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How To Resist The Urge To Castrate Myself


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Guest AndreaSC

Life has been pretty crappy for me, which, to make a long story short, has renewed/enhanced my desire to castrate myself. I know that doing so is totally wrong, yet there's a part of me that wants to grab a hammer and screwdriver and go "thwack!" "thwack!" on my scrotum and thus sever whatever connections there are between my testicles and my brain.

Yeah, I know that I shouldn't, but there's a part of me that still wants to.

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Guest Jeanie

Wouldn't that like kill so much? I can't help sorry as Im happy with myself even with my testicles.

Hammer and nail and go thwack? Can you explain how that would work to be honest? If you get a nail stabbed in your testicles, well, it would not do much. As I know you can get temporary testicle piercings.

I don't know much about how castration works, I just thought they chopped the testicles off...and sewn the scrotum back up.

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Guest Leah1026

How do you resist? Easy.

#1 You do it and you could bleed to death.

#2 You do it and you could be committed to a mental hospital.

#3 You need that donor material intact for SRS.

Nuff said.

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Guest matryoshka doll
Life has been pretty crappy for me, which, to make a long story short, has renewed/enhanced my desire to castrate myself. I know that doing so is totally wrong, yet there's a part of me that wants to grab a hammer and screwdriver and go "thwack!" "thwack!" on my scrotum and thus sever whatever connections there are between my testicles and my brain.

Yeah, I know that I shouldn't, but there's a part of me that still wants to.

I heard a radio interview with a woman who castrated herself by putting a tight rubber band around her scrotum and leaving it there. But she ended up needing medical attention at some point anyway.

((you)) do you have medical options?

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Guest shimmeringkristal

I can not tell you that I have the same ammount of problems that you have had but I can tell you that I know what you are going through is painfull. I have attempted suicide 11 times in the last 5 years or so. One thing that I would like to say is to please be carefull as the doctor may need some of the things down there for SRS if that is your choice. Second is that I know fom personal experience that having something like what you described happen is one of the most painfull experiences as I had to have one testicle removed when I got into a bycicle accident and it was crushed. It is a worse pain than having three broken ribs at the same time. You have so many friends here that you may not know about. If you would like to chat or if you just feel like ranting please feel free to email me at [email protected]. if you would like to chat on the phone then just email me and I will send you my phone number so that you will be able to rant my ear off. I would like to hear from ya. One of my favorite things to do is to just listen to my friends and help them if they would like me to. Just know that you are loved for who you are.

Huggs,

Kristal

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Guest Michelle M

Just think of the pain involved. That was enough to stop me. Also, think of the money. Is risking your life bleeding to death really worth $1000? I'm pretty sure that's the cost of an Orchiectomy. Also, a safe alternative is chemical castration. Try getting a therapist to write you a note for an anti androgen.

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Guest Rika-chama

Fighting the urge can be tough but remember that there is a huge vein going through the phallus and doing that will probably kill you. I know how you feel though. Sometimes I just want to rip my breasts right off but I know that would be stupid and very painful. I know I can wait until transition and you're strong enough to not do something this stupid :)

Ni-paa~

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How do you resist? Easy.

#1 You do it and you could bleed to death.

#2 You do it and you could be committed to a mental hospital.

#3 You need that donor material intact for SRS.

Nuff said.

You are absolutely correct Leah. People who think about doing this are legions of our users. All have gotton thru this just fine without trying for a temporary fix. That is the key. Wait for the ultimate result of SRS. If you really can't wait any uroligist will do a castration with a letter from a therapist. However if they do it wrong there will be no tissue for SRS. If you don't have a therapist why not? You need that more than a castration right now. It is money well spent Andrea. Then you can get on hormone blockers and estogen which may help.

Laura

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Guest Jason

I too get very strong urges to give myself home-surgery (particularly when it is that dreaded time of the month). It is hard to fight that urge, but what has helped me get through it so far is living day by day, realizing that the unwanted bits supply the donor tissue (as was mentioned), and just generally having faith that the future will be better and ONE DAY, you will be able to get SRS (if you so desire) and will finally be comfortable, whereas if you bleed to death you might not get that same satisfaction.

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Guest matryoshka doll
I too get very strong urges to give myself home-surgery (particularly when it is that dreaded time of the month). It is hard to fight that urge, but what has helped me get through it so far is living day by day, realizing that the unwanted bits supply the donor tissue (as was mentioned), and just generally having faith that the future will be better and ONE DAY, you will be able to get SRS (if you so desire) and will finally be comfortable, whereas if you bleed to death you might not get that same satisfaction.

Just this week, my sweetheart was "joking" about how maybe if he stabbed himself in the abdomen his doctor might take him seriously and give him the hysterectomy he wants.

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Guest Just_Call_Me_Nick

Never a good idea...no matter how much you hate it...we all can understand the urges to do something like this...but again as everyone here has said...never a good idea....

Nick~

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