Rapid Changes Without Hrt...

[Guest Princess Elle]

Hi everybody!

I'm just curious about the rapid changes before going on HRT because I just realized today how fast I went doing everything before HRT in under six months via trying to pretend to be a male since my cousin from another state was coming over for a night x_X It was almost impossible to hide my secret since family that lives far away does not know yet and might never will....

In summary, when I hid all my girl things in the bedroom wardrobe, bathroom cabinet, study room wardrobe.. my room went from lively to dead plus when I got out my old male clothes, it smelled so old like it came from a second hand store (ew but awesome!). My male self is pretty much dead even though I go to school as male but I don't bother pretending anymore. I just lie.

It's only been under six months yet I already forgotten how to be male, my body now seem too unnatural for a 17 years old male body (I do take care of it... I don't know how this happened.....), I cannot even see the male in the mirror anymore, my mind is completely strongly female. (Yay! ) The weirdest thing is that I had plans set for two years before starting my life as a female completely but I'm pretty much 100% ready to go for it now.... there is about 80% chance I will start HRT next year and 100% chance that I'll change my name straight after school at the end of year, next year... Ops

I am really excited about this but I am doing my best to think logically... because I know this will backfire once my body get rid of all boy tracts (the tracts that make me very passable as female) in less than a year (luckily slowly.. I think).

I have the urge to just go with the flow because I'm really happy about the process but I do not want to end up depressed if this backfire. I really like being happy being myself.

Have this happened to anybody? I would like to know if I should go with the flow hoping it will all work out or somehow pause this in this stage for two years...

[Guest Donna Jean]

Elle....

I like the fact that you have such a wonderful plan.....

And I hope that everything falls into place for you, just the way that you have it planned!

Good on you, Hon!

HUGGS!

Donna Jean

[Guest ricka]

Sweetie----I think it's wonderful that you recognize yourself becoming a young woman, even pre-hrt! For some of us what you are going through is as natural as going through puberty. Our time tables are all different and we need to go with what feels is best for us. And just like puberty some of us go through it later than others. And Hon, if you walked into my house I think you'd know a woman lives here. I love interior decorating and I'd have to put pretty much the whole place in storage to hide the fact that this is a woman's home, LOL.

Hugs, Ricka

[Carolyn Marie]

Hi everybody!

I really like being happy being myself.

Elle, I think that part of your post is the answer to your question. As long as you are happy, then keep doing what you're doing. Don't pause, don't

slow down, just keep on trucking.

I love your enthusiasm and your positive energy. You've got it, girl! Now, give some to me, will ya?

Carolyn Marie

[Guest AshleyRF]

It's simply a mental thing. You accept yourself for who you are now, so you see yourself the same way.

[Guest Princess Elle]

Elle....

I like the fact that you have such a wonderful plan.....

And I hope that everything falls into place for you, just the way that you have it planned!

Good on you, Hon!

HUGGS!

Donna Jean

Hi Donna Jean! Thanks, I really do hope everything just falls into place

Sweetie----I think it's wonderful that you recognize yourself becoming a young woman, even pre-hrt! For some of us what you are going through is as natural as going through puberty. Our time tables are all different and we need to go with what feels is best for us. And just like puberty some of us go through it later than others. And Hon, if you walked into my house I think you'd know a woman lives here. I love interior decorating and I'd have to put pretty much the whole place in storage to hide the fact that this is a woman's home, LOL.

Hugs, Ricka

Hi Ricka! Oh my, the whole house? Wow, that is a lot of hiding places! I'm guessing your house is perfect for the game "hide and seek"?

Elle, I think that part of your post is the answer to your question. As long as you are happy, then keep doing what you're doing. Don't pause, don't

slow down, just keep on trucking.

I love your enthusiasm and your positive energy. You've got it, girl! Now, give some to me, will ya?

Carolyn Marie

Hi Carolyn Marie! I agree, I guess I'll keep going at what I'm doing and just not worry about it until if it ever backfire or whatever.

It's simply a mental thing. You accept yourself for who you are now, so you see yourself the same way.

Hi AshleyRF! That is very true, I strongly see myself as who I am so I'm guessing that after that, I changed a lot.

Ooooh and and and!!! I just broke my male mode hours record! (Yes, I have records of myself ) The last record for 2010 being in male mode in hours until I went back to female mode was 25 hours, Now it's 27 hours. However, that won't beat my record of 336 hours of being in female mode until I went back to male mode (that record was made on holidays) Yay me!