Kimmy's Story

[Guest Kimmy]

Hi, All; I promised I would post my story, so here goes. I don't think I would be brave enough to do this if I hadn't also promised my friend, and idol, Aimee. She is a Doctor of Psychology, among other things, and hopes my story will help to make a tiny change in the study of HBS.

I was born to a single mother, and raised by her and her companion, also a single woman. Most people refer to their parents, I refer to my mothers. I have no idea who my father was, and I am not really sure my mother knew either.

I think from the time I was born I knew I was a girl. Even before I knew how to tell boys from girls, I KNEW I was a girl. That didn't change when I found out how to tell, I STILL knew I was a girl, with some poor little boy's genitals. I remember crying myself to sleep many nights, in sympathy for that poor boy.

I of course had to go to school as a boy. That was miserable. I didn't like the games boys played, and the girls didn't like to play with someone they thought was a boy.

After I started school, and I think before, my mothers had me visit I don't know how many therapists, who always tried to get me to act more "manly". I must be awfully stubborn, I always insisted I was a girl.

My mothers were stong women, and they finally realized I was NOT going to change how I felt. They loved me a lot and didn't like to see me suffer. I don't remember if it was when I started the 4th or 5th grade, they somehow managed to get me into school as a girl. We had moved to a new city, and somehow they found a doctor who was sympathetic to my problem. He had had a son in my position, who committed suicide when he was 19.

This may sound like a fairy tale, but it is true. Dr. Ogden felt that since my case was so positively easy to diagnose, I should start medication before puberty, and I did. I don't know anything about the medicines, but there were a lot of pills, and some injections. The summer before I was 14, I had my surgery. I went through puberty as a female, and developed as a girl! I was so very happy, and I still am.

Aimee says this was certainly not ethical, and possibly illegal. I don't know about those things, I am not smart like Aimee, but I certainly know it was right for me. Aimee says that if there were a positive method to diagnose HBS at or before birth, or at least early in childhood, then opinion might change. That is why she wanted me to tell my story, hoping that it might make a little difference, at least someday. She says that someday, if a form of diagnosis is found, HBS may be considered a physical birth defect, like a cleft pallette, and can be repaired very early.

I hope my good luck does not offend anyone. I managed to escape what I see now is a whole lot of misery and stress. Anyway, there it is.

[MaryEllen]

Hi Kimmy,

Thank you for sharing your story with us. Ethical or not, it turned out well for you. That's all that matters. HBS is still in it's infancy stages but according to the HBS theory, it is already considered a physical defect rather than a psychological one.

MaryEllen

[Guest gwenthlian]

Lucky indeed though risky as regards changing emotions etc. Welcome to the forums ^^

[Guest Kimmy]

Lucky indeed though risky as regards changing emotions etc. Welcome to the forums ^^

Really, I did not have any emotion changes, other than as any girl has during puberty. I always knew I was a girl. You have also posted concerning romantic attachments. maybe I can help, since I have a normal bisexual girl sex life. The question of homosexuality just does not come up. If I felt strongly either way. I still would not know if those feelings were homosexual or heterosexual. I think we make too big a thing about sexual preferences. It is not an either/or thing. My friend Aimee would say it's not black or white, but, like all things, a varying shade of gray.

[Guest savagedm]

Really, I did not have any emotion changes, other than as any girl has during puberty. I always knew I was a girl. You have also posted concerning romantic attachments. maybe I can help, since I have a normal bisexual girl sex life. The question of homosexuality just does not come up. If I felt strongly either way. I still would not know if those feelings were homosexual or heterosexual. I think we make too big a thing about sexual preferences. It is not an either/or thing. My friend Aimee would say it's not black or white, but, like all things, a varying shade of gray.

Ahh words of wisdom I must say, welcome to the forums btw! Great story!

~Brooke

[Guest Rika-chama]

Thanks for sharing Kimmy and wow lucky you getting to transition so early You sure have two wonderful mothers

Ni-paa~

[Guest Kimmy]

Thanks for sharing Kimmy and wow lucky you getting to transition so early You sure have two wonderful mothers

Ni-paa~

Thank you, Rika. Unfortunately, I HAD two wonderful mothers. They were both killed by a drunk driver over 7 years ago. It was the great tragedy of my life. I totally fell apart, and if it hadn't been for meeting Aimee, I don't think I would have survived. Aimee twice saved my life.

[Guest Drew]

Thank you, Rika. Unfortunately, I HAD two wonderful mothers. They were both killed by a drunk driver over 7 years ago. It was the great tragedy of my life. I totally fell apart, and if it hadn't been for meeting Aimee, I don't think I would have survived. Aimee twice saved my life.

that's really sad, i've had a relatives killed by drunk drivers also so i know how much it sucks.

you're lucky to have Aimee though.

[Guest Rika-chama]

Thank you, Rika. Unfortunately, I HAD two wonderful mothers. They were both killed by a drunk driver over 7 years ago. It was the great tragedy of my life. I totally fell apart, and if it hadn't been for meeting Aimee, I don't think I would have survived. Aimee twice saved my life.

I'm very sorry to hear about that. A few years ago my brother was was hit by a car and killed. Certainly is a horrible experience to lose those you love. Just remember that your moms love you very much. Aimee is a great friend for you^^ I'm glad that you didn't lose yourself after that happened.

Ni-paa~

[Guest kathy sue]

hi kimmy welcome to the forums. sorry to hear about your mothers. how fortunate you had them for the time you did. also fortunate that you found a caring and capable person like amiee. i am always happy to hear about someone that has been able to get what they need at the proper time and make the most of all the good things in their lives. here's hoping it will continue forever.

[Guest Firegirl]

Must.....Fight......Back.........Jealousy.......=D.

That was a great story, and I really don't think that you will offend anyone with it. I must admit I am more then a little jealous right now, but not offended. Congrats!

-Lessa

P.S. Sorry to hear about you mothers, that is really sad =(. Stay strong girl!

[Guest Mr. Fox]

Ethical or not, transitioning that early is totally sweet.

[Guest Jenny]

Yes thanks for sharing, I appreciate it.

[Guest Kelly]

ENVY!!!

I wish i had it that easy.

whenever its brought up i feel guilty of robbing my mom of a son...

[Guest Kimmy]

ENVY!!!

I wish i had it that easy.

whenever its brought up i feel guilty of robbing my mom of a son...

I know I was very lucky, Kelly, in many ways. If enough effort is put into medical research, so our condition can be diagnosed very early; and if we can get enough of a change in public attitude, then all children, in the future, can be as lucky as I was.

hehehehehehe Those are Aimee's thoughts, and she is better able to work toward that end than I am. She convinced me to tell my story, and I am glad I did. Everyone one here has been wonderful.

I find it hard NOT to talk about Aimee. If angels really exist, she must be their leader.

[Guest Kimmy]

Must.....Fight......Back.........Jealousy.......=D.

That was a great story, and I really don't think that you will offend anyone with it. I must admit I am more then a little jealous right now, but not offended. Congrats!

-Lessa

P.S. Sorry to hear about you mothers, that is really sad =(. Stay strong girl!

Thank you, Lessa. I really did worry that people would resent my good luck