What your going through sounds perfectly normal, very few people know exactly what there likes and dislikes are .

Many people have to experiment (some for years) to find the correct path to make them happy.

Just take your time and don't be afaid, the world is becoming more accepting every day.

And don't fall into any stereotype, just be yourself and find what makes you happy.

LUV

Jean

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Guest Singthesoul

Thanks Jean :D

I really finally fully decided today, that from now on, despite doubts that I have, that I will be who I need to be. Regardless of what exactly it is.

I can't wait for school to start, which is when I can fully embrace it, like a new start. But I know I'll probably end on here alot, people at our school aren't exactly....open-minded.

Thank you guys for making me feel less...weird, I've been feeling like an odd one lately.

Quinn

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Guest Jean Davis

Remember just as beauty is in the eye of the beholder, so is normallity (Is that even a word, Oh well I think you know what I meen)

What is normal to an individual or to a group of people may not be to others.

LUV

Jean

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Guest Ryles_D
I always believed that I transcended gender, because if I try and associate myself with one gender it'd end up being like:

I feel like a guy in a girl's body, who wants to be a girl but also a guy but wants to cross dress etc etc.

Is your gender always male, and you just want to express femininity, or do you actually feel like your gender itself actually changes when you feel like you want to be a girl? A lot of guys do crossdress and there's nothing wrong iwht that- but there are also people whose gender actually changes from male to female depending on the situation or just at random.

We are on the verge of losing friendship as a word and a concept.

We really are. Already fandoms have lost the concept for "Those two characters spend so much time together because they're friends" (I'm just as guilty of it as anyone, not insuting anything).

It used to be "Men and women can't be friends". Eventually the sexual tension will get too great/they're only your friend to try and get in your pants/you really like them, you just won't admit it/etc. As homo/bi/pansexuality get more accepted, and people become more aware that a guy can have just as big a crush on another guy, we really will end up either with "You can't be just friends! That's for kindergarteners and aromantics".

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Guest Joanna Phipps

speaking of twisted fairy tales

MTF: prince charming falls asleep and wakes up as snow white

FTM: snow white goes to sleep and wakes up as prince charming

NEUT: prince charming falls asleep, wakes up and nobody is sure if he is her or him

any takers on continuing this?

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Guest phxbrising

Hey Quinn,

I just want to say...yay someone just like me!!!! I've searched far and wide...*whew* it was a long hard search.

As a child I wore short hair, boys clothes and was the "tom boy".

As a young adult I was with a woman in a long term relationship with a woman and so my clothing and other "presentation" preferences was just passed off as "oh she's just a a small levee"

Then I got with a man and felt all feminine and lovely, wore skirts every day, long hair for the first time in life

And now? Well? Now..I'm a confused ball of mess. lol!!! but at least I'm not the only one. And neither are you.

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