I Just Love Being Able To Cry Again

[Guest Girl Emily]

I watched my favorite show on TV tonight "Life Unexpected" and I started crying. It felt good to be moved emotionally rather then the numbness that I felt for so many years. I cried yesterday after reading a post about the death of a little girl. For years I would feel nothing at such stories and knew something was wrong but, had no clue what. Now I understand it is common for MTF's to feel numb. Since I have stopped lying to myself I have cried often and feel better when it's over. I will never willingly go back to pretending who I am. It would come at a price I no longer want to pay or can afford

Happy tears to those that want them,

[Guest swee'pea]

Hi Emily,

<<hug>>

I cry all the time.

I love it when it is a good cry over something that is heart felt.

They say that one of the reasons that woman live longer than men is because they cry more often.

Stay beautiful.

vanna

[Guest Elizabeth K]

I think it is called an interconnectiveness - we newly minted women now understand how everything is tied into everything else. The proverb of God knowing of the death of a sinlge sparrow is now so obvious! We cry at injustice, we weep at tragedy, we sob at the unfolding of the world's inhumanity to itself.

Donna Jean wrote me once, 'we laugh to keep from crying, we cry when things go awry - but in the end we still end up crying!' That is paraphrased and I suppose she read it somewhere - maybe it is hers? But its a marvellous way to describe us.

And you newly minted men - you understand as well - it will contribute to your strength to know this.

Just a thought in the early morning!

Lizzy

[Guest RachaelAnn]

I haven't cried in 10 years. The last time I cried was at my fathers funeral in early September of 2000. Since then I have lost my paternal grandmother, my maternal grandfather, and 2 uncles and haven't shed a single tear. Since I forgot how to cry, I got a tattooed tear. At least I can cry in that form.

[Guest Donna Jean]

Ah.....

One of the things that I treasure from this transition so far......

And, no, it didn't start when I began HRT.

It started the day that I accepted myself and realized the journey that I had to take...

As a male I had only cried once in many years (When my beloved "Bear Dog" died".....)

But, since it's started, there's no turning it off.

And I don't want to. It's so clensing, it frees the soul, it can be an expression of happiness and joy, sadness, pain....

But, I find it a wonderful emotion that had been burried for decades....

It'll never get put back away....

LOVE

Donna Jean

[Guest BeckyTG]

Ah.....

One of the things that I treasure from this transition so far......

And, no, it didn't start when I began HRT.

It started the day that I accepted myself and realized the journey that I had to take...

As a male I had only cried once in many years (When my beloved "Bear Dog" died".....)

Sweet Donna Jean,

Unlike you, I struggled to just let go and cry for quite a while. I'd read many girls post about how they cried all the time, but, for some reason, I was just not able to get the faucet turned on.

But, since it's started, there's no turning it off.

And I don't want to. It's so cleansing, it frees the soul, it can be an expression of happiness and joy, sadness, pain....

But, I find it a wonderful emotion that had been buried for decades....

It's finally started for me. It's usually not serious eye leakage for me, but it seems to be pretty much limited to when I should. Extremes of joy, pain or sympathetic emotion will bring on the tears. It seriously disturbs my wife. My GT said that I just need to learn to control it long enough to get it to another room, out of sight, like nearly all women have to do. I've got that down. I don't have to cry very long to get the benefits, either. It seems a little tear is very beneficial and really makes me feel good.

I've not had the uncontrolled, unprovoked crying fits that other women have related, either. UNLESS, I start laughing (which I do all day). If I get too funny, I start giggling and once that happens, I can't stop and I cry like a baby. I have to be so careful and I've done this in front of people I work with. I'm sure they wonder, as this is new.

It'll never get put back away....

No, it won't. There's no better feeling than sharing intense emotions with a girlfriend, crying together on each other's shoulders. It's magic, special and an experience to hold dear for a long time. Men will never get it, but I do and I never want to give it up. Ever.

LOVE

Donna Jean

MORE LOVE,

Becky