What Is The Problem

[Guest Justme]

Hi everyone. Making this last ditch effort to find some friends. I'm not great at doing this online stuff. I have a very old computer that dies alot. Anyway, I have been transitionoing for a long time. I have written about stuff that is going on with my family.....my sister dealing with liver cancer. I found out yesterday, that ....she wants nothing to do with me. But I will keep praying for her. I could use some friends. I'm at the point that i have had enough. I deal with discrimination in my work....the people I thought were my friends...I only hear from when I contact them. My Mom only contacts me when she needs support. I'm beginning to feel like I should stop my transition and transition back to female. That way everyone ...except me...would be happy. And that would take some doing. Because i have turned into a hairy beast. And I know to transition back would be the death of me...but at least eveyone else would be happy. I'm just tired of my life and of being alone. I'm really tired of my life. Been fighting this fight for too long. I have no fight left.

[Carolyn Marie]

Please don't give up on yourself, hon. You are too important to give up on yourself or your transition.

I'm sorry your family seems to have abandoned you. It sux royally, and isn't fair, and isn't right. But it happens, way to often.

Sometimes it comes down to this - looking after yourself and your needs, and letting everyone who has abandoned you fend for themselves.

If they don't need you in their life, then go build a new life with new friends and new interests, and leave them behind. How can they say the

love you if they are willing to let you descend into hell without a care?

You have us here. We care about you, and even if you can't see us, we are real and our love is real. You're new family can start right here.

PM me if you want to talk more. Or PM another friend, or a different Mod if you already have a relationship started with someone.

I'll be there for you. Talk to me, hon.

HUGS

Carolyn Marie

[Guest ricka]

Hon---we ALL have our bum days, everyone of us. Just because you can't see the sun behind the clouds doesn't mean it's not there and it will shine again in your life. I know you have had a lot on your plate lately and that mostly you are having to deal with all of this alone. Sorry about your computer---hey I used to have an an ancient computer and was limited to dial-up so I know what you mean-----like having two tin-cans and string instead of a cell phone.

JustMe---on my gray days I try and focus on the things in my life---and about myself that I am grateful for--especially the little things, because they do add up to a lot. Transition is never about changing from one gender to another as much as it is simply about becoming who we are. Non-acceptance by our bio-families is always soooo painful, but none of us ever got to choose the bio-family we were born into and no matter how much we love them does not mean they will ever understand and accept us. This is why we are a family here at Laura's.

Hugs, Ricka

[Guest Chandra]

Sweetheart,

It's your life to live. no one knows you better than you.

Listen to your heart and gut and you will end up where you should be.

If you give up now you might regret it forever.

The road you are on is hard but it is going to take you to where you should be, this is just a bump in the road.

I will support you 100% and would be proud to be your friend

Love Chandra

[Guest Elizabeth K]

You are among friends here! We understand INSTANTLY just about everything you say and feel!

OMG so sorry about your sister! TERRIBLE... why is life like that??? I have no clue!

And

You are already transitioned - you transitioned in your mind the moment you took the first step to be yourself! If people shun you - it's their problem! You are much better as you really are and you know that! COME ON!

And it gets bad sometimes - but ...

I learned in life... I am 62 now... you can try to please other people, but in the end, you can only really please yourself.

Hope this helps a little. And you DO have fight left. You have a soul - it is that of a survivor and a fighter! It shows in your writing!

Lizzy

[Guest Donna Jean]

I'm beginning to feel like I should stop my transition and transition back to female. That way everyone ...except me...would be happy. And that would take some doing. Because i have turned into a hairy beast. And I know to transition back would be the death of me...but at least eveyone else would be happy. I'm just tired of my life and of being alone. I'm really tired of my life. Been fighting this fight for too long. I have no fight left.

I have no fight left.

First off............YES YOU DO!

Look up at the red!

If you were put on this earth to make everyone else happy, you'd be Santa Claus!

We are 99.999999999% on this earth to just get through it ourselves!

Who said that this existence was gonna be a cookie bake?????

I know that you're hurting.....(Hugg...)....

Donna Jean