I Recall...

[Guest Emily H]

When I was in third grade, and at my baby sitter's. She had large bins full of assorted toys.

Me and another boy decided to play dress up with female things. The other boy was my baby sitter's son, and I'm sure that her impression of this was that we were playing, so she didn't see any problems at all (her day care had a small group of kids she looked after for various parents, and I went to her daycare for a couple of years or so)

I put on a pink tutu and a shiny jewel tiara, and he had a red-haired wig and small plastic high heels. He was younger, so the high-heels did not fit me (foreshadowing for today, can not find shoes in my size)

Later, I chose the wig.

We both of course, naturally just laughed it off, just something fun, different to do while we were bored.

But I can recall, just how comfortable it was do have on the wig and that tutu. After a little while of wearing them, it felt natural.

One year later? I remember I was stuffing my shirt with socks and pretending I had breasts.

Another year later? The idea of crossdressing came to me through an episode of Law and Order, and it just hit me- I should do that.

Now? I like these hot pink sweatpants, but I BADLY need to find a top to match them.

And a new wig wouldn't hurt either.

~Andrea

[Guest Robin Winter]

Now? I like these hot pink sweatpants, but I BADLY need to find a top to match them.

And a new wig wouldn't hurt either.

~Andrea

I have a tank that would probably match well with hot pink I sleep in it though, so you can't have it.

[Guest ~Brenda~]

Hi Andrea,

Yes indeed memories from your childhood do come back and you realize that there have been signs all along indicating that you are transgendered. I have had the same type of memories come back to me too.

HUGS

Brenda

[Guest sarah f]

I always like the fond memories of my childhood of when I would dress up as a girl. You might try Victoria Secret to find a top for your sweatpants. They always have something in there that I would like to have and most of it is pink. Good Luck finding something.

Love,

Sarah F

[Guest Amy LeBlanc]

Hello all:

I have to agree with all of you that I feel the same with you on having memories come back to you when you were little and how you can then see that you were starting out young on finding out who you are and that maybe I am not a crossdresser but am a transsexual where I want to be female and I feel comfortable being female and that I do not want to be wearing guys clothes but want to wear gilrs clothes. When I have to be dressed as a guy, then I feel depressed and want to be female.

But well talk to you all later

Amy

[Guest Victoriaf]

I have been having memories come back alot lately about when i was young and was doing things that i did not remimber for most of my life. I think alot of it has to do, at least in my case,of supressing memories that that challange how we precive ourselfs. And nowthat we have come to the realization that it is ok then all of those memories that we lost slowly come back to us.

Huggs

Victoria

[Guest Joanna Phipps]

When I was in third grade, and at my baby sitter's. She had large bins full of assorted toys.

Me and another boy decided to play dress up with female things. The other boy was my baby sitter's son, and I'm sure that her impression of this was that we were playing, so she didn't see any problems at all (her day care had a small group of kids she looked after for various parents, and I went to her daycare for a couple of years or so)

I put on a pink tutu and a shiny jewel tiara, and he had a red-haired wig and small plastic high heels. He was younger, so the high-heels did not fit me (foreshadowing for today, can not find shoes in my size)

Later, I chose the wig.

We both of course, naturally just laughed it off, just something fun, different to do while we were bored.

But I can recall, just how comfortable it was do have on the wig and that tutu. After a little while of wearing them, it felt natural.

One year later? I remember I was stuffing my shirt with socks and pretending I had breasts.

Another year later? The idea of crossdressing came to me through an episode of Law and Order, and it just hit me- I should do that.

Now? I like these hot pink sweatpants, but I BADLY need to find a top to match them.

And a new wig wouldn't hurt either.

~Andrea

Andrea if you are still trying to wear that kids wig, then yep an new one is definately advised

[Guest Donna Jean]

Andea......

Get yourself a pink top to go with those sweat pats, GF! ...DO IT!

Yeah....when we accept ourselves...a lot of memories come flooding back from our childhood...things that may have been put away and long forgotton...

Happened to me in therapy...but, of course, I'm 60 and that was a looooong time ago!

Love

Donna

[Sally]

Well I never had access to a tutu but I did have a lot of petticoats for those of you old enough to remember them!

Until I was about 5 no one had a problem with that but after starting to school I was educated - taught to 'not do that' and just be 'normal', in short - I learned to be ashamed of who I was and that damaging self image has plagued me ever since.

Yes the memories of childhood come back slower to those of us with so much mileage in between then and now but they are some of my fondest.

Love ya,

Sally

[Paula ult]

All those memories from when i was young came back after i started seeing a therapist, for a few months i would wake up around 4:00am after remembering something from my childhood, i kept a pad and pen near my bed to write them all down then my therapist and i would talk about them at my next therapy session.

Paula

[Guest Emily H]

Andrea if you are still trying to wear that kids wig, then yep an new one is definitely advised

Oh no no, I bought cheap wigs made out of...who knows what, don't feel like real hair at all, but they look the part.

Sally and Donna, you are both very inspiring to hear from. Meaning, to hear that you have gone through a lot, and have seen a lot. I don't know if Im explaining that well .

And Sally, I wish I had petticoats around here :/.

~Andrea

[Guest Cassie S.]

i never had the guts to right out and play with girls toys or dress up like that. but if i saw a girl playing with a baby doll or when my cousins would bust out the barbies, i would always be right freaking there lol i envied from a distance, very close. i was into self-torture even then lol.