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My name is Dennis. My girl name is Sam. my friend from face book told me to come here. I am currently male. I have this female voice in my head that tells me I should be female. It gets jealous of other girls and it likes some guys. I try to hold on to this male side, but the female side seems to be taking over some days. There are days I feel gender neutral. And others I feel female.

Now my past. Around 10 years old I remember going to bed at night and pray to God to change me into a girl. Then around 8th grade I secretly cross dressed. Nothing too extreme. Then it just ends up growing and then Sam came. I try blocking her and it worked for a few months. Then came back really strong over last summer. When i self published my book, it went away for 4 months. Then slowly it came back.

I am 17 years old and a senior in high school. My mom found out about my thoughts and we went to see 2 therapist. 1 went to sleep during my session and the other was awkward. My dad is against GLBT. So he won't accept me. I love my dad so much and i don't want to hurt him. I am his son that he really got along with and spent alto of time with. He has another son and daughter, but he rarely got spend time with them.

I just am at a lost what to do.

This girl side says to me that I need to be a girl, this body isn't mine, and my privates are disgusting. I don’t want to have sex with a girl as a man. I want a man to have sex with me as a girl.

The list goes on and on. If you want to know more about my life read my blog. http://theinvisible.blog.com

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Guest Donna Jean

Hello, Sam....

Welcome to the playground!

I'm Donna Jean!

It's hard being Trans...no doubt about that...

And we hate hurting those that we love...but, to be ourselves...sometimes it can't be helped...

Please stick with us here and you'll learn a lot about what goes on ah get some much needed support.....OK?

It's nice to have you!

HUGGS!

Donna Jean

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Guest Lee-Asher Geo-James

Welcome to the family!! *hug*

Sounds like you are having a rough time. :(

I hope that you can get this all squared away and whether or not to come out to your dad.

Best of wishes!!

If you ever need to talk, feel free to PM me. *hug*

*hugs*

LeeAsher

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Guest Erin Girl to Be

Hi....

I'm Erin

I'm new here too....

i m 17

a junior...

lets chat sometime!!!!

My name is Dennis. My girl name is Sam. my friend from face book told me to come here. I am currently male. I have this female voice in my head that tells me I should be female. It gets jealous of other girls and it likes some guys. I try to hold on to this male side, but the female side seems to be taking over some days. There are days I feel gender neutral. And others I feel female.

Now my past. Around 10 years old I remember going to bed at night and pray to God to change me into a girl. Then around 8th grade I secretly cross dressed. Nothing too extreme. Then it just ends up growing and then Sam came. I try blocking her and it worked for a few months. Then came back really strong over last summer. When i self published my book, it went away for 4 months. Then slowly it came back.

I am 17 years old and a senior in high school. My mom found out about my thoughts and we went to see 2 therapist. 1 went to sleep during my session and the other was awkward. My dad is against GLBT. So he won't accept me. I love my dad so much and i don't want to hurt him. I am his son that he really got along with and spent alto of time with. He has another son and daughter, but he rarely got spend time with them.

I just am at a lost what to do.

This girl side says to me that I need to be a girl, this body isn't mine, and my privates are disgusting. I don’t want to have sex with a girl as a man. I want a man to have sex with me as a girl.

The list goes on and on. If you want to know more about my life read my blog. http://theinvisible.blog.com

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Guest Patsy

Hi Sam, & welcome! :)

Laura's is a wonderful resource, & I'm sure you'll find answers to many of your questions here,

as well as a great deal of love and support.

Hugs,

Patsy

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Guest miss kindheart

Hi Dennnis,

<<hug>>

Welcome to Laura's Playground.

Please feel free to come over and chat sometime.

The Chat room does require another registration that is separate from from your forums one.

Please read the chat room rules before coming in, and expect a short interview with one of the chat room moderators.

One of the things that they will ask you is if you read the rules. :)

We all look forward to seeing you.

:wub: vanna

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Guest NatashaJade

Hi Sam!

Welcome to Laura's! I know what you mean about going to bed at night and wishing and praying to be a girl when you woke up. That was me for over 25 years! I hope you can find some answers here. We'll try to help.

luv

Gin

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Guest Micha

Hello Sam (or would you prefer Dennis?) and welcome! ^^ I hope you feel as much relief and empowerment here as I am feeling.

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Guest Jean Davis

Ohh my so sorry for being late. ;)

I'm happy to see you wrote a introduction post for us, all the members here are so friendly and just love to help any way that they can. But you have to post and get to know them, with that said I'm lookin' forward to reading all of your questions and concerns.

So then Welcome to the Family, nice to meet you. :D

LUV

Jean

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