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Guest ~Brenda~

Hi Everybody :)

Yes, it's me again.

OK, over the past year, I have gone from complete obsession with the realization that I am transgendered to now a point of just resigned acceptance that I am trans and am no longer so focused on my transness.

Strange as it may sound, but throughout my life, I have expressed my femininity in various ways (shaving, clothing, etc.), but I never made the connection that I was transgendered until only a few years ago.

Before I joined Laura's, I did some really stupid things (self-HRT, promiscuity, etc). When I joined Laura's, I was in a really bad state. I knew something was different about me and I needed answers. I had researched on the web what being transgendered was all about, and I realized then, I was trans. Everything fell into place, it explained everything that I had experienced (the desire to express as female, the isolation, the inability to form lasting relationships, the confusion).

Finding Laura's was a real Godsend for me. Laura's gave me focus, courage, conviction. I have come a very long way since I first arrived here at Laura's. So much so that now I am simply at the state of... yes, I have much farther to travel, but I am clear on that. I currently now present anywhere from female to androgynous (depending upon circumstances) to the point where GG women ask me advice on jewelry and what would look good on them etc.

I guess what I am trying to say is that I have reached a point where my transness is making progress, and so is my life. I no longer am concerned about me being transgendred... I am transgendered, and the people who matter most in my life understand that too. I am evolving in my own way, and in my own style, but evolving nonetheless.

Being transgendered has been totally incorporated into my life, but is no longer the core of my life. I express who I am and everyone is OK. I simply live my life with all my being.

I hope I did not ramble on too long :unsure:

All my love

Brenda

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Guest Jean Davis

WOW That's Wonderful ;)

It must be nice to have an answer to most of your concerns and feel that you have found your path in life.

I'm so glad to see you happy and hope to catch up to you soon. :P

LUV

Jean

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Guest rachael1

Hi Brenda,

Thanks for sharing your story.

I have reached a similar place to you in that I have now accepted my trans nature and no longer obsess on it either.

It is a relief to now be able to get on with my life incorporating my true self and no longer suffering from fits of depression or doubt.

Rachael

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Good for you Brenda!

I am so glad that have found yourself - it is such a good feeling even if no one else ever really gets it.

You have grown and you continue to grow but nothing can ever change your wonderful insights and tremendous caring.

Love ya,

Sally

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Guest Donna Jean

Wow, Ren..............

It must feel really good to stop obsessing on TG/TS things, accept it and just get on with life!

I hope to welcome that feeling soon, too....

Well, you deserve to feel relaxed and peacfull in your skin anymore...I know that you've been through some trying times....

Good on you, Sweetheart!

Donna Jean

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Hi Brenda,

I love the way you express yourself hun. You are obviously happy in

your skin these days . Life aint all that bad huh ?? even if its just now and then

its worth the pain to experience Heaven, luv,viv :)

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Guest Charlene_Leona

Brenda

I'm so glad you have found your center and you know who you are now, it's a long road the one we travel. I'm over three years into my journey and I still dwell on my trans issue's, but I have to this close to my journey's end. I'm hoping and praying that once my SRS is done then I can put my trans issue's aside and start living that coveted normal life. I seriously doubt that I will live in stealth but at least my transition will be over and I will be able to say I'm a complete woman finally.

Take Care and just be yourself

Charlene Leona

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Brenda, I am truly happy for you.

You have found that place to be comfortable and at peace with yourself. Many of us never get there.

As long as you are happy with where you are at, that is the most important thing.

What matters is happiness and self acceptance. Everything else falls into place.

If you are happy, than I am happy.

Be well, Sweetheart, and know that you are loved.

Carolyn Marie

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Guest Elizabeth K

My feelings are with what Charlene said - I want to move out of transsexuality so badly!

I hope you can keep your centeredness! GOOD FOR YOU!

Like it has been said, it's okay to be what you are. What you are is perfectly fine!

Lizzy

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Brenda hon,

I remember the early days of transition very well, it consumed just about every waking and sleeping moment, then one day it dawned on me that i could transition and live my life at the same time and not have to obsess over it, and of course having allot of friends her as support helped.

Paula

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Guest Amanda joan

Brenda,

I am very happy for you.

It's Great that you have found this sense of Peace. I hope that you find lots of joy this year. I hope that this year is full for laughing and enjoying life.

Peace & Love Amanda

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Guest Chandra

Dearest Brenda,

You are so very together, you are a successful role model for many of us to fallow.

You have achieved your nirvana, of mind body harmony. I am so happy and proud of you my friend. I hope to have you to guide us less together ones to our goal to.

Brenda from my limited time here I have seen that you truly want to help people. I think that this is the most important thing we can do in life and I commend you highly for it. I hope and pray for you to continue to do this for many years to come.

You have been given a gift to truly touch people on the deepest level. I know you have touched mine.

God bless you sweetheart, I will pray for you to continue to use your gift for many years to come.

I am sure you are brilliant in your job at work, but I think what you do here is more important, because there is nothing more noble than helping people.

Most Sincerely, love Chandra

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