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hi everyone-

i put a post somewher earlier-but i dont know if it come up-

well-with this-

i finally admittin i a alcholic and a drug addict-

i cant even say more-i so ashme!

scooby x

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Hi Scooby,

This is a big first step in admitting that you have a problem. You don't have to feel shame. No one here is going to judge you or put you down. Have you considered getting involved with AA and/or NA. Maybe it's time. Something to think about.

MaryEllen :)

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You've got to put your shame behind you, Scooby. There are many in the same boat as you, so don't feel that you're alone. Take those first steps. If not for yourself, do it for your family. No one is going to make fun of you. AA can help you if you'll only try. I'm betting you can do it.

MaryEllen :)

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Hey Scooby ,,,,Hun if you have ever gone through the A/A Forum you may have come across

my name ,,,viv. I quit the booze over 13 years ago Hun and though I dont feel it now I remember

the feelings of shame . When I say I was bad ,,,I was bad . Theres a lot of help here re living a

sober life and as Mary Ellen said you could think about AA meetings . I truly wish I could convey

me now as opposed to me say 14 years ago Scooby ,,I am alive /happy with my lot and capable

of dealing with the stuff I aint happy with . Thats what sobriety gives you Hun ,,,,,self respect and

the the strength to live a good life , you CAN do that Scooby . Please consider that , will you, luv,viv :)

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Guest ~Brenda~

Scooby hon :)

There is no shame in admitting that you have a problem. In fact that is really good and courageous.

There is a saying... "if you think you might have a substance abuse problem.... you do".

Hospitals and most churches have information about the times and places for AA and NA meetings. Go seek one out.

The first step is admitting that you have a problem.

You have taken that first step :)

Congratulations.

I am here behind you hon.

Love

Brenda

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Guest KellyKat

Hi Scooby!! First I'd like to say how brave you are to admit you have a problem. That in itself is no easy task!! You can't help someone who doesn't want to help themselves.

In admitting not only to yourself, but others, you are seeking help. Be brave dear and take the next step!! Find a AA or NA group to help you thru this.

I think that you will find the comfort and compassion of friends to help and guide you will make things easier in life. So many of us here have gone thru so many things in life that you will find no shortage of support from those that have been to some extent or another - are where you are now.

We are here when you need us. PM someone if you'd are wanting help on a private issue that prefer not to post. Just keep being brave and remember that we are here to help however we can. I'm willingly to do what I can (except for that marmite thing) har - to help.

Luv Kat :)

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Guest v4leri3

Scooby,

Being addicted to alcohol or substances is nothing to be ashamed of. It's a physical condition caused by altered levels of neurotransmitters in the brain, not a lack of willpower.

The most important thing is to get help. Many places have AA meetings specifically for LGBT people, and I've found them to be very supportive.

Best of luck,

Val

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Guest aDORAble

Dear Scooby,

I know exactly what shame is. I've let is control my life for several years already and have just recently decided I won't deal with this pain anymore.

I'm doing a substance abuse class with the Vets Admin, and I've only had a few classes so far but I realize how much harm I'm doing my mind.

I, and you, don't deserve the punishment we put ourselves through. We're much better people than we think we are.

If you'd like to share the misery and revelations of going through something like this, I think i can walk beside you and share the results.. up and down.

Hugs

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Guest Elizabeth K

Scooby

We talk all the time! You are one heck of a writer and I love seeing your stuff.

And remember - this is a support site - NO ONE is considered less of a person because of a problem, and that includes drinking and drug usage. GOD help us Scooby - we have it hard as it is. So all the advice above? See the love there? I didn't see even the tiniest bit of judgement or scorn!

You can be ashamed if you want to - but it isn't gonna affect me - because I know you are gonna be fine. Just see if you can get a little help with all that problem you have with all that addictive stuff. Its do-able! You will find out that like gender dysphoria - TAIN'T YOUR FAULT!

And keep us updated! PROMISE? PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE?

Lizzy

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Guest KellyKat

Hi Scooby!!

I hope that you are having better days. I haven't seen you post lately, and am a bit concerned.

If you don't feel like being in the forums then by all means PM someone. You'll not find a shortage of friends.

Luv Kat :)

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Scooby, we've all done things that we're ashamed of. However, you can't let shae stop you from moving ahead. Admitting you have problems is a courageous first step. Each step that you take is one step closer to where you need to go. It's scary but I believe that you're on the right track.

Gennee

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Guest scooby

thankyou everyone((((((((((((((((((hug)))))))))))))))))))

i lasted four days-

i was determined but i dont think im gonna do this

scooby x

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Hey Scooby ,,,,Hun if you have ever gone through the A/A Forum you may have come across

my name ,,,viv. I quit the booze over 13 years ago Hun and though I dont feel it now I remember

the feelings of shame . When I say I was bad ,,,I was bad . Theres a lot of help here re living a

sober life and as Mary Ellen said you could think about AA meetings . I truly wish I could convey

me now as opposed to me say 14 years ago Scooby ,,I am alive /happy with my lot and capable

of dealing with the stuff I aint happy with . Thats what sobriety gives you Hun ,,,,,self respect and

the the strength to live a good life , you CAN do that Scooby . Please consider that , will you, luv,viv :)

((((((((((((((((hug)))))))))))))))))thankyou Viv x

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Guest ~Brenda~
thankyou everyone((((((((((((((((((hug)))))))))))))))))))

i lasted four days-

i was determined but i dont think im gonna do this

scooby x

When you are really ready. Join an AA meeting. Get a sponsor to call when you feel like drinking again.

When you are making decisions about your life that are centered around drinking.

It is time....

Brenda

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Hi Scooby,

I'm very happy to hear that you're doing better. Did you check out AA to see what they had to offer?

MaryEllen :)

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