Hey Im Pretty Confused And I Don't Really Know How To Take This.

[Guest Confused_and_random]

So its the first time I went on a similar forums I was getting curious about myself because i do know i don't fit the normal gender types, I dont like to be all hairy and stuff and getting called a buff guy i wouldn't like that, I decided to try the COGIATI test and the first results i got were 95 type three Androgyne, afterward i tried it again while thinking a bit mroe about the answers and i got 180 type 4 probable transsexual. I do know that whenever i look at myself in the mirror i dont automatically think hey its me it seems like a stranger to me. I do prefer to be refered to has a female especially in online games i have some fun with that letting people address me has a girl and not correcting them. I was wondering if anyone could help me sort a few things out, im forced to repress anything since my parents are pretty strict manner wise and would probably freak out so would my few friends probably i don't have many to begin with its very hard for me. thanks for reading.

-random

[Sally]

Hi, Random,

I moved this topic over here to the Introductions Forum so more of our members will see it and drop by.

Would you like to come into our member's lounge and get comfy?

I have some warm Cinnamon Rolls this morning if you would like one or two.

We all struggle with exactly who we are and where we are going so do not feel alone.

That test is just a guide so coming here was a good first step.

However, we are not trained therapist, just friendly and compassionate people so we always suggest that before you embark on any life altering changes that you should find a therapist who specializes in Gender Identity Disorder.

There are so many stops along the gender spectrum, you will need a guide to find your place.

Welcome to the family.

Love ya,

Sally

[Guest A.S.]

Welcome to this site. . I hope you enjoy this site as much as I do.

[Guest rachael1]

Welcome Random,

Enjoy Sally's cinnamon rolls and make yourself comfy.

It won't be long until you make more friends here than you can count.

It is a wonderful place.

Rachael

[Guest Donna Jean]

Good morning, C.A.R.

Well, this is the place to start if one is confused!

These Transgender issues are confusing and hard to work through....

But, here you can get information, help, support and love....

Everyone here is working through issues of one sort or another with a common bond, so you can benefit from the experience of others!

Be sure to read lots!

Welcome to the Playground, Honey....

Huggs!

Donna Jean

[Guest Leigh T]

Hi random and welcome to Laura's.

I understand the fear you have of rejection from loved ones once they know your secret. We all have dealt with it before and many of us still do.

Take time to get relaxed here, meet some really great people here and when you are ready, you can talk to us to help you through this anxious period.

Warm hugs,

Leigh

[Guest Confused_and_random]

thanks everyone for replying sorry i did not reply faster i couldn't find my thread anymore and i was a bit confused again :/ well i don't think i will ever tell my parents at least seeing the reactions i get for a refusal of just doing basic chores or homework i cant imagine what they would do if i popped this confusion to them :/ they are not the super supportive and accepting type plus i don't get along well with my father he has a short temper which i manage to get on very easily and then he called me trash today first time he did but I'm numb to insults (yay school -.-) but once again thanks for all the wonderful support i was a bit nervous posting for the first time i did not know what to say but i am starting to feel a bit less nervous talking now

[Guest Jean Davis]

Hey Random

Welcome to Laura's. Please don't be nervous, your among friends here. The best way to meet some of the wonderful people here is to post. The more you post the easier it will be to get to know them and after you have 5 posts you'll be able to PM (personal message) them. BTW we all love to hear new opions and points of view from others, so do try to post your questions and comments.

Looking forward to reading yours

LUV

Jean

[Guest Confused_and_random]

well I have past 5 posts now which means i get to pm peopel and hopefully i shall be able to stop being too nervous and be able to change this silly name of mine to something more certain

[Guest Jean Davis]

well I have past 5 posts now which means i get to pm peopel and hopefully i shall be able to stop being too nervous and be able to change this silly name of mine to something more certain

Ooo

I have an idea for a new name. Hows about Mrs. Clause or perhaps Mother Nature.

What do you think?

No, I'm just kidding. Trying to make you smile.

Did it work?

BTW feel free to PM me any time, I just love to chat.

LUV

Jean

[Carolyn Marie]

Well, I noticed that people preferred to call you Random rather than Confused...and that's a good thing!

I'll follow the trend and say welcome to Laura's, Random!

There are a lot of members who are just as confused as you, so don't feel alone. Look around the Forums,

post any question you like, and make friends.

This is the easiest place to make new friends that I've ever encountered, and I'm sure you will feel the same.

The folks here are caring, compassionate and lots of fun.

Enjoy yourself, and learn. We'll be here for you.

Carolyn Marie

[Guest Confused_and_random]

To Jean Davis: thanks it did make me smile but i think i will get a more common name but its a bit anoying my name does not seem to have an equivalent in female form such has john/jane so i shall have to do some searching if its the path i choose since I'm not entirely sure.

To Carolyn: yes i do like to be called random right now cause thats what i am you know a few years in isolation tends to do that (not complete isolation social isolation fun time at school :/) but thanks for the warm welcome i might pm a few people im not too sure what to talk about but i am very happy with the reception I'm not feeling so alone anymore and tis nice to feel free to talk about this. Reminds me of a few years back it provides relief of sentiment i used to bottle up my rejection of society so much i actually burst out crying in class once :/ it was a really awkward day that time and i do know it did not help me make any more friends :/.

[Guest Amanda joan]

Hello Random,

I am gald you are here. I think you are starting to see the ease you can have about expressing yourself here.

I have brought you some chocolates. So let's just relax and enjoy them.

I know how you feel and I did not tell my parents until last week. I am a lot older than you and the missery that I put myself through was unnesessary. I tried to be a man and a husband. I thought I was doing a good job of it but, Not really. I am much happier now. You will need to spend some time in theraphy before you speak to your parents ( I would start with Mom) There are some good guides on coming out. You parents are more likely to upset with themselves than angery with you. It is no ones fault that you feel like you do. This is just who you are. There will be a lot for you to think about and I hope we can help you sort it all out.

Peace & Love Amanda

[Guest Confused_and_random]

Thanks Amanda sorry for the late reply im sure i said this my parents hold the 'key' to the computer has such im limited im not exactly sure about coming out yet or the whole gender thing its still a mess for me and well i don't know about therapy im pretty sure you need parental consent for treatment and oftenly if its something serious they ask to talk to the parents but i do wish to talk with other people here and get to know this better.

[Guest ricka]

Random---i like that name actually! As everyone has said you are welcomed and accepted here. We don't all have understanding and accepting families so you can make us your family and you can ask about anything of us. It's a great place to be who you are and who you are becoming. You will find no judgement here and no condemnation. Were that the rest of the world were the same!!!

ricka

[Guest Confused_and_random]

Random---i like that name actually! As everyone has said you are welcomed and accepted here. We don't all have understanding and accepting families so you can make us your family and you can ask about anything of us. It's a great place to be who you are and who you are becoming. You will find no judgement here and no condemnation. Were that the rest of the world were the same!!!

ricka

thanks Ricka sorry i replied a bit late but that was a really nice message ill be around and checking forums if people want to talk with me just send me a message i would like to talk to people im not exactly great at starting threads and also there is the fact i dont do much but i would love to answer questions if people have any and i do roam the teen section to give opinions on some questions