Opening Doors For Us

[Guest ConfusionAtItsBest]

I have a question that really came to me the other day and kind of hit home to me. Will God open doors for me, as far as getting into the beginning phases of my transition? I mean, the other night I prayed and I told God "If this is truly your will, and if this is truly who I am, then open the doors for me to start on the path you have chosen for me, give me the wisdom to see them and help me God! Send me a sign from you!!" and the very next day I heard a commercial about God and changes, then I heard a song by a band named Hoobastank called "The Reason" where the lyrics talk about changing your life. But the biggest one happened today in my Sociology class. My professor took me aside because he noticed that I was distracted by something as far as my school work and concentration went, he asked me if there was anything going on in my life that would be distracting me, was this God opening up a door to tell someone openly? To let my issue be known to someone who is an expert with situations like this? I wrote it off and told him nothing was going on and that I was just naturally shy, which I am, but then I later felt compelled to send him an email to apologize for lying to him about it. I told him that I usually pride myself on my honesty and that I would like to apologize and told him I was having problems concerning my identity (I didn't tell him I was transgendered but I think he'll probably be able to deduce that for himself.)

But my main question is this, was God opening a door to help me confide in someone? Or was it just mere coincidence? I'm kind of confused...

[Sally]

Well Confused - that is a way of life.

Some people will see these as coincidence only and others will see them as signs where the truth lies we may never know but I believe that God does enable us to help ourselves and by asking for his guidance you have opened your eyes and mind to look for the signs that your heart and soul have known were there all the time.

It is opening yourself to the possibility that it is indeed God's plan for you to transition - it is lifting the guilt and you are able to be at peace with yourself.

I firmly believe that we are intended to become our true selves and in the end that is really all that anyone is expected to be.

God is love so God will love you transitioned or not but you will love yourself so much better after transitioning and that will make your love for God even stronger.

Just my theory but it is very comforting.

Love ya,

Sally

[Guest Donna Jean]

Confused....

Here's a little story for you....ok?

Terrible flood...house floating away with a woman hanging to the roof....

"Please God , save me!" She prayed!

A boat comes by and the men said..."Get in!"

"No" she said.."God is gonna save me!"

A helicopter comes by and the men say "Climb in!"

"No" she says..."God is gonna save me"....

So she drowns.....

Upon seeing God the woman yells.."GOD! YOU WERE SUPPOSED TO SAVE ME!"

And God said...."Well, I sent you a boat and I sent you a helicopter....."

Sometimes, Honey, the signs are right there in front of you....

LOVE

Donna Jean

[Guest ConfusionAtItsBest]

Confused....

Here's a little story for you....ok?

Terrible flood...house floating away with a woman hanging to the roof....

"Please God , save me!" She prayed!

A boat comes by and the men said..."Get in!"

"No" she said.."God is gonna save me!"

A helicopter comes by and the men say "Climb in!"

"No" she says..."God is gonna save me"....

So she drowns.....

Upon seeing God the woman yells.."GOD! YOU WERE SUPPOSED TO SAVE ME!"

And God said...."Well, I sent you a boat and I sent you a helicopter....."

Sometimes, Honey, the signs are right there in front of you....

LOVE

Donna Jean

I've heard that story before, funny enough. But I do understand the message behind it. In the last few days I've been embracing the feminine part of me that I've kept behind closed doors for all of these years and I feel so much better, so relieved that I can let it out comfortably and without feeling awkward or embarrassed about it. I think that everything that's been happening so far in my life has been one big sign from God that I need to follow my heart in this decision. Another thing that I thought was a sign from God was last night actually (I had forgotten about this one on my way home from school today.) but last night my sister was on her computer and somehow she came across a website that had a transsexual woman on it, she told me "Come here! Look at this!! You can't even tell she's a transsexual!!" and that kind of spurred a conversation about transsexuals between me and her, I didn't tell her that I was thinking about transitioning but I left subtle hints to her. As I was talking to her though, we started talking about societies views about transsexuals, how the transsexual community is still looked down upon by a great number of the population and how people usually believe transsexuals to be freaks and weird, but I was totally shocked to hear her response, she said that the persecution on transsexuals is stupid and that it needs to stop because she understands that we have a woman's mind and we feel trapped inside a man's body. I wasn't expecting that, and I feel like that was a big green sign from God telling me that everything will be okay when I transition, I feel like God was telling me that my sister will be there for me every step of the way no matter what, even if my parents aren't.

[Guest Elizabeth K]

I am very spiritual. When I was ever in serious trouble in my life - really serious trouble - I would, like everyone, ask GOD why me? One day He answered me - telling me what I was facing and how it would be resolved. I was sceptical because I thought I deluded and it was actually me talking to myself. He said no - it was real. Then I said 'why now? I have wanted so much to have you talk to me before, but you didn't." He said He always was talking to me, but I would not listen. Shocked beyond words, I SWORE I would listen in the future!

What he said at that time came to be exactly as He told me it would.

Several times in my life I have prayed to GOD to let me hear him. I learned to open my heart and let Him in - to have Him talk to me, and it was never an easy thing. We are so far from Him in our everyday life, sometimes, To hear Him takes a huge amount of Will power and determination. When I would connect, what He told me was very short in words, long in truth and not always what I expected.

He has never lied nor mislead me. I UTTERLY give myself over to what he tells me.

Sometimes He is not easily understood. I asked Him about that and was told He answers in ways we can understand, we humans, he talks to us all. We just need to listen carefully. Yes, it becomes clear with a little effort, sometimes taking a while. But it DOES become clear.

So the point here?

Transsexuality and transitioning! I was at point where I needed to know some things (1) why am I transsexual (2) is it in His Will to let me transition into a woman (3) would I lose my wife?

He responded to the second and third question. (1) He said He has allowed me to transition, that I had suffered enough, I had learned what I needed to know. I was doing his Will. (2) He said my wife will not leave me. He also said my mission on earth also includes taking care of her as He has special uses for her.

I of course was so terribly relieved! It gave me assurance that transitioning is going to be successful, and under His care. Oh my goodness how that has empowered me. And my wife? Impossible I thought - therein is a challange for my belief system. She has been firm in her threat to leave when I get my surgery. It seems non-negotiable, We have fought over this for a year. I have TOLD HER GOD promissed me she would not leave. So this was still an unfulfilled promise from Him. But I have faith! Recently she said if I really had to be known as 100% woman openly after the surgery, could I just not tell anyone I had surgery? I don't know what that means. I think it is meant to tell me that there is room for negotiation.

So there was doubt. We ALWAYS doubt, we humans? I don't know why? So GOD sent me three signs - I didn't ask particularly , but He knew to do so.

(1) My friend Jim was dying (he passed away in November). He was very spiritual and spent a good time of his life with GOD. Long story but I went to Jim when the end seemed near, mainly to try to ease his way. Of course Jim would have no part of that, although he thanked me. He read me and ministered to me. He was subtle but he had a transdaughter I didn't know about. He read me! SO I outed myself to him, something I don't do much. Two days later he telephoned me. He said he had talked with GOD and GOD said I was okay and He was allowing me to transition.

(2) My wife is spiritual as well, she taught me much about what I know now. We are Catholic, she being in the church since birth, me coming into it about age 30. Well - there are aspects of the church I never realized, the Saints and the Intercessions and all she taught me to use. I HAVE seen miracles - things beyound understanding, that come from this. So I hoped to find one here in the Church, a knowing of how to proceed through transition and how to help my wife. It came in the form of what I call the 'psychic nun,' and of course that is a tad disrespectful. My wife asked for help from her contacts, someone in the church that could handle a very personal problem, one that the priests could not understand. She was led to a spiritualist nun, one santioned by the church. My wife made an appointment and we had to wait three months to see her.

She read me instantly. She called me Elizabeth. She told me GOD said it was okay and he was allowing me to transition. This was with my wife in the room, something my wife did not expect to hear.

(3) My sisters are Fundamental Christians and they came from another state to help me know the error of my ways. It was an intense two days. They prayed, and they quorted scripture - and GOD gave me the answers to all that, what to say, how to explain? I was in awe - this ability to answer spiritual challages was so unexpected. At the end I said I had talked with GOD and He had also sent two signs. They said 'How do I know it was GOD talking?" I said "How did they know it wasn't?" - and they could not answer. They then said they had done some praying and they thought I was on the wrong path. I said "Should I listen to what you say other people say is GOD's Will, or shall I listen to GOD personally." They could not answer again.

So there you are!

BUT

I left out the results to my first question to GOD! "why am I transsexual?"

He and I worked on that one! Wow I had some questions! It was simple. "Becasuse I made you that way for a reason."

HE MADE ME THAT WAY FOR A REASON!

What reason - why why why?

He didn't tell me. We aren't supposed to know.

MY STORY

Elizabeth

[Guest ConfusionAtItsBest]

I am very spiritual. When I was ever in serious trouble in my life - really serious trouble - I would, like everyone, ask GOD why me? One day He answered me - telling me what I was facing and how it would be resolved. I was sceptical because I thought I deluded and it was actually me talking to myself. He said no - it was real. Then I said 'why now? I have wanted so much to have you talk to me before, but you didn't." He said He always was talking to me, but I would not listen. Shocked beyond words, I SWORE I would listen in the future!

What he said at that time came to be exactly as He told me it would.

Several times in my life I have prayed to GOD to let me hear him. I learned to open my heart and let Him in - to have Him talk to me, and it was never an easy thing. We are so far from Him in our everyday life, sometimes, To hear Him takes a huge amount of Will power and determination. When I would connect, what He told me was very short in words, long in truth and not always what I expected.

He has never lied nor mislead me. I UTTERLY give myself over to what he tells me.

Sometimes He is not easily understood. I asked Him about that and was told He answers in ways we can understand, we humans, he talks to us all. We just need to listen carefully. Yes, it becomes clear with a little effort, sometimes taking a while. But it DOES become clear.

So the point here?

Transsexuality and transitioning! I was at point where I needed to know some things (1) why am I transsexual (2) is it in His Will to let me transition into a woman (3) would I lose my wife?

He responded to the second and third question. (1) He said He has allowed me to transition, that I had suffered enough, I had learned what I needed to know. I was doing his Will. (2) He said my wife will not leave me. He also said my mission on earth also includes taking care of her as He has special uses for her.

I of course was so terribly relieved! It gave me assurance that transitioning is going to be successful, and under His care. Oh my goodness how that has empowered me. And my wife? Impossible I thought - therein is a challange for my belief system. She has been firm in her threat to leave when I get my surgery. It seems non-negotiable, We have fought over this for a year. I have TOLD HER GOD promissed me she would not leave. So this was still an unfulfilled promise from Him. But I have faith! Recently she said if I really had to be known as 100% woman openly after the surgery, could I just not tell anyone I had surgery? I don't know what that means. I think it is meant to tell me that there is room for negotiation.

So there was doubt. We ALWAYS doubt, we humans? I don't know why? So GOD sent me three signs - I didn't ask particularly , but He knew to do so.

(1) My friend Jim was dying (he passed away in November). He was very spiritual and spent a good time of his life with GOD. Long story but I went to Jim when the end seemed near, mainly to try to ease his way. Of course Jim would have no part of that, although he thanked me. He read me and ministered to me. He was subtle but he had a transdaughter I didn't know about. He read me! SO I outed myself to him, something I don't do much. Two days later he telephoned me. He said he had talked with GOD and GOD said I was okay and He was allowing me to transition.

(2) My wife is spiritual as well, she taught me much about what I know now. We are Catholic, she being in the church since birth, me coming into it about age 30. Well - there are aspects of the church I never realized, the Saints and the Intercessions and all she taught me to use. I HAVE seen miracles - things beyound understanding, that come from this. So I hoped to find one here in the Church, a knowing of how to proceed through transition and how to help my wife. It came in the form of what I call the 'psychic nun,' and of course that is a tad disrespectful. My wife asked for help from her contacts, someone in the church that could handle a very personal problem, one that the priests could not understand. She was led to a spiritualist nun, one santioned by the church. My wife made an appointment and we had to wait three months to see her.

She read me instantly. She called me Elizabeth. She told me GOD said it was okay and he was allowing me to transition. This was with my wife in the room, something my wife did not expect to hear.

(3) My sisters are Fundamental Christians and they came from another state to help me know the error of my ways. It was an intense two days. They prayed, and they quorted scripture - and GOD gave me the answers to all that, what to say, how to explain? I was in awe - this ability to answer spiritual challages was so unexpected. At the end I said I had talked with GOD and He had also sent two signs. They said 'How do I know it was GOD talking?" I said "How did they know it wasn't?" - and they could not answer. They then said they had done some praying and they thought I was on the wrong path. I said "Should I listen to what you say other people say is GOD's Will, or shall I listen to GOD personally." They could not answer again.

So there you are!

BUT

I left out the results to my first question to GOD! "why am I transsexual?"

He and I worked on that one! Wow I had some questions! It was simple. "Becasuse I made you that way for a reason."

HE MADE ME THAT WAY FOR A REASON!

What reason - why why why?

He didn't tell me. We aren't supposed to know.

MY STORY

Elizabeth

Wow, that was a very inspirational story! Thank you for that! I think that is one of the main things I needed to hear. My parents are Baptist and they wouldn't agree with it, they'd try to stop me and tell me I'm sinning against God and that I need to read the bible and pray more. But I guess I have a rebuttal now, I can tell them that I DID in fact pray and that God lead me on the path he has for me. It's still gonna be hard to tell my parents about this, but at least I can know for certain what Gods will is for my life if I just go to Him. Thank you Elizabeth, you've given me a boost of confidence that I don't think will ever die!

[Guest Katrina Reann]

Thank you for sharing your inspiring story Elizabeth. And as for God leaving us some unanswered questions, I think He does that intentionally as a protection for all of us. If we had all of our questions answered we could possibly lose our need for Him or become proud and haughty because we knew everything. He had that happen once with Lucifer and it caused a war in Heaven of good and evil that still rages on. Maybe it no longer rages on in Heaven because Lucifer fell from Heaven. But it does still rage on in the world in which we live. And He does not want that to happen to us.

Confused,

I can't really say it was God opening a door for your transition but it very well may have been Him opening a door of opportunity for you to begin lifting the oppression that fear, shame, and self guilt puts on us. The reason I say that I can't say it was God opening a door for your transition is because I don't know what His purpose and plans are for you. But I do know He wants us all to be free of the baggage that we all carry with us. He accepts us the way we are and truth be told none of us are perfect. The things we all struggle with about ourselves and in our lives may be very different from one another but the oppressions they cause are not. And we are all our own worst critics.

And just because you didn't walk through that door of opportunity to see what was behind it doesn't mean that door is closed. In others words you can still go talk to him and share with him what is going on and see what he has to say. Your professor may very well have or know of some resources that could help you find inner peace with yourself and /or maybe even give you some direction. So that is something to keep in mind and consider....Huggsss

[Guest Girl Emily]

Thank you Elizabeth,

I come from an evangelical Christian home and have had the same questions reguarding transition. Your story confirms my own beliefs as to what's God's will for me. This site and others have given me the confidence and understanding that transition is part of His plan for me. God works His will through His people

Thank you