Completely Unsure...

[Guest Revi]

*sighs* Well, I'm back in Hoquiam, Washington.

During the ordeal in Norway, my girlfriend broke up with me shortly after I told her about my thoughts... Says that long distance is hard and all.... I'm more hurt than I thought, but less hurt than some other instances... But oddly, I'm just overwhelmingly drained and pretty apathetic.

On another note, my G-ma and I were talking the other day and she was making comments suggesting I prefered to be a boy. I asked her what made her think that and she actually remembered the days I freaked out about being called "girl", "woman", "lady", "miss", and even "female" was never appealing.

I wonder if it was predestined or something.....

[Flint]

*sighs* Well, I'm back in Hoquiam, Washington.

During the ordeal in Norway, my girlfriend broke up with me shortly after I told her about my thoughts... Says that long distance is hard and all.... I'm more hurt than I thought, but less hurt than some other instances... But oddly, I'm just overwhelmingly drained and pretty apathetic.

On another note, my G-ma and I were talking the other day and she was making comments suggesting I prefered to be a boy. I asked her what made her think that and she actually remembered the days I freaked out about being called "girl", "woman", "lady", "miss", and even "female" was never appealing.

I wonder if it was predestined or something.....

I think being trans is 'predestined' really as we don't turn this way as such, although it can seem a sudden change. But actually we're born very much this way. Hence why so many of us were exactly like we were throughout childhood, many of us before we were even aware of differences with gender.

My grandma has said similar things to me in the past. "You should have been born a boy if you think that!" "You always act like a boy" "You really should have just been a boy!"

[Guest Revi]

So I'm back in Hoquiam, WA. Home sweet home. Sick with bronchitis. But the college had an "Alternative Prom" set up by the GHC GSA, (The club I had re-founded is going strong, I'm really proud of them.) It had an awesome turn-out and my date for Prom was hot.

Everyone's been calling me Alex and referring to me with male pronouns. I'm actually finding I quite like it. I'll wait to see how things go. After talking in this place and returning home to Washington and hanging with my friends, my persistent thoughts have lessened a great deal and I'm gaining a new sense of comfortability. So I'll just kinda sit back and see what happens with things and such...

[Guest Revi]

Is there like something in between transsexual, transgendered, and normal? Like I sorta like my body, want to shrink my chest, maybe get a penis, and use the male pronounce, but I have a lot of feminine tendencies, but then a ton of male tendencies....