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hey all,

its my first post so ima tell you all about me. im, well lets just call me "S" im 16. i live in a realy conservative small town with no LGBT people :(

but let me get to my story. i started dressing up at bout age 11. my mom would work tues-thurs all day and i would ride the bus home and put on a bra and some panties, and sometimes a shirt or skirt or sumthing. around age 13 i had these urges to be a girl so i kept on dressing up. now im 16 im almost 17 and just recently the thoughts have came back realy strong. im a star football and baseball player at my school and i have a girlfriend i love so much. i want to get therapy but dont want to come out and have no money. i do have a plan though. next summer im thinkin bout getin a job to pay for the therapy so my parents wont find out. what should i do, im so confused about wat to do

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Well Brandi first I have to tell you that I moved your topic from the teen forum to the Intro Forum. This way more people will notice that you are new.

Second and the most important thing is congrats. You have plan, that is great..save your money and visit your therapist next summer. do what you have to do and enjoy what you can enjoy..because honestly this is who you are and next summer you will begin to see why these feelings to dress are as much a part of you as being a football and baseball player are.

Also keep posting here and let us all know how you are feeling and what you are doing.

Yes, from now on go ahead and post in the teen forum and enjoy.. Once again Welcome ..Mia

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Welcome Brandi. I too am new here and I understand your dilemna. I was also a jock in HS plus an Airborne Ranger in the Army. I tried many "macho" routes but they never suppressed my core belief that I was female. Make sure you find a therapist that is versed in gender issues because an inexperienced therapist may possibly do damage. I wish you well in your journey.

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Hi Brandi,

Don't worry too much about trying to figure everything out right now - stick to your plan and take your time.

It is a journey of self discovery so you don't want to rush through it.

Come on in and sit here in the members lounge, I'll bring you some cookies and hot cocoa, it is a nice way to get to know each other and I am a Southern Girl myself so it just seems rude to welcome someone without some sort of refreshments.

Welcome to the family.

Love ya,

Sally

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Guest Amanda joan

Brandi,

Welcome, Your story is like my story and so many other here. You have found a great place to be yourself.

I played Football too, just like my dad. I was always trying to fit in with the boys but, I found it easier to get along with the girls. I was a good looking kid so they liked talking to me and some even noticed that I was much easier to talk to than other guys and that I really listened to them and they liked that. I hope you can find balance in your life. It is not likely that these feelings will go away, they did not for me and I tried really hard to make them go away but, nothing worked for more than a few weeks. I would dress up in my mind when I could not in real life. This sounds like a good method but, I took me away from the life I was living and made my family feel like I was not really there. It can be hard to find a balance if you don't deal with it.

I wish you the best.

Peace & Love Amanda

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Guest Joanna Phipps
hey all,

its my first post so ima tell you all about me. im, well lets just call me "S" im 16. i live in a realy conservative small town with no LGBT people :(

but let me get to my story. i started dressing up at bout age 11. my mom would work tues-thurs all day and i would ride the bus home and put on a bra and some panties, and sometimes a shirt or skirt or sumthing. around age 13 i had these urges to be a girl so i kept on dressing up. now im 16 im almost 17 and just recently the thoughts have came back realy strong. im a star football and baseball player at my school and i have a girlfriend i love so much. i want to get therapy but dont want to come out and have no money. i do have a plan though. next summer im thinkin bout getin a job to pay for the therapy so my parents wont find out. what should i do, im so confused about wat to do

Brandi, any town you live in has to have at least 1 TG/TS person because you live there, giggles aside welcome to the forum. This is a great place to sit back, have fun, learn about how you feel all in the safety of a well run community. The problem is, even if you can pay for it by yourself, you are under age and your parents would certainly find out.

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Brandi, let me joing the chorus of welcoming voices.

We're really glad that you found us. This is the perfect site for you.

Its friendly, non-threatening, safe (PG-13), fun and informative.

What else oould you ask for, right?

Oh yeah, it even has cookies and cocoa! Way cool.

As my son would say, I hope you're down with that.

Make yourself at home, because you are.

Carolyn Marie

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Guest Kayliegh

Hi Brandi -

While I was never one for sports, I can understand your thoughts and feelings -

Keep asking questions here at Laura's and you'll find answers.

Nice to meet you! - Kayleigh

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Guest ~Brenda~

Welcome Brandi!!

Welcome aboard!!! I see that you have been doing alot of introspection and are thinking about how you feel and what you are going to do about it. That is wonderful. Keep in mind that the road you are on is long. So just take your time and enjoy each day. You will get to where you want to be.

HUGS

Brenda

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Talk to a therapist and find out. We had an experience here with a church related therapist that threw us all for a loop Jacob some# and he was going to rat out the kid to his parents.He was finally banished and it took about two weeks of his ranting to somewhat convince him to keep his big mouth shut.

So talk to a therapist and see what his M.O. is in regards to minors and their parents......

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Guest CharlieRose

You could also ask/tell your parents about a therapist, but say it's for a different reason. I asked my dad if I could ask him a question and have him only answer yes or no. After he agreed, I said, "I'm cutting myself. Can you find me a therapist?" And he said yes. (Technically I was cutting myself, but that wasn't why I wanted a therapist, really.) My therapist wasn't a gender therapist, but she was still very good, and helped me and my parents. I came out to them in a family session with her.

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