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*Pokes head through front gate*

Hi I’m back from hibernation

What a cold few months I’ve had. My boiler decided it didn't want to keep me warm any more and packed in, also lost hot water, not the best time of year especially after the big freeze we've just had here in the UK. Then my loud, slow, aging computer died on me, leaving me no form of entertainment :angry: . So I spent a month and a half in the warmest place, bed with planned expeditions to the kitchen for food involving many layers of clothes.

Between sleeping and times where I wanted it all to end as it was too cold, I had time to think and in that time Emily died. She never really existed, she was a girl I once knew, who I wanted to be when I was 7. I’m not her and never will be its time to stop pretending, just as I’ve been pretending to act masculine for too long. So from this day forth (well about a month ago really) Im Louise Rose *******

I chose Louise because it means famous warrior, no I’m not famous but I’ve been through battles since birth.

Rose was always going to be my second name, as it was my nan’s name and she was only person from my family that was allowed contact with me.

The last name is private so there :P

The Boiler was fixed and cost a small fortune. As for the PC it was 7 years old, and was long due an upgrade, so I brought my myself a mac mini

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Louise Rose (formerly pretending to be someone called Emily R)

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Wow what a hard winter!

I am glad that you made it through.

Now I need a few moments to mourn the loss of Emily - OK, that's enough - how about some hot cocoa and fresh baked cookies for Louise Rose?

So glad that you have really found yourself.

Love ya,

Sally

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Guest Elizabeth K

Louise!

COLD it sounds like! Well - maybe you will have an early spring...

I like your name - and as Kathleen Rose said - just as MaryEllen in a PM and she will change your name for you if it isn't already in use. Let me look...

It's available. We moderators cannot do it but admin can.

And NEVER decide to cash it in! You have worked so hard to get where you are!

GLAD YOU ARE BACK! THE LETTERS OF TEXT ARE SHARPER AND LOOK BRAND NEW WITH THAT NEW COMPUTER! hee hee

Lizzy

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Good morning Hun ,,new name , new pc , and all warmed up !!!!!

Well now ,,,,your the cat who got the cream , yeh ????. hee hee .

Glad your back Louise ,,,,luv,viv :)

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Guest Donna Jean

Welcome back, Hon......

Love the new name....

And, I'm so sorry that you had such a tough winter...same here in Ohio, USA

And I spent a lot of time in front of a small electric space heater...

I'm so glad that you made it through and didn't do anything that you couldn't take back!

I'm happy that you're here!

HUGGS!

Donna Jean

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Guest ricka

Hello Louise Rose-----what a lovely name indeed!! So glad you have arisen from hibernation. And it's Easter Sunday today, so appropriate. And sooo happy that you have joined your sisters here.

I can really identify with the hibernation thing myself. I tend to do that come the cold, dark winter days. Now my daffodils are in bloom---the first flowers of spring, and it's time for me to reawaken and flower as a woman myself.

One of the dearest things about Laura's is that this is a place where we are growing together as women. This is such a wonderful feeling.

Hugs,Ricka

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Guest Louise Rose

Thanks everyone *has another cookie and a sip of cocoa* Ive missed them,

and thanks MaryEllen for changing my name :)

The only things that kept me going were my two cats Tilly and Topsy. They have always been there when Im feeling down or upset by lying with me. So it was my turn to provide them with a heat source. I could never do anything silly to myself, as it would mean leaving then alone and I love them too much to such a cruel thing.

There were a couple of benefits, I finally stopped smoking been 6 weeks now :) and lost 12lbs, although my fitness has gone as i found out today after 4 hours cycling :o

Hugs

Louise

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