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Guest Michelle M

In your dreams, are you your old self, or your new self? I'm usually my old self, or not paying enough attention to it to know. I think once I was my new self.

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Guest phebe09

More and more often, I am my future self. I still have a few where I'm my current self, but they mostly involve transition in some way. I don't have dreams that often, though. Mostly day dreams.

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Guest CharlieRose

Hmm... I don't dream that often. I can remember a few where I was just my regular female self, before I realized I was trans (about 12 or 13 years old). But I remember one time, when I wanted to have my hair cornrowed, I dreamed that my hair was cornrowed. And I was wearing hecka nifty clothing, too. This was when I was like 12. That dream was in third person. I was literally watching myself.

I had a dream maybe six months ago where I was female, but I was trying on this really ugly dress and looking at myself in the mirror. Then my family was all "It's time to go!" so I put on a really big raincoat over it and went to the party that we were apparently going to. My extended family was there, and I was trying to have fun, but the raincoat was really puffy and hot, but I couldn't take it off because then they would see I was wearing that ugly dress. Wonder what that means. :P

The last dream I had, about a month ago, I wasn't even in. I was just... watching it. There were two dogs, a cartoon german shepherd, and a cartoon bulldog in the bulldog's office. The german shepherd was trying to sell the bulldog everlasting life. But the bulldog said, "I don't want everlasting life! I want to die eventually!" and then he ran across his office, threw himself down in the middle of it, and was promptly run over by a train. Unlike the previous one I have no idea what the hell it means.

But, uh, yeah. In all the other dreams I can remember I didn't see myself or I was just my current, female self.

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I usually don't remember my dreams, but some have really stood out in my mind. Those I usually try to analyse and see if they have a meaning. But more often than not I intuitively know what they mean.

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Guest JessicaC

I barely ever remember my dreams... But I do remember once I had a lucid dream. I made myself a girl... then it ended ;.;

I want more lucid dreams.

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Guest Exiledrain

I've always have had the same woman in my dreams since I could remember. Usually, I'm her, but sometimes, when I'm doubting myself or my inner woman, she'll be present, either really, really mad at me or just upset.

However, usually these dreams make no sense. The other night, three-inch versions of MacGyver, Tom Cruise and Darth Vader we all arguing the best way to get me off of my bookshelf.

A few weeks ago, I had a dream I was standing in Yellowstone, in a herd of bison. Some of them moved away, and there was a blue bison eating grass. He looked up at me, and said, "I am the sign you are looking for." I instantly knew he was talking about me being transgendered.

But I still have no idea what the blue bison meant.

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i'm my current male self in my dreams, but i have wicked dreams that make no sense at all, like darth vader and voldemort having a conversation at the bottom of a swimmingpool while a rainbowcolored killerfish wash showing of his muscles to lots of people in black cloaks. Others are like bruce willis trying to kill me in his ferrari while i am running towards a time machine to get rid of the virus in me, and at the end my family who appear to be the incredibles were waiting for me. i also dream of donald duck and his 3 cousins also about harry potter who works together with malfoy, about little red ridnig hood, but also about non existent stories ^_^'...

anyway i'm mostly there myself as male, but sometimes i see everythnig third person, and i'm not anywhere to be seen, but often i'm someone else in my dream male or female, doesn't matter, but i switch between them al the time, often looking true the eyes of many diffrent people in the same dream...

my friends are jealous of my creative dreams ^^

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Guest JessicaC

Ya know, as I think about it more, I realize that when I DO dream I am just... Me. I don't really even concern myself about what I am wearing in the dreams at all. Its just seen from my eyes and I don't even begin to think about what sex I am... Unless, like last night, that is the subject of the dream. I was dreaming that I was coming out to my family... While I was wearing feminine clothes. <.<; I know I had that dream because coming out is on my mind constantly now.

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Guest JackKat

I have really messed up dreams. Kind of like if Alice in Wounderland and PeeWee's Play House get blended togeather while on Acid. but i wont get in to those ones!

The frist dream I can ever remember having was when I was 5, and I was already dreaming I was boy! I was being chased down a hallway made of bones by two people dressed as Tucan Sam. Once I got out of the hall way I was a Pirate on a ship in the middle of battle trying to save some girl... I have alot od dreams like that.

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Guest Mr. Fox

I turned into a boy in a dream I had when I was a little kid, but I don't really know if that was transgender related. Mostly, my dreams are disgustingly grounded in reality. I am always female, in in some dreams I'll think "Gee, I'm transsexual, that sucks" but I'm never male. I did have a dream where I had no breasts recently. That's about as close as I get.

What's with the abundance of Lord Voldemort dreams? In one of my dreams, he was a vampire, and he had a wife who was a hag, and we had both of them over for dinner, and he kept saying "very good, very good."

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Guest Michelle M

Last night I had a dream that I was in a Wal Mart, but there was an GLBT meeting there, and Laura was leading it! People kept introducing me as the new girl and introducing me as 'she'. I even met someone that shared my name. She's like "I'm Michelle" and I said hey me too! That's all I can really remember; I was pretty amused. :lol:

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Guest silverpetals
There were two dogs, a cartoon german shepherd, and a cartoon bulldog in the bulldog's office. The german shepherd was trying to sell the bulldog everlasting life. But the bulldog said, "I don't want everlasting life! I want to die eventually!" and then he ran across his office, threw himself down in the middle of it, and was promptly run over by a train.

that's totally awesome, i wish my dreams made that much sense ^_^ i used to remember most of my dreams, but in the last month or so i haven't remembered/had any :(

in most of my dreams though, i was just...me really. i was basically living as a girl, but still completely biologically male. i don't know if that means anything, maybe it's just reality :(

i never usually 'saw' myself, like i just kind of knew what gender i was. in a few of them i was a girl, in a few i was a boy. i'd always get so annoyed when i woke up and realised i'd just dreamt i was a boy though, i always thought it meant there was something wrong with me.

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Guest Rika-chama

I am always female in my dreams sadly. I do not believe I have had one dream where I had been male. Also all of my sex dreams are with men even though I like women :blink: I hate dreaming. I don't have nightmares I just have really weird dreams. I once had a dream where I giant goo-eyeball kidnapped my english teacher and her child. Another dream was evil fire-robot things taking over a GLBT party I was at in Germany. I then had to go on an epic quest to stop the evil dictator from turing all my friends into his slaves. It ended with me defeating him and moving in with a hairdresser and the dictators dog in the Czech Republic :D That's a normal dream for me.

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I don't dream all that much, and when I do my physical characteristics are allways to blurry for me to remember. Though the other night I dreamt I was a friend of mines wife, I went to the basement to talk to him or something, and he was adding all these hallways to the house. When I asked him what he was doing he said he was going to the moon, I didn't think anything of it and went and washed the dishes or something, and I started getting this weird feeling, so I checked on him again, and there was a huge network of tunnels, so I asked him what he was doing again. He said he was going to the moon in a really weird way, then i started to get scared and ran, I got into the car just as he was about to get me and drove away. I'm not sure how I knew I was his wife though, what I looked like was still to blurry to tell anything :S

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I have had about 5 dreams this year (thats in total, not just ones I can remember) . I can remember every detail for a month or so afterwards though. In 2 dreams this year I've been going though transition and in another 2 I've been a girl. My dreams are almost always true to life, no talking animals, fictional characters or anything like that.

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Guest Mr. Fox

Alicia: There is no possible way to tell if you haven't had any more than dreams, or if you just can't remember them. You surely have, because REM is part of the nightly sleep cycle which always occurs unless you don't sleep or have the right kind of brain damage. You don't even know what happens in your bed at night! Bwa ha ha ha ha!

I just had a dream I was living as the opposite sex, but still with this body. Dreams still disgustingly realistic in the oddest ways.

Imaginary person: Yes! We have defeated the fire breathing elephants! We have done well, Adrian.

Me: Yeah, but now I have to empty the dishwasher. Bye.

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Alicia: There is no possible way to tell if you haven't had any more than dreams, or if you just can't remember them. You surely have, because REM is part of the nightly sleep cycle which always occurs unless you don't sleep or have the right kind of brain damage. You don't even know what happens in your bed at night! Bwa ha ha ha ha!

I have DSPS, delayed sleep phase syndrome, and have been suffering from insomnia for the majority of this year. Thats why I have had almost no dreams this year, otherwise you would be right. Anyway, does anyone here have lucid dreams?

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Now that I really think about it, my dreams are majority me being a girl... usually something along the lines of a red short skirt, short feminine hair, and some kind of white top.

Besides that, it does go over like any other people's dream. sometimes it's weird, sometimes, it's reflective, sometimes...well, most of the times i forgot them after a few days.

I did have lucid dreams a lot of times when I was younger. Those were the days where I tried to get myself to sleep as long as I could. ^_^ I remember dreaming up this situation where it's basically like the manga, Ranma 1/2 situation. It was kinda fun and spunky. ^^ I remember feeling very rejuvenated and light-hearted after that dream.

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I keep having a dream where I see myself standing in front of a giant mirror and then for some reason I get really mad and smash it. Then I look away for a second and when I turn back the mirror is back to normal but the only thing is that there is a shadow of a person in it thats not me. Then I hear heart wretching crying coming out of nowhere. It confuses me or maybe I just got seven years of bad luck!

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I usually dream alot and when i do i'm usually a very feminine girl in some weird crossover world once i had a dream where i was in a salon where i was changed from boy to girl 100% hair and everything t was a realy great dream

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I forgot to mention this before, but in one dream this year I was at home, dressed as a girl, when my parents entered. They sat down and I explained about how I am a girl. After this they told me that they had suspected as much, hugged me then left. I remember when I woke up I was so happy because I thought it was real and I had finally told them the night before.

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Guest Mr. Fox

I just had a dream where I was a guy . . I think. I didn't really think about it too much. I did have long green hair though. Apart from that, it was like real life.

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Guest Exiledrain

You know what's kind of weird? Ever since I've joined these forums, I've noticed that in my dreams I seem to blur in and out, kind of overlapping, like I'm not really either. It's kind of odd.

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