Fwip, Delurking

[Guest Fwip]

Hey there guys and girls,

I'm Fwip, a 22 year old college student about to graduate in computer engineering, and I'm pretty sure I want to live as a woman. I've been lurking since about a week before I registered, and a while after that too.

Unlike a lot of you, I haven't 'known' that I had gender issues until these last few years, though if I look back earlier in my life I can see some pretty clear signs. Last winter, depression hit me pretty hard, as I had no idea how effective transition could be. I was very afraid that I would have to choose between living the rest of my life as a man, or as a man in women's clothing. I don't necessarily need to have SRS (or whatever the proper term for it is); as long as I can live and be accepted as my chosen gender I will be happy. Since finding Laura's, I've found the courage to come out to two close friends, two old friends, and my (younger) sister. I've been incredibly lucky so far in that they've all been either very supportive or extremely cool with it. I feel _so_ much better just knowing that I am started down the path to becoming who I want to be - I'm no longer constantly plagued by guilt, depression, and my old self-mutilation habits. That last item is the most surprising to me - I've bitten, sliced, scraped and torn the skin off my hands and feet almost compulsively since I was around five years old, but recently all desire to do it has vanished into thin air. My hands are healed and I've finally been able to start growing my nails out.

I currently plan to make an appointment with a gender therapist before the end of this year, so that I can start working out who I want to be and the best way to get there. So far, I've only made baby steps, but I feel so much better reading all of your inspirational stories.

Even though I haven't even begun to transition, I think that I would already count myself as one of Laura's Playground's successes.

[Sally]

Well in that case do get comfortable and have some cookies and hot cocoa.

Fwip is an interesting name, I'm Sally, not that exciting a name I suppose but it suits me.

Feel free to look around and ask questions, we are freindly and non judgemental so enjoy yourself and welcome to the friendliest place on Earth.

Love ya,

Sally

PS, I am glad that you have delurked, it is so much better when you are part of the family.

[Guest ~Brenda~]

Well Welcome Fwip!!!

I am so glad that you delurked

Yes!! Just come in and know that you are among friends and just be yourself and post to the forums sweetheart. Sounds like you are moving right along! Good to hear!!

Love

Brenda

[Guest mynw]

Welcome Fwip:

we are all here Like family,enjoy your time,, sweet,,

and have some cookies and hot cocoa.from Sally,,

I want to share can I??

I see you take wise slow steps,,

hope for you all best,,

love

Hugs

Bul.....

[Guest CharliTo]

Hi! Welcome to the forum!

your username reminds me of that Family Guy episode where they say Cool Hwip instead of Cool whip

*hugs*

*gives a lei*

[Guest darlene lynn]

Hi Fwip

Glad your here with us,WELCOME

Glad your not abusing yourself now.

I was an self abuser also and Ive stopped hurting myself too.

One day at a time works for one day, so post more on the other forums tomorrow.

Love

Darlene Lynnette

[Guest Jean Davis]

Hi Fwip

Happy to see you join us here at the playground.

It's just wonderful that you have found a way to be happy.

But WOW there has been a lot of people lurking lately.

Tell me was it the smell of Sally delicious cookies that coaxed you to introduce yourself?

Well anyway, have a great time here, make some new friends, and have a bunch of those cookies.

Hope to here from you soon.

LUV

Jean

[Carolyn Marie]

Hello, Fwip, and Welcome to Laura's.

Since you've been out there lurking, you already know a lot about what goes on here.

I'm sure you've noticed we are friendly, helpful, caring and full of fun.

So please make yourself at home, now that you're on the inside. It's nice and cozy in here.

Carolyn Marie

[Guest Fwip]

Wow, I wasn't expecting such an enthusiastic response!

Fwip is an interesting name, I'm Sally, not that exciting a name I suppose but it suits me.

Hi! Welcome to the forum!

your username reminds me of that Family Guy episode where they say Cool Hwip instead of Cool whip

Haha, I guess I wasn't all too clear on that. It actually comes from a short-lived nickname that I had in high school (because my hair 'fwipped' in the front). I ended up creating a character in an online game, liked the name, and it eventually ended up that most of my friends I've met in college now usually refer to me as Fwip or Fwippy. I do love the way it sounds (and that Fwippy sounds anything but masculine ), but I think it's probably a little too out of the ordinary for an eventual real-life name. If I had to pick a girl's name to go by, I'd probably pick Jane... but I've certainly got a lot of time to make that decision.

Welcome Fwip:

we are all here Like family,enjoy your time,, sweet,,

and have some cookies and hot cocoa.from Sally,,

I want to share can I??

I see you take wise slow steps,,

hope for you all best,,

love

Hugs

Bul.....

Oh, I _love_ cocoa! And I can never refuse a plate of cookies, either. I'm afraid that with all the delicious treats around here, I'll have to be careful to keep my figure!

Hi Fwip

Glad your here with us,WELCOME

Glad your not abusing yourself now.

I was an self abuser also and Ive stopped hurting myself too.

One day at a time works for one day, so post more on the other forums tomorrow.

Love

Darlene Lynnette

Thanks Darlene, it's really great to have a positive role model that's overcome these problems. Seeing all of y'all's posts shows me the strength of character that we are capable of.

P.S: I stripped the emoticons out of the quotes, because I got an error that my post contained too many! I guess I'll have to be careful to limit myself in the future.

[Guest Nikk]

Hey there Fwip.... That's so much fun to say. Fwip!Fwip!Fwip! *easily entertained*

But dude, I'm the same way - I only figured things out about two years ago, but the signs were definitely there.

But welcome!

~Nikk

[Guest *Elizabeth Anne*]

I think it musta been my nappy-time when you first came on... sigh (yawning)

BUT

WELCOME WELCOME WELCOME

Yes - some don't know their cause of their distress - until later in life. DO see that therapist! he or she will CHANGE YOUR LIFE - for the better.

So glad to meet you and do post a few questions and a few answers - we need your input here!

Lizzy

[Guest Donna Jean]

Hey there guys and girls,

Even though I haven't even begun to transition, I think that I would already count myself as one of Laura's Playground's successes.

Now, THATS what I like to hear!

Welcome to the Playground, Honey.....

I'm the A.M. shift here on Mondays.....

Sorry that I didn't catch you yesterday....but, I was busy cleaning my new apple seed squeezer!......lol

I see that you have already gotten an enthusiastic greeting form some of our sweet and caring members.....heck...we have lots of those!

Make yourself at home...................OK?

HUGGS!

Donna Jean

[Guest StrandedOutThere]

Welcome to the Playground, Fwip. I like your name.