My Life Is Looking Up

[Guest Michelle M]

My parents watched a special on The Discovery Channel called "Born in the wrong body" then phoned me about it. I think the fact that they saw MTFs AND FTMs made it more believable to them, and that this isn't a sexual thing. They 100% believe me and I accept me now. I'm very happy with this and to be able to express myself to them. I feel so lucky that my parents are who they are. The happiness is indescribable. It feels like the same type of joy experienced on a wedding day. I'm going to be moving to where they live, and finish school while I live with them. I graduate in 4 months. They live 50 miles away from a big city. I've done some looking and it has electrolysis and surgeons and everything. I won't have to pay for plane tickets when I want electrolysis or to see a therapist now, it's wonderful. I'm so glad to be getting out of this stupid little town.

I gave my 2 weeks' notice at work, and it felt very liberating. I've always hated working customer service because dealing with the general idiot public is awful, and whenever someone calls me sir, bro, or dawg it hurts my soul. My boss seems upset with me. He won't talk to me anymore. I am surprised he did not even ask me why I was leaving. He also sent me home 2 hours early today without explanation. Maybe he's upset because he's losing a good employee and has to choose from a bunch of idiots (I've seen the applications we get...) to replace me.

So on Feb 1st I will probably be inactive in chat messenger and forums for a while until I get internet hooked up at my parents' house. Bye for now!

[Petra Jane]

Way to go Michelle! Best of luck.

[Guest o0tg0o]

hehe

*hugs*

:-]

[Guest Katie-Louise]

I wish you all the best and hope your future is full of joy and happiness! Bye for now hope to see you soon, lots of love

Samantha

xxx

[Guest Bethany]

Its way cool when you're parents can provide emotional support, I'm really happy for you Michelle

Bethany

[Guest savagedm]

Best of luck Michelle! You are one lucky girl that is for sure! Take your blessings and run with them.

[Guest Mani]

That's wonderful news, good luck!

[Guest Rika-chama]

When you told me the other night on MSN I was sooooooooooooo happy. I think it is wonderful that your parents are now accepting you. Best of luck out there

Ni-paa~

[MaryEllen]

For those who didn't see the show, you can check out this link.

http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/18250458/

MaryEllen

[Guest savagedm]

For those who didn't see the show, you can check out this link.

http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/18250458/

MaryEllen

Wow that is really inspiring

[Guest Madison_Always]

glad to hear that things r going well

[Guest Michelle M]

I'm back. I'm using a terrible dialup connection for now, but I am still glad to be back. I am having a few problems though. My mom saw me step out of the car, and she was very shocked. She did tell me I was beautiful, but she told me to remove the wig, makeup, and girl clothes. I'm not allowed to crossdress while living here. My mom says "It will put more stress on my dad, and he doesn't need that." It hurt a bit. They continue to call me Mike, and won't use male pronouns. It's like they're in denial. They're the last 2 people on earth that treat me as a boy. They say they're supportive, yet sometimes my mom asks me silly questions. "Are you doing this because I kicked you out of the house?" "Are you sure you want to do this?" "How about if you don't transition, I'll let you live with me for the next 25 years?" They seem in denial, I guess? I don't know. My friend knew me 11 years, and adjusted in 2 days, so wouldn't it take my parents about a week to adjust? It might be different because they are parents... it hurts. It's like they don't think it's real, or refuse to accept it. Being with them and not having real life or internet friends to talk to made me go kind of crazy, it even made me think I was a boy again, and that I'm not going to transition. I was losing myself. It really really freaked me out. I am finally on the net again, and I got to talk to my guy friend again. Seeing my own profile here reminded me of who I really am. It's easy to lose yourself and forget who you are, especially when 2 people you love very much refuse to accept it, or try to 'fix' me. I just have to endure this, I suppose, and play their games. It has put me closer to my goal, and it was a shortcut because they are taking care of me; I won't have to work customer service for another year while I complete school more slowly. I am thankful for that, so for them, I will play by their rules, even though it hurts.

[MaryEllen]

It is a bit of a set back for sure but don't stress out over it too much. I'm sure your parents will come to accept it eventually. This won't last forever. Good luck.

MaryEllen

[Guest Sergei]

I'm sorry to hear about that. Maybe you can try and introduce small more femine things to your apperance over time to help them to adjust gradually. Keep trying to educate them as well. Like you said about when they first saw that documentary about how it effect their way of thinking. Don't give up. We all have someway to go yet, but we will get there. We're all here for each other on this long journey. Never forget who you really are. xxx

[Guest savagedm]

Michelle I am so sorry your parents are still shell shocked over the whole thing. Be patient, I know they will come around! Glad to hear from ya girl!

[Guest Amanda_Henderson]

Sorry to hear about your parents, I am in the kinda the same place with my parents, making small ajustments to your life will help alot. Hair, nails, and things like that.

Hope your parents come around, soon.

[Guest Rika-chama]

Your parents will come around I know they will. When I first came out my mom was in extreme denial. She thought i was making it up, it was a phase, etc but she finally came around. Just remember that as parents this is pretty tough on them. Remember that if they didn't love you they wouldn't be letting you live with them It hurts but remember that in the long run things will be better. Just never forget that you are a girl even if others don't believe you

Ni-paa~

[Guest shimmeringkristal]

Hey,

What ever you do NEVER give up. As an example my Dad was an extreme Homophobe. Till one day in a training class (he is a park ranger) they were talking about how to treat different people untill the trainer said " And how would you treat a TRANSEXUAL?" My father stood up in the middle of the calss of about 25 people or so and said "Just like anyone else darn it!!!!!!" That was after about 8 months of being in the exact same position as you. Just remember that they may feel as though they are loosing a son when in all actuallity they are gaining a happier Child that is the same person just more knowledgeable about herself. Just as it is hard for us it is hard for them as well. I would personally recomend a book called "She is Not There - a transgendered story" It may help them to understand. I wish you peace both within and with all around you.

Huggs,

Kristal