2nd Post And Settling In :)

[Guest meagan]

Well, made my first post last night, and got a lot of warm welcomes. As for many, I am slowly heading down a long road to being who I am. At 37 now and finally have a need to just release and be me. When i was younger it was great having a good group of friends and a girlfriend who let me wear her clothes. Most of the friends i had back then seemed to care little if i chose to wear a skirt of dress while out and it felt great. But, i was on a dark path and fell into drugs and eventually homelessness and so too my friends slowly drifted on. I don't blame them, i have to help myself before they could have had a chance to help me.

I just spent the last 10 years of life in a great new place, was accepted into a fine dinning establishment and began training to work as a baker/pastry chef. In that time i met many people who helped to change me and i am glad to have moved far from hiding behind a mask of drugs. The down side, i now have many friends who have no idea i love my fem clothes and i know they will have a very hard time finding understanding. I do have hope and i know that many of my new friends are willing to accept and learn new things as it is very normal to have to adapt to new people here where i live. World famous resort town and home to the winter olympics that just past.

If there is one thing i just can not do without, it is my shoe collection and once i get my new computer, i would love to do a Shoe(show) and tell and maybe see what gems everyone else has and be inspired and have to shop.

Starting in the CD forums as i do not deny i love my dresses, skirts and the ever so soft and comfy Lululemon tights. But, i always feel there is more to me than just my clothes. But soon enough i will have money and time to talk to a therapist and further explore the who I ams and see where or what life has in store for my future. Regardless, i am glad that many have welcomed me to the community and i think i am here to stay.

Later everyone

[Guest ChloëC]

Hi meagan,

Welcome to the Laura's and the cross-dressing forum, which is where I tend to hang out more than other places as even though it says transgender on my tag, I feel closer to cd than other places on the spectrum.

I know what you mean about your clothes. I have favorites, too. And there is just something about slipping into the various outfits. Once I thought there was some kind of underlying sexuality in it, but now I realize that when I'm dressed, I'm just more comfortable, less tense, more at ease with myself and my surroundings. I've never been dressed for more than about 2 days at a time, but sometime I'd like to go for several days, and just live normally, waking, sleeping, doing chores, changing clothes when appropriate. That would be my next step.

Oh, well, it will come eventually, I hope. Anyway, I'm glad you've found us.

Hugs

Chloë

[Guest meagan]

Well, one thing for sure, my clothes are not a trigger for any arousal. Not in a sense of sexual desire for pleasure anyway. Perhaps to use arousal in the idea of the senses. Like when a silky fabric slides smooth over my arm and has a soft cooling sensation. Strengthening my femininity and helping melt away any masculinity.

Since living where i am now, i am too fearful of being out in public dressed, just way to many transient people and tourists to really have a feel for who is around me. Many dangers lurk in the strange and unfamiliar people who pass by town daily. Such is the way of a resort town. After work tho, and at home and fresh from the shower. I always slip into something more me Right now as i type, my fav bra, black and lace floral. Casual tank and my fav pants i think are closest to being a sailor front pattern. OH! and cannot forget my new pair of slingbacks.

Afterwork is comparable to having a breath mint, cool and oh so refreshing hehe...