Waking Up And Smelling The Coffiee

[Guest Amanda_Henderson]

Hello Everyone

Sorry I have been gone for a long while, too long. but I have finaly got a computer of my own and I can start coming back here again.

But anyway I have had alot happen in the past couple of years, some good some bad.

The Good is that I have got my name change done and have started on HRT, At first I started on hormones form across the sea from the UK

(I know that this is a very bad way to go but I was getting Despret in my efforts.) But I have seen a doctor at a homeless clinic here in Denver, and now have my own real med form the Doctor.

I have a good Job working as a truck driver Local for the time being, I do want to get out on the road again. I just love doing Cross Country Trucking.

But anyway I started this job in what could be called male mode, and now working in female mode. I was able to do the name change about 1 year ago.

but due to finaces was unable to do my ID untell 6 months later, mid summer after starting the new job. But I got it done, and the company knows, the bosses know just a little bit more about me because they were some what intreded. But anyway Some of the company was wondering when I first started If I was male or female, and ther were a couple of arguements at the yard over it because I always looked like a girl all the way back when I remeber.

but anyway everyone knows what is going on. the changes that are going on in my life.

I have a best friend that has been there from the begining of it all and still is, right now her and her little 8 mts old girl, and her still dead beat husband, and my brother is living with my parents, understanding and all but still refers to me as his bro. In my mind I never was his little Bro. Sorry different story for a diffent topic.

The Job has been going good, untell the Fifth wheel came off the slider plate and fliped the trailor a couple of weeks ago. The boss is not happy about that,

He keeps telling me that I was going way to fast for the turn but I know that I was not, If the cops had thought that it was something that I did they would have worte me a careless or a reckless Driving ticket, but they did not. insted After the invesagation of the accadent I got a defective vehicle ticket. Knowing that I was not at fault, I was but was not at fault.

But anyway I have had to deal with on of those religous extreeeeeemmmmmmm persons that protest abortions and homosexuality, and all of that stuff, since I started working there, I have been wearing a PFLAG pin on my shirt or hat and eversince I have started wearing that I have been hit with phrases out of the bible by him, I have goten to the point that you belive in one thing and I belive in something totaly differant. You belive in the fact that I am going to hell because of what I am doing, I belive that that God dosen't put someone aside because of what they belive in or what they do, but he keeped it up untell he and the boss had a big argument about him not showing up for work oneday. because he found out at the last moment that his friends were going out to protest at Planed Parent Hood or something, I am not sure of the details of why he quit, that is just what I hear. I do know for sure that he did quit, and he may come back. I guess that the good thing about all of this is that I have just learned how to ignore him.

My parent are still fighting with me about this, they say it is agenst there religon, and they will never aprove it for anyreason. I tell them that nomatter what I am still going to be there Child, you may not have to accapt me as your daughter but you will have to accapt the fact that I am a person and still there Child. But because of the fact that they will not accapt that fact I have when I did the name change I also changed my last name aswell. I dont know if they will come around and accapt me or not if they do I will have to sit down and think about if I would change my last name back or because it took so much time and money that it would be worth it to change it back, and if I do will they go back to the point of they dont want anything to do with Amanda.

My name is Amanda, it took a while for me to come up with the name, Trying it on and asking friends what they think and That is the name that I chose when doing the name change, and trying on last names too. Untell I found the one that worked the best.

Now that I have my own computer and a wireless network I hope to see more of ya.

Love ya all

Sincerly

Amanda

[Guest Jenny]

I wish I had the strength to deal with the challenges that you are facing. You are a stronger woman than I can ever hope to be.