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Guest Flistan

Umm... yeah

I'm not sure what to say here... I just need advice I guess...

Not even sure if this is the right forum to do this in.

Usually I get all decked out when it comes to accounts and whatnot, but I chose to create new names and everything so no one could connect me to accounts I have elsewhere, just because I'm a little iffy (not for protection just for... comfort). My friend recommended I come here.

A little about me...

*sigh*

Student

Church of Christ mostly liberal

Female

Clinical Depression

Bipolar

Cloud Strife crossplayer (cross dressing while in costume of a character of the opposite gender)

I guess you can say artist and writer

..and I finally connected the dots last weekend- I'm pretty sure I have some gender confusion too. I read up a lot on it, but I'm not sure what to even call myself.

If you ask any of my friends, they'd all say that I'm androgynous, and most everyone who meets me knows I'm straight, although there is the occasional person that asks if I'm a lesbian, of which I am not offended at all. I believe asking is more than assuming, and I actually sort of... like it.

On occasion, I have... the attraction for being treated as male.

I'm pretty sure it's not genetic, and I know what the trigger was, but every now and then I get so into the moment of wishing I was the opposite gender or thinking I will become it (sounds stupid but yeah...) that I sometimes feel gay, although I know it's only the attraction of being male that sets me off and I have no attraction to the female body whatsoever.

I told my mom today... I think she's a little bit in denial but she accepts me for whatever I am, except she said she'd be upset if I were gay (although she'd still accept me then).

Thing is, it's really off and on. I mean, most of my dreams are about me being male, some even involve me cross dressing, fitting in with guys, and other... stuff. Stuff I don't want to talk about too much...

And other times I'm just a girl I guess.

Can there be different levels of GID or transgender-ness? Can it be off and on like my bipolar moods? Am I just androgynous and go back and forth? What should I to about it? Suppress my feelings or act upon them?

I'm supposed to see a psychologist first week of February. Mom isn't going to accept anything until then. I don't really want to do anything extreme... just want to... change my wardrobe out a little I guess. Can't really afford it now but yeah. I already wear a sort of androgynous men's cologne, lol. I don't know if I could even take hormones...

I'm just confused...

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Guest Donna Jean

Hey, Hon....

I'm Donna Jean...

Welcome to the Playground!

Do you have a somewhat shorter handle that you would like us to call you?

After reading your intro, I can see that you are already on the right path...the therapist..That's the correct thing to do!

Good on you!

Now, just sit over here and i'll get you some hot coco and a plate of Sally's chocolate chip cookies...

You can just relax and we'll wait for some of the others to come by and say "HI!"...

If you haven't already, could you take a minute to read the forum rules?...Thanks, I'd appreciate it..

And be aware that we are a moderated site and that keeps everyone safe....OK?

So, kick off your shoes and make yourself at home!

It's so nice to have you !

Donna Jean

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Guest Flistan

Thanks.

Well... all of my favorite aliases are on other sites... ><

I'm not sure how to change the "display name"- just couldn't think of anything.

I really don't know, I guess Aisling would be okay, not my real name- just a character of mine.

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Guest sarah f

Welcome to Laura's Cloud. Your friend was correct in telling you to join this site. Everyone here is so loving and wonderful. Just keep on posting and reading other posts and you will tell that this is the last site you will want to join. I look forward to hearing more about yourself.

Love,

Sarah F

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Guest Donna Jean
Thanks.

Well... all of my favorite aliases are on other sites... ><

I'm not sure how to change the "display name"- just couldn't think of anything.

I really don't know, I guess Aisling would be okay, not my real name- just a character of mine.

Well, Hon...we'll leave your display name the same...Just call you Aisling here for chat sakes....OK?

Good!

Donna Jean

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Guest ~Brenda~

Hi Cloud (may I call you Cloud?)

Welcome dear to Laura's :)

Now my lamb don't try to label yourself hon.. OK? Gender Identity and Gender Expression is as infinite as the cosmos.

Stay here with us and learn about yourself.

When the time is right for you, you may want to consider seeing a gender therapist, but we can talk about that some other time.

For now, just know that you will find your way, and we will help you :)

Love and HUGS

Brenda

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Hello Aisling,

Welcome to the forums, we are a friendly group and we do not pressure anyone - take your time see a gender therapist and find your own comfort level - that is all you need to do - there are all different shades of transgender so you have to find your shade.

This is a good place to look around.

Welcome to the family.

Love ya,

Sally

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Hi Cloud Strife Crossplayer,

<<hug>>

Welcome to Laura's Playground.

Please feel free to come over and chat sometime.

The Chat room does require another registration that is separate from from your forums one.

Please read the chat room rules before coming in, and expect a short interview with one of the chat room moderators.

One of the things that they will ask you is if you read the rules. :)

We have Androgyne meetings -Wed 7pm est and you are welcome to attend.

We all look forward to seeing you.

:wub: vanna

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