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Femme Partner Of Ftm & We Were Lesbians?


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Guest Essence

Hello I want to fully introduce myself. I am in a completely loving devoted relationship with my partner of 4 intense months who is beginning the journey from FTM. We met as lesbians over the internet. I am a forty plus high femme and she (at the time) was labelled gay... oddly to me then refusing the labels lesbian, butch etc.

As a high femme I adore masculine traits so (her at the time) preferences and references to male,man and he were sexy, attractive and endearing...

The past for my partner was suicidal, self harming, anxiety, low self esteem, alcohol & drugs now completely in recovery. My partner is highly intelligent studious but unemployed and worried about finding work going through the changes. His family disowned him for over a decade when he came out as gay. Some ten years later and history is repeating itself... His family are divided on his transgender blaming him for causing yet more problems. So here I am fully supporting and encouraging my partner to begin his transition and wondering where the community is for us to belong to... It is a new relationship like I said of 4 months but in my 40's I know that I am totally in love... I don't know what I am getting myself completely into despite being open minded and I do take each day at a time...I don't know what the changes from the testosterone hormones will bring which we read about and how will this effect our relationship. I would really like I to share my thoughts, hopes despairs. I Look forward to hearing from you, many thanks Essence x

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Hello, Essence, and welcome to Laura's

I'm glad that you decided to join us, Hon. You and your partner will both benefit from being members.

Let me get you comfy first with a nice cup of hot cocoa and some of Sally's famous cookies. Have

a seat in the Member;s Lounge and relax. :)

You will be able to learn a lot from the members here. Please check out the Partners and

Significant Others Forum as well as other forums that may interest you. Post your questions

and concerns and someone will reply and offer help and support if you ask for it.

We are a moderated site, so me and other Forum Mods keep the site safe for eveerone.

Pleasse do read the site rules too when you have a chance.

Have fund and learn all you can. You are among friends here.

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Guest ~Brenda~

Welcome Essence,

Welcome to Laura's. When you have time, go to the forum for Significant Others and read the vaious posts there. You will see that you are not alone :)

I encourage your partner to join Laura's too.

Love

Brenda

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Guest Donna Jean

Hello, Essence....

Gee...it's really nice to meet you!

Carolyn has gotten you all settled in, so I just wanted to say "HI"!

You know what? For those of us here on the forums, relationships are mostly of a "non-traditional" type...

For instance...I'm MTF and having been married to my wife for 30 years....I like women...therefore, that would make me a lesbian.....right?

AWwwww....who cares, anyway....?

We love who we love...we shouldn't get all hung up on labels or it will make us go crazy trying to keep up with it!

We all should all just be happy that we HAVE someone to love!

I'm glad that you joined up and I look forward to seeing you around here!

LOVE & HUGGS!

Donna Jean

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Guest Essence

Thank you so much Carolyn Marie for your introduction...

It is so kind of you to make me feel so welcome and I look forward to sharing and getting to know the community

feeling isolated is quite depressing just being in a trans world is comforting already.

Essence x

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Guest Essence

Thank you Brenda kindly,

I will check out the forum for significant others

and seek some comfort...

I must get my partner to join too indeed!

In time...

Big Hugs

Essence x

Welcome Essence,

Welcome to Laura's. When you have time, go to the forum for Significant Others and read the vaious posts there. You will see that you are not alone :)

I encourage your partner to join Laura's too.

Love

Brenda

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Guest Essence

Hello Donna Jean,

Thank you so much...

Non-traditional yes...

Tradition truly is a farce!

My mind has been completely opened since meeting my partner in every way!

Society is truly repressive and changes need to be brought up to date...

I cannot believe how much distress, pain and suffering so many young and old trans people

go through in silence...

It really is essential for everyone to forge ahead with a new way of thinking,

educating a new future and bringing more equality...

It is a long journey and a better place by sharing

Big hugs

Essence x

Hello, Essence....

Gee...it's really nice to meet you!

Carolyn has gotten you all settled in, so I just wanted to say "HI"!

You know what? For those of us here on the forums, relationships are mostly of a "non-traditional" type...

For instance...I'm MTF and having been married to my wife for 30 years....I like women...therefore, that would make me a lesbian.....right?

AWwwww....who cares, anyway....?

We love who we love...we shouldn't get all hung up on labels or it will make us go crazy trying to keep up with it!

We all should all just be happy that we HAVE someone to love!

I'm glad that you joined up and I look forward to seeing you around here!

LOVE & HUGGS!

Donna Jean

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Hi Essence,

<<hug>>

Welcome to Laura's Playground.

Please feel free to come over and chat sometime.

The Chat room does require another registration that is separate from from your forums one.

Please read the chat room rules before coming in, and expect a short interview with one of the chat room moderators.

One of the things that they will ask you is if you read the rules. :)

We have Significant Other meetings -Sun & Tues. 9pm est with anne as the moderator and you are welcome to attend.

Please ask your SO if he would like to join us here.

FTM meetings are -Mon & Fri 8pm est with Stu as the moderator, and he is welcome to attend them if he would like to.

We all look forward to seeing you.

:wub: vanna

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Guest Tim's Emma

Hello :)

I'm Emma, my boyfriend is FtM as well, although when i met him he was a very pretty, petite girl.

She was always the masculine one, i'm definatly extremly girly but because I'm an inch taller and more plump people always presumed i was masculine which i hated because they would always just think that because she was smaller i must be. It always seemed nasty to me because you'll never see me out of a dress with hair down past my waist and make-up as perfect as i could get it. She would always just be in her scruffs with no makeup and people would still presume it lmao!

On the whole 'were we lesbians before', for me it was very odd because i had always been attracted to men and there se was, this friendly girl in my photography class who i got on with extremly well and we just grew closer and closer. We started as friends, but we flirted a lot and after a while our mates got fed up and had a sort of intervention lol. She knew i liked men so that's why she hadn't asked me out, she thought she would jsut be a fling with me when she wanted more, but i'd fallen in love with her, much to my own surprise as well as everyone elses!

We had 2 and a half completly besotted years and then as i got closer to 20 i began to panic thinking about my little silly dream of a husband and kids and the sterotypical family which was all i'd wanted all my life. I freaked out and broke down and she started laughing (which didn't go down well with a destraut me because i felt like i was being torn in half) thats when she finally told me!!

So i don't know wat i am really. My family think i'm bisexual- but i don't look at girls on the street and find them attractive, i just think they're pretty and like their clothes lol. Men i love and while second glance at, yet it was a girl i fell in love with and although atm his body is still a womans, its him im in love with. and since he feels male it is male pronouns i use.

He has told his mother a million times that i'm not lesbin, but just teh other night she turned round and asked me 'so will you still be attracted to her when she doesn't look like a girl'. How many time do i have to scream that its him. Yes he was and technically still is a she, but its always ben him and only him. I feel in love with her for her personality and i stayed with her for 2 years because of that, not because she has breasts. So tbh, i don't have a clue and people can think what they want because i know that you can't catergorize everyone. no one is a sterotype to put in a box.

Welcome, i'm new too. I'd love to talk to you some more :)

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