Hello Darlings

[Guest dolly]

hi. i'm dolly. for years i have been looking for a group that i could truely identify with and i think i may have finally found it.

a bit about me..........well, i'm 27 going on 28 in september which makes me feel really old. i work at a sword shop in mesa which is not a very transfriendly city and live in an even lesser trans friendly city outside mesa so out of fearof negative retaliation i have been putting on a very butch persona for a long time and am really tired of pretending to be something im not. i tend to be shy towards people and places i dont know but am very hyper and bubbly around people i do know and when im comfortable.

a few people who have known me as my chosen name have labeled me a bit of a diva but thats to be debated.

i havent gone to counseling yet or anything and this is really my first step out into going that route.

i've always identified as female,ever since i was little but havent had the opportunity to really express my real self outside of my huse or close circle of friends simply cus i dont like confrontatin. propably cus of my father.

anyway thats me in a brief. it's nceto finally have people i can alk with about this who don't think i'm strange.

[Guest gwenthlian]

Welcome to the playground! I fear your profile may be a little inaccurate ^^ i have yet to meet a FTM who identifies as female

[Guest dolly]

ohmygoodness! youre soooooooo right! i just noticed that that's backwards. it's supposed to be mtf not ftm. thank you frpointing that out. i have no idea how i goofed that up lol.

[Guest Michelle M]

Don't feel old. I am your age. We still have a good 30 years left before we're confined to wheelchairs and dragged kicking and screaming into a nursing home where they force feed us Bruce Willis movies!

I do think you are a bit confused with terminology. =) Your gender selection says FTM.

MTF is a person who's born with a boy's body but is a girl inside.

FTM is a person born with a girl's body but is a boy inside.

If you are FTM, great. If not, mark it appropriately so people here know how to treat you.

I hope you enjoy your stay here. You'll find lots of help and support, that's for sure.

[Guest raedub]

hi dolly im rae

from your introduction we sound like we're pretty much in the same boat.

i complacently identified as female for a long time too and am only just recently actively investigating my discomfort with my.. female outsides since on the inside i feel like and see myself as a male. oh..and im 25 - to be 26 in July.

the forums are great.. ive found loads of information and experiences to identify with.

make yourself at home and keep in touch!

-rae

[Guest dolly]

thanx a ton for all the supportive coments. and yeah i think i fixed the thingy on my profile to say mtf instead of ftm.

i have a friend who is ftm maybe thats why i accidentally typd it in-dunno.

anyways lol. kicking and screamin into a retirement home, i could actually picture that lol.

and thanx for not making me feel old. i dunno why i feel so old when it comes to my age-i DEFINATELY don't act it. guess im still a girl in a lot of ways-youll see i tend to talk alot too when i get comfy.

and i'm so comfy right now im practically purring

i look foward to chattin it up with all of you.

already posted in a few other topics and have tons of questions to ask like where should i go from here?

i know i should set up a sessn with a local psychologist but is there things i could do before that?

[Guest dolly]

just realised i may need to clarify the still a girl comment-what i meant is even though im a woman i guess im still a girl in some ways. sorry if that got lost in translation.

[Guest]

already posted in a few other topics and have tons of questions to ask like where should i go from here?

i know i should set up a sessn with a local psychologist but is there things i could do before that?

Yes Electrolysis is a good place to start http://www.lauras-playground.com/transgend...logist_list.htm . It's hard to pass with a beard and you'll need to grow it out a little so the hairs can be grabbed. If you need a therapist here's a list of gender therapists http://www.lauras-playground.com/gender_therapists.htm .

Laura

[Guest dolly]

thank you, laura. i'm gnna definately look into the list an give them a call. dunno hw much sessions are gonna cost (i get payed once a month) so ill ave to find out. you're a lifesaver,darling.

[Guest Drew]

hi dolly, welcome to the forums hope to see you around more.

[Guest gwenthlian]

maybe the feeling old thing is just beginning of your life crisis

[Guest Mani]

Welcome!