Mr. Lonely

[Guest Dman1]

Hey everyone,

Often I find myself extremely lonely. One year ago I lost my two best friends over a misunderstanding and three months ago my best friend who was a FTM committed suicide. Often I am alone in my apartment, feeling extremely lonely or I'll be with my girlfriend. Due to the loneliness I am starting to get extremely depressed. Earlier today a close friend of mine who I considered my little sister told me she did not want anything to do with me and she did not have a reason. I am on the verge of a breakdown. My grades are not as well as I would hope, I cry ALL the time, I feel like I am gaining weight, I work a crappy job and did not get the internship I'd hope this summer. Lately my girlfriend and I have been fighting. I feel like crap most of the time and I hate my body I want to be the man I know I am. I don't know what to do. I wish I had a shoulder to cry on other than my girlfriend. Anyone who reads this I appreciate it, I just needed to vent. Thank you all,

Dman

[Guest ~Brenda~]

Hey Dman,

Feeling isolated is a very common feeling amongst us. Being transgendered can be confusing and scary. We tend to isolate ourselves because we feel safer when we do, but we also then feel lonely.

You are not alone here

I understand.....

HUGS

Brenda

[Guest Evan_J]

This is horrible. I feel so much sympathy toward you. Any shot at meeting new people? You can't replace people no. However I kinda like the quote "not to take their place, just to fill the space". Which means the uniqueness of the original person can't be replaced but it doesn't mean you should let life stay empty.

This I'm sure will be hard to do at the point you're at , but maybe sometime.......Think of those two people who left your life. Do you think they are sitting alone with no new friend to fill the space? No. They likely are satisfied with whoever is there. Why should they have a friend and you be alone? What makes them -two people who left someone who loved them- more deserving? Your friend, the one who committed suicide? Might have done it at least in part because of the kinds of feelings you are having at this minute. HOWEVER think of the friendship you had. Would they want YOU to do it? What would they want for you? Usually , people who love us want us to be happy. And if theres a situation that was "sorrowful" for them they want it to be "different " for us. They would want you to pull out of this even more so because they couldn't.

Think of that. And stay

[Guest Alan]

Sounds like life is being a difficult thing at the moment. It is awful when that happens. I can completely sympathize with you.

I hope the venting helped a little bit, and that a little bit of onus has fallen off your shoulders.

Or, at least, it's not so much of a burden since you have all of us to share it with.

Love,

Alan

[Carolyn Marie]

I'm really sorry you're feeling this way, Dman. Isolation would make anyone depressed and lonely.

Please try and think of things that can get you out of your room. Hobbies, sports, any kind of outside interests where

you can go and socialize and meet new people. Any of that would help.

Do you have a therapist or counselor you can talk to? If not, is there any way you can find one? I really think that would

help, to have someone to talk to about your feelings, and to help you develop solutions.

Worst case, we are here to help you, too. You are welcome to PM me or any other Mod that you feel comfortable with, or

other friends here on LP. We care about you.

Carolyn Marie