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Guest Elizabeth K

I am floating on nothing

tens of hundreds of miles above it all

and I know not what I am

a whisper - a vapor - really nothing there

nothing

nothing there

I am reelling in the fish I catch

hundred of millions of every kind

none seem the same

and I know like me - they don't exist

no fish

none there at all

I hate the time I waste each day

seconds and days and years it seems

each is in its place

but all the same - each is not

not real

of no real significance

So pending something I cannot know

with each new breath

I wait again - my rebirthtime

still floating on - on nothing at all

a whisp - a wraith

not really there

Lizzy

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Guest Donna Jean

Lizzy.......

I don't know why....

When I first read this I wept.....

It just hit me in a way that had my shoulders shaking and my eyes leaking....

I love it...

Donna Jean

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Guest KellyKat

Hi Lizzy

I love your prose!! It is quite beautiful and touching.

I feel a touch of karma -

somthing,

nothing,

rebirth.

Luv Kat :)

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Guest Michele H

Lizzy dear - much sadness in your writting - but then I think most of the great works of art and literature come from those with a core of pain. I love what you write but wish life was such that you had no need. Take care of yourself

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That is a very good poem but if I had written it you would have been on the PMs, Skype or Telephone trying to find out what was wrong - so spill it Lizzy - what's up or maybe more appropriately What's down?

I liked it but it is a little on the oblivion side of things.

Love ya,

Sally

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Guest Elizabeth K

oh

Just this

Floating like I am nothing

my life is such - as I await my new life

caught in the definition

of someone I manufactured - not me at all

just waiting

waiting

where am I meanwhile?

the real me

Where is Elizabeth?

I am floating on nothing

Lizzy

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Guest Esperanza Xochitl
I am floating on nothing

tens of hundreds of miles above it all

and I know not what I am

a whisper - a vapor - really nothing there

nothing

nothing there

I am reelling in the fish I catch

hundred of millions of every kind

none seem the same

and I know like me - they don't exist

no fish

none there at all

I hate the time I waste each day

seconds and days and years it seems

each is in its place

but all the same - each is not

not real

of no real significance

So pending something I cannot know

with each new breath

I wait again - my rebirthtime

still floating on - on nothing at all

a whisp - a wraith

not really there

Lizzy

I do know the feeling. That is something really deep. It reminds me of my own periods of numbness.

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Guest BrandonIThink

Ok, so the comments I make (or try to make) on poetry very rarely come out right, but I really needed to comment on this. I have no idea how to express what this made me feel, but it gave me chills and I'm close to tears (my dad's in the room, otherwise I very well might be sobbing right now). Very powerful.

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