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A Return To The Pit


Sally

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A Return To The Pit

I spent so long in that pit of endless night

Looking up just trying to see the daylight

And once a friend had pulled me out

Others come along to shove me about

I seem to spend my life standing with one foot on the rim

It takes so little to make me loose my balance and fall in

Teetering on the edge between all that is and all that was

Never knowing which way to turn stuck with just because

My life is very much a delicate balancing act

With virtually no support and that is surly fact

It doesn’t take much just a word or two

A careless thought from all of those who

Know my mind and heart so much better than me

Those who know that I am blind and want me to see

The world the way that they perceive to be

My way is something they do not care to see

For they know what I want and need and am

So I should stand there and take it like a man

But therein the big problem lies

They are deceived by their eyes

They see the outside and not the woman within

They look at me and look only enough to see him

Why do I care and what can it possibly mean

They must know better or so it would seem

So into the pit once again my hopes fall

I am so tired of this pattern I hate to call

It is unfair to take so much from that one special one who does care

How do I go on knowing that the weight is more than she can bear

My life is spent standing on the edge of that pit

In the darkness how can I ever run away from it

Where is it now in front or behind

One wrong step the bottom to find

I have made myself a promise a hard one to keep

To stay out of that pit so deep with walls so steep

To never again have to call my friend crying

And feel that the only way out is by my dying

I am no longer going to listen to those who do not care

I as Nurse Nelly Flatbush will wash them out of my hair

I will not call on my wonderful friend when my troubles and woes abound

I will only call her to let her know that things have a way of turning around

I cannot become the real me if I listen to others like they know

I can only become myself by trusting in me and letting it show

This is the end of their domination and total control over me

I have built a ladder from your love and I will forever be free

Love ya,

Sally

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Guest Elizabeth K

MY GOODNESS

I have to watch you EVERY MINUTE! I am the backup to that friend - I know that. It's okay... sometimes you really need us both.

BUT SALLY! What happened! Last night you were so much in a GOOD place? Don't be like me! Don't drop into those funks so quickly! And that said...

Good poety - sad subject - BUT - scary thoughts of suicide, squeezing out the sides of that sandwich, like a cheap brand mayonaisse! TOSS IT AWAY!

Come back and post a bunch to people who need you so much!

And Sally?

COME ON -

So I should stand there and take it like a man

HOW THE HELL YOU EVER GONNA DO THAT!!!

GRIN

Lizzy

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Guest Donna Jean

Dang it, Girlfriend.....

I can't turn my back for one minute!

I'm gonna pull you away from that Dang pit and tie you to a tree!

Geez!

Donna Jean

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Guest ~Brenda~

My Dearest Sally,

You are and forever will be my friend. It owe so much of my happiness to you my dear Sally. I will never, ever forget how you, Lizzy, DJ, and Mia all worked with me in the beginning.

I am only a PM/phone/skype/email away. If you want to talk :)

I Love you

Always,

Brenda

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  • Admin

Dear, sweet Sally, I was there with you last night as you descended into the pit, and I wasn't able to

pull you all the way out. Sometimes it takes more than one to do the job, and I am so grateful to have

others here to help you.

Together we will get you out of there and back onto the path on which you belong. All that combined

love WILL do the trick.

Hang in there, Sweetheart. You're friends are by your side and are putting that ladder in there right

now! All you have to do is start climbing.

Love

Carolyn Marie

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