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I look back at my life and notice I never put on a dress.

I only bought one skirt which I used as a table cloth.

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- I HATED girl clothes with a passion. I just felt so wrong when I wore them. I wish I had worked up the courage to ask my parents to buy me some sooner.

- When I was young I thought I would grow a penis, I never told anyone about this though.

- I also had the "phantom third limb" thing.

- When I was about 12 years old, I started losing weight. It had been OK at first (I was slightly overweight before), but then I became anorexic because no matter how much weight I lost, I couldn't get rid of the curves on my body. (I got down to 68lbs)

- On the same note, the fact that I didn't realize that my body was supposed to look the way it did at that age.

- I'm barely an A cup and I think my breasts are annoying things that get in my way.

- My hips bother me too.

- So does the softness of my body (and I'm a very thin person)

- And that stupid monthly punctuation thing :banghead:

- I usually hang out with guys, and the girls that I do hang out with are tomboys.

- I've always liked doing guy things.

- I used to look at boys' stuff with envy.

- When I got toys (I only got girls' toys, once again I thought my parents wouldn't let me get boys' things) I was more interested in how the mechanical parts in the accessories worked.

- I played with my toys like a boy would. (ex. There was a remote control car you could get for barbies, I would put the barbies in the car and start crashing it into stuff and drive it down the stairs)

- I had a male attitude toward woman when I was really young. For example, I thought that woman shouldn't join the army (I don't believe that now), and that they should stay safe at home... but at the same time I wanted to join the military when I got older :lol: (I still do)

- I wrote stories from the point of view from a male character, and my female characters were very guy-like.

- I wrote a story with me as the narrator, and I wrote myself as a boy.

- In my dreams I'm usually a boy.

- My characters in MMORPGs and RPGs are guys..

- When I'm in role plays my characters are guys.

- I mentally cringe when I'm called a girl.

- I felt like a perv when I'm getting changed for P.E in the girls' locker room.

- When a girl says "I don't understand guys at all." I think "What's not to understand?"

- I HATED clothes shopping with a passion. (still do)

- I never understood why I would need a purse when I got older, isn't that what pockets are for? (Then I realized how small the pockets in girls' pants are, thank God I finally got guys' clothes)

- When groups were divided into boy/girl teams, I would want to go over to the boy team.

- I had a very embarrassing incident of taking my shirt off at a friend's house when I was 10. :doh1: I didn't realize what was wrong with doing that, I had a moment of "Oh, wait I'm a girl... %^#@!". Luckily, my friend never brought it up again and I've moved since then, so I think it was forgotten.

- I used to have fantasies about turning into a boy or dressing up as a boy. (I can actually do the second one now, the first will require a bit more work)

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- The word ''purse'' actually gives me chills. I hate that word.

- Burping and not being ashamed.

- I want to be the protector in the relationship. I want to be able to take care of my future wife.

- I love my short hair. I wouldnt ever grow it long again.

- I hate shaving. I dont see the point in it.

- Stealing my brothers clothes and toys.

- Changing my name at 13, because my birthname was too ''girly''.

- I only own makeup to use for photography to make fake wounds.

- Im still trying to talk my mom into letting me have a snake or tarantula.

- I loved playing in the mud growing up.

- I was always jelous of my brother because he was allowed to collect baseball cards.

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Guest WalckerX

I’ve always known I was a boy, even when I was really little. And I’ve had it fairly easy all things considered. So heres a list of good and bad.

  • Being devastated when my best friend Dan told me I was a girl and not a guy. I was 6 years old and it was the first time anyone had pointed it out.
  • Being asked in first grade what I wanted to be when I grew up and replied “A boy”.
  • Happiest day of my young life was when I convinced my youngest cousin that I was a boy (She still “slips up” and calls me a he).
  • Wanting to join the USMC since I was 12 and angry that they wouldn’t let me be a sniper with the other guys.
  • Hating my bodily functions with the passion of a thousand suns.
  • Always dressing/shopping in the boys section.
  • Realizing with great delight that dressing up could mean a suit.
  • Grinning like an idiot whenever someone calls me sir.
  • The anger over bras and undies *shudder*
  • Feeling trapped because you can’t explain who you really are to someone you care about.
  • Hoping that when your time of the month is late that it will never return.
  • Praying that you get breast cancer so that your health insurance will remove these damn melons.
  • Getting annoyed and angry when someone assumes you can’t fix/do something because you are a “girl”
  • Happily being mistaken as a male by TSA agents.
  • First time packing and feeling right for the first time.
  • Wanting be be a Dad, not a mom.

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Haha the earliest back I can remember having experiences that were definitely trans-indicative was preschool. Of course I only played with boys and cars, etc, but that could be labelled as "tomboy" behavior (grr, I hated being called a tomboy!) However, tomboys don't go quite this far: I remember standing one day in preschool behind a big tree, and having my friend David show me his underwear. Boys underwear were the coolest thing ever, all that blue elastic and the little superhero patterns and the Y-shaped flap to pee through. I liked them so much that I begged David to let me wear them. To kids, I guess that kind of thing isn't gross. The next day, too, he brought some underwear for me and let me keep them. When my mom found them, she was amused, but it wasn't til third or forth grade when I got up the guts to ask her if she'd buy me boys underwear (by that point all the boys were wearing boxer shorts and how I longed to do so as well).

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Guest Protoman2050

LOL! I'm M2F (more precisely, male-to-androgyne), and I agree with just about everything (save for the physical stuff...I like my breasts and my penis; hate my facial and body hair). It's funny, my Mom was a total tomboy when she was a kid, and I'm a very masculine transgirl (people used to think I was a somewhat feminine cisguy, because my dysphoria was so hard to detect).

I love stylish clothing and makeup, powerful motorcycles and firearms...I'm both guy and girl. I plan on weight-lifting during transition so I can hopefully retain my strength and lose excess fat to define my muscles, and I'd never wear skirts or dresses, just the girl's version of my male clothes (tight jeans, tight T-shirt, leather jacket).

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Guest sierrathompson1

When I would go to bed as a child praying for God to turn me into a boy by the time I woke up, being jealous of my twin brother and not understanding why he got to be the boy and i had to be the girl. Feeling depressed throughout high school because I felt I should be a boy not stuck a girl.

Now am finally pursuing getting hormones and the more I learn about hormones the more hopeful I become ;)

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-Approximately age 3 maybe 4 when I say my brothers stand to pee, told my sister I wanted to stand to pee she told me I couldn't because I was a girl.

(I could by the end of the day, without any accidents)

I cried at xmas at 4 when brother got fishing pole all I got was a stupid doll.

I played football with the boys.

All was dreamed I was a boy.

Always played the dad when forced to play house.

Had a evil kineval ramp for my bike to launch and land.

I always dug the worms for fishing.

I would catch snakes and scare my mom.

told other kids i was born a boy buy parents wanted a girl.so they changed my sex.

Didnt wear a shirt with during summer until I was a teenager and was made to.

I took care of the outside of the farm.

I worked on and fixed the lawn mowers.

I wanted to see how many 50 lbs of corn i could carry at one time.

I never ( still don't ) wear women clothes Yuck.

Never knew where to put my hands when i was forced to wear a dress.

As a adult still called a tomboy.

Dressing up ... is best looking black jeans and button down shirt.

Try to hide my expression when a good looking woman stops in front of me.

this is all i can think of at the moment

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I felt like a perv when I'm getting changed for P.E in the girls' locker room.

XD God! Has there ever been anything more true...!?

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