Another Vlog Attempt...on /my/ Forum?!

[Guest Quinn]

...it's more likely than you think!

Basically, once upon a time I tried to start a vlog. And then I failed epically. Didn't follow through at aaall. I mean, I was in the middle of school, nothing was really happening or relevant.

But now, I'm two weeks shy of going to California, which will be a bit of a kick off...in my life, let alone transitioning. So I've decided to start a vlog and actually (hopefully) maintain it! My first video I just made and put up...it's very lackluster and boring, but I just wanted to get it started.

And at the very least...uhhh...you get to see and hear me? xD My voice sucks, and I look stoned...err. But hey, maybe you all can tell me how I look/sound. Other than stoned. XD

Clicking

will take you to the first vlog...and I imagine in time I'm going to flesh things out a bit more. Try and make it a bit less boring.

But yeah. So here's to hoping I stick to it this time.

[Guest Fredsmydog1]

I don't think you looked stoned haha. And I think you pass well

I hope you keep vlogging and good luck in cali!

Andrew

[Guest hayden_jude]

I enjoyed it! You do sound a bit stoned. But only a bit. You sound more nervous, to me.

Good luck in California! Hopefully I'll make it out there myself some day.

[Guest Donna Jean]

Quinn.....

Here's my feelings on your vlog.....

You look great!

I think that your voice is quite passable....

You DO NOT look stoned...

Acyually, I was quite impressed with the whole thing! Very good...

Oh, and good luck in Calif.

HUGGS!

Donna Jean

[Guest Quinn]

I don't think you looked stoned haha. And I think you pass well

I hope you keep vlogging and good luck in cali!

Andrew

Haha, thanks. I'm definitely going to try and keep up with it. I have a feeling a lot might happen in the next few months.

I enjoyed it! You do sound a bit stoned. But only a bit. You sound more nervous, to me.

Good luck in California! Hopefully I'll make it out there myself some day.

Hah, yeah, okay...maybe nervous is a better word. I get awkward easy I'm afraid...but thanks for watching! And good luck getting yourself out there someday.

Quinn.....

Here's my feelings on your vlog.....

You look great!

I think that your voice is quite passable....

You DO NOT look stoned...

Acyually, I was quite impressed with the whole thing! Very good...

Oh, and good luck in Calif.

HUGGS!

Donna Jean

Thank you very much, miss! :3 I'm glad you liked it, awkward though I can be. I'll get better, I swear! Haha, thanks again for watching.

I think I'll update with a sort of extended intro vlog in a few days if I get the chance.

[Guest My_Genesis]

I think you pass as a teenage boy, which is pretty good considering you haven't started T yet. I will be looking for more of your vlogs.

When I find out when exactly I'll be starting T, I may start a new channel for documenting my transition as well.

I'm interested in seeing how you progress with everything. Good luck!

[Guest aadenr]

Wow you look like that guy who was on the Tyra show lol D:

I subbed to you

[Guest Quinn]

So I updated with the lamest video on Earth, but it's a bit of an extended introduction really. xD I'm a dork, and you can see that plainly in the video, which is here.

Also, my youtube name alone is quinnahj, so. Yeah.

I think you pass as a teenage boy, which is pretty good considering you haven't started T yet. I will be looking for more of your vlogs.

When I find out when exactly I'll be starting T, I may start a new channel for documenting my transition as well.

I'm interested in seeing how you progress with everything. Good luck!

Thank you, that's definitely a compliment, heh. I guess I'm still /technically/ a teenager, too. xD But yeah I pass as a younger guy...but for pre-everything I feel pretty good even just about that. Anyways, thank you for watching!

Wow you look like that guy who was on the Tyra show lol D:

I subbed to you

Thanks for subbing, I'll try and make things not too boring, I swear, haha.

[Guest My_Genesis]

I'm not subbing you only b/c I'm stealth on youtube (at least on my current account. If I get another one solely for transition vlogging, obviously I won't be stealth on that one, lol.) so instead I just bookmarked your first video so I can access your channel & your other videos from there.

[Guest Quinn]

I'm not subbing you only b/c I'm stealth on youtube (at least on my current account. If I get another one solely for transition vlogging, obviously I won't be stealth on that one, lol.) so instead I just bookmarked your first video so I can access your channel & your other videos from there.

That's totally chill, thanks for subbing as best as you can, I guess, haha.

I updated video number three...thinking maybe I'll actually be able to continue this time.

Also, I ran out of room on vlog 3, but I actually had one of my first talks with a family friend about being trans. There was drinking involved, I mean she was pretty much drunk. It was one of those annoying "No you're just CONFUSED" conversations. The way she was talking, it was basically like she was saying that I need to have gotten off on a sexual experience to actually know. And was all, "You know if you get surgery it won't work, right" and I said yeah, I didn't even want bottom surgery. And so then she didn't get what the point was.

What is up with people thinking gender HAS to deal with sex? I don't get it. Do they have no gender identities outside sex? I don't think so. And it amazes me that people who don't know you well feel they have the right to tell you what you're really thinking/feeling. I know I'm not confused, jeez. It's like she was saying "But you don't even get a penis and if sex doesn't matter to you then WHY BOTHER." I had said sex doesn't even really matter to me. "Well then why can't you just be asexual?" Well...it does matter /sometimes/, and besides...sex has nothing. To. DO WITH IT. It doesn't matter if I'm asexual, I still am male.

However, though I was annoyed at the time, I was fine-ish afterwards. I thought you know, it's not her fault she's ignorant about the subject, it's not mine or her fault that it's so taboo and hard to explain anyways, and she is just trying to look out for me. It was out of kindness and concern, not spite or meanness. So...misguided, but still.

Gah. Still frustrating though.

[Guest My_Genesis]

That's totally chill, thanks for subbing as best as you can, I guess, haha.

I updated video number three...thinking maybe I'll actually be able to continue this time.

Also, I ran out of room on vlog 3, but I actually had one of my first talks with a family friend about being trans. There was drinking involved, I mean she was pretty much drunk. It was one of those annoying "No you're just CONFUSED" conversations. The way she was talking, it was basically like she was saying that I need to have gotten off on a sexual experience to actually know. And was all, "You know if you get surgery it won't work, right" and I said yeah, I didn't even want bottom surgery. And so then she didn't get what the point was.

What is up with people thinking gender HAS to deal with sex? I don't get it. Do they have no gender identities outside sex? I don't think so. And it amazes me that people who don't know you well feel they have the right to tell you what you're really thinking/feeling. I know I'm not confused, jeez. It's like she was saying "But you don't even get a penis and if sex doesn't matter to you then WHY BOTHER." I had said sex doesn't even really matter to me. "Well then why can't you just be asexual?" Well...it does matter /sometimes/, and besides...sex has nothing. To. DO WITH IT. It doesn't matter if I'm asexual, I still am male.

However, though I was annoyed at the time, I was fine-ish afterwards. I thought you know, it's not her fault she's ignorant about the subject, it's not mine or her fault that it's so taboo and hard to explain anyways, and she is just trying to look out for me. It was out of kindness and concern, not spite or meanness. So...misguided, but still.

Gah. Still frustrating though.

My parents are a bit like that. They seem to think I'm either confused or hate myself so I want to "become a man" (I'm a man already...) so that I can become a whole new person. They think I have body image issues or something and need to just come to terms with it. My gender therapist tried to help them wrap their heads around it but they still don't totally get it. They keep asking me "what about intimacy?" Which I don't feel like discussing with my parents lol... so I didn't answer them or tell them anything about how it relates to sex. So I guess that just leaves them more confused.

I'm having issues with buffering videos right now b/c I'm uploading stuff but I will watch your new one in a bit.

[Guest Quinn]

Yaaaay, new video.

I sort of forgot my vlog existed when I arrived in CA. This is just a brief summary on how things have been and whatnot. Plus there's really cute kittens in the video, so if that doesn't capture your interest, not sure what will, haha.

[Guest My_Genesis]

Nice eyebrow piercing!

I'm glad you're having a good time out there.

[Guest Cricket]

Coming in a little late to say, I've watched and subbed, and you do pass as a teenage boy! I get awkward easily too. =P I'm glad you're liking California, my hope is to eventually end up there too!

[Guest Quinn]

A little under the two week mark, I have flown in again with another update!

I'm back in MA. :/ It's bittersweet, mostly a bit bitter at this point. It was nice to always have my girlfriend around, to always be Quinn - the boyfriend -, to have someone that I could be close to and sleep next to at night and whatnot.

I am happy to see my parents and animals again, though. Very happy that my cat still loves me - ran right towards me meowing and everything. I have a lot to do between now and July 6th, which is when I return to CA...so I'm excited, but also a bit sad that I'm here in the first place after having worked so hard just to get out there once.

Oh well. I still have awesome hair.

XD

[Guest My_Genesis]

That's so cool that Luna is being so supportive!

I wonder what Tyron Phase 3 will be like...

[Guest Quinn]

Yeah, Luna is possibly the most amazing creature ever. XD She's made it clear many times that, even if we get called out as "ladies" numerous times in a day, she purely and only sees me as a guy. She has occasional questions and all - she's still learning the many intricacies of the FTM bloke xP - but she's always really sweet and polite about everything. I'm so comfortable with her it's ridiculous; she's definitely the main source of support and strength for me.

The tyron phase 3...oh man. I've talked to a few people about what it may be like. I mean honestly...the phase 2 already sounds so great. Does this one do magic tricks or something? xD Fireworks? Haha, all I know is I'm pretty excited to see.

[Flint]

Yeah, Luna is possibly the most amazing creature ever. XD She's made it clear many times that, even if we get called out as "ladies" numerous times in a day, she purely and only sees me as a guy. She has occasional questions and all - she's still learning the many intricacies of the FTM bloke xP - but she's always really sweet and polite about everything. I'm so comfortable with her it's ridiculous; she's definitely the main source of support and strength for me.

The tyron phase 3...oh man. I've talked to a few people about what it may be like. I mean honestly...the phase 2 already sounds so great. Does this one do magic tricks or something? xD Fireworks? Haha, all I know is I'm pretty excited to see.

Hmm fireworks could get dangerous....

[Guest My_Genesis]

Yeah, Luna is possibly the most amazing creature ever. XD She's made it clear many times that, even if we get called out as "ladies" numerous times in a day, she purely and only sees me as a guy. She has occasional questions and all - she's still learning the many intricacies of the FTM bloke xP - but she's always really sweet and polite about everything. I'm so comfortable with her it's ridiculous; she's definitely the main source of support and strength for me.

The tyron phase 3...oh man. I've talked to a few people about what it may be like. I mean honestly...the phase 2 already sounds so great. Does this one do magic tricks or something? xD Fireworks? Haha, all I know is I'm pretty excited to see.

Maybe it's an STP!! (I wish)

[Flint]

Maybe it's an STP!! (I wish)

An STP where your urine comes out like fireworks.

[Guest My_Genesis]

An STP where your urine comes out like fireworks.

maybe the other things it does produce fireworks lol

[Guest Quinn]

Just under a week, here's

Basically, just got to talk to my sister Leila a bit more. She isn't fully awesome with me being trans, but she at least recognizes that it is /happening/. Plus I love how she was actually a bit peed about the top surgery nonsense and whatnot. xD She's hilarious and brash and awesome.

[Guest Quinn]

Another update

There's a few exciting updates in the video if you care to watch. And I just wanna give a huge thanks to Andrew (franksmydog1) for all the help he's given me the past few days. He's potentially helped me save hundreds of dollars and changed a good few years of my life XD

[Guest Quinn]

Alrighty. Another reasonably punctual update.

I'm just going to say that it's on my youtube account - quinnahj - because I won't link to the video...I got a bit annoyed and flipped off the camera, so I didn't think I should link directly. XD

Anyways. It's two rants and a positive. Positive is that my first T injection will be in just a little over a week. Two rants are...still haven't gotten my package from likereal and their customer service is bizarre and strange, and my girlfriend is getting some crap for dating me. She's the absolute sweetest person in the world, but apparently old friends/acquaintances from a church she used to go to are basically shunning her...because of me. They've only met me once, barely, at a going away party for someone she knew. I was introduced as her boyfriend, but I'm assuming someone (IE one of her "friends", who has known and been seemingly accepting of me for over a year) went around and pointed stuff out to make all the church people uncomfortable. So much for Jesus saying love thy neighbor, eh? Her mom and whatnot are still convinced Luna's just gay and in the closet about it, because "if she liked guys she'd be dating a guy". It's such stupid crap, and I feel so bad that someone so genuinely sweet and nice like Luna has to deal with all of this. She's really disappointed by a lot of people around her. It just sucks that even though I'm a genuine, nice, good person...that all doesn't matter, because everyone is too busy being obsessed with my genitals.

:/

[Guest My_Genesis]

Alrighty. Another reasonably punctual update.

I'm just going to say that it's on my youtube account - quinnahj - because I won't link to the video...I got a bit annoyed and flipped off the camera, so I didn't think I should link directly. XD

Anyways. It's two rants and a positive. Positive is that my first T injection will be in just a little over a week. Two rants are...still haven't gotten my package from likereal and their customer service is bizarre and strange, and my girlfriend is getting some crap for dating me. She's the absolute sweetest person in the world, but apparently old friends/acquaintances from a church she used to go to are basically shunning her...because of me. They've only met me once, barely, at a going away party for someone she knew. I was introduced as her boyfriend, but I'm assuming someone (IE one of her "friends", who has known and been seemingly accepting of me for over a year) went around and pointed stuff out to make all the church people uncomfortable. So much for Jesus saying love thy neighbor, eh? Her mom and whatnot are still convinced Luna's just gay and in the closet about it, because "if she liked guys she'd be dating a guy". It's such stupid crap, and I feel so bad that someone so genuinely sweet and nice like Luna has to deal with all of this. She's really disappointed by a lot of people around her. It just sucks that even though I'm a genuine, nice, good person...that all doesn't matter, because everyone is too busy being obsessed with my genitals.

:/

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Oh and congrats again!