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Guest Lee-Asher Geo-James

Sitting in the dark

Alone in the park

Shadows all around

He ponders if he's going to the pound

He looks down

He makes a huge frown

The frown slowly turns into a line a crossed his lips

He put his hands on his hips

Death lingers on his brain

He can't help but feel insane

He just wants to use the knife

Even though it would hurt his wife

He knows he's only staying alive

So that no one takes a dive

Down into the pound

While he's being put six feet in the ground

By Lee-Asher Geo-James

May 21, 2010

11:52PM

Just how I feel lately not much to it really. Just have a lot on my mind and feel like there is no one for me to turn to even though there is this here Forum and the Chat and other people in my life. Eh, it's not a big deal I would say. :)

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Made a spelling mistake, and I don't know how to edit the posts, so... It's supposed to be "...turns into a line..." NOT "...turns into a ling..."

Sorry for the spelling mistake. :(

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Lee Asher, I'm really sorry you are feeling this way.

I know we here in the ether are not a very satisfactory substitute for flesh and blood friends, but please reach out to us anyway

when you're feeling like this. No one should have to bear pain alone.

I hope that writing the poem helped bind some wounds.

Carolyn Marie

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Guest Lee-Asher Geo-James

I thought this poem had died :lol: No one had posted... I forgot all about it...

Hi Geo,

<<hugs>>

I edited it for you :)

Nice poem

:wub: vanna

Thank you vanna I really appreciate that.

Lee Asher, I'm really sorry you are feeling this way.

I know we here in the ether are not a very satisfactory substitute for flesh and blood friends, but please reach out to us anyway

when you're feeling like this. No one should have to bear pain alone.

I hope that writing the poem helped bind some wounds.

Carolyn Marie

Eh, I feel worse then when I wrote this poem...

Trying to get into therapy though...

Life isn't so great :lol:

It's not that you all aren't a satisfactory substitute it's just hard for me to open up lately. I just find that when I do, I scare people off. :(

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It's not that you all aren't a satisfactory substitute it's just hard for me to open up lately. I just find that when I do, I scare people off. :(

You'll find that I don't scare too easily. Any time you like, send me a PM and we can 'talk." I won't mind at all.

Carolyn Marie

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You'll find that I don't scare too easily. Any time you like, send me a PM and we can 'talk." I won't mind at all.

Carolyn Marie

Thank you. I'll keep that in mind. *Worried look*

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