I Finally Figured Out My Melancholy Mood

[Sally]

It hit me today - I finally got the answer that I have been trying to find ever since I decided to leave and move to New Orleans.

Looking back, I could find nothing to make me want to linger here - no great accomplishments - no long term close relationships, not even family.

So why was I so blue?

The answer came to me as I was typing a response to another post here.

Tomorrow afternoon I have my last ever session with my therapist - she is the reason that I have been so sad - I will miss her - the first person to ever meet Sally and the only one outside of the playground to accept her and embrace her as a friend not just a client.

We will stay in touch through Facebook, we are friends and neighbors in a couple of the games.

We have never ended a session without a big hug.

I know that this one will end with a very tearful hug - she is the loving sister that I thought I had but never really did.

I will miss her not as a therapist but as a friend - which she truly is - a very dear friend who I will miss very much but never forget.

Now that I have figured things out it is making it easier to work toward a new life knowing that she wants me to make this move - I am a lot happier all of a sudden.

Isn't it odd that just knowing can make you feel better, nothing else has changed and I will still miss her but I am not so sad because I now know why I was feeling so melancholy.

Love ya,

Sally

[Guest Melanie Dawn]

It hit me today - I finally got the answer that I have been trying to find ever since I decided to leave and move to New Orleans.

Looking back, I could find nothing to make me want to linger here - no great accomplishments - no long term close relationships, not even family.

So why was I so blue?

The answer came to me as I was typing a response to another post here.

Tomorrow afternoon I have my last ever session with my therapist - she is the reason tghat I have been so sad - I will miss her - the first person to ever meet Sally and the only one outside of the playground to accept her and embrace her as a friend not just a client.

We will stay in touch through Facebook, we are friends and neighbors in a couple of the games.

We have never ended a session without a big hug.

I know that this one will end with a very tearful hug - she is the loving sister that I thought I had but never really did.

I will miss her not as a therapist but as a friend - which she truly is - a very dear friend who I will miss very much but never forget.

Now that I have figured things out it is making it easier to work toward a new life knowing that she wants me to make this move - I am a lot happier all of a sudden.

Isn't it odd that just knowing can make you feel better, nothing else has changed and I will still miss her but I am not so sad because I now know why I was feeling so melancholy.

Love ya,

Sally

HUGSSSSSSSSSSSS

Love you Sally you are such an inspiration, glad you figured that out

Melanie Dawn

[Guest Elizabeth K]

Cool!

I wondered about your relationships left behind - a therapist is certainly that. I left the little town I was in - only my electrotech and my hairdresser there (my therapist and prescribing doctor are in New Orleans). I am considering staying with Karen, my hair dresser, as she got me through a year and a half of growing my hair out - she is so proud of what we did! Plus - she is very understanding and supportive of me. Sally- you once said this - why are the people we pay so good to us and the people we SHOULD be getting support from are not? It's more than being a customer somehow. I think they feel detached enough to really enjoy seeing us transition - of maybe they just like us because we respect what they do for a living?

Lizzy

[Sally]

It is true that so many of the people that accept us are on our payrolls but when you think about it - they are only on our payrolls because THEY chose to work for us - they understand and have a special sense of what we are going through.

They are working for us because they know that we need them - we could go somewhere else and they could probably have even more business without us wondering in and out at various stages of transitioning.

So remember to let them know that you appreciate them, not just with tips or prompt payments but add in sincere thanks, they deserve it.

Love ya,

Sally

[Carolyn Marie]

Sally, I'm so glad that you figured out the root cause of your unease, and even though it doesn't change the situation,

the realization has helped break you out of your down mood. That is something I've worried about, and am now

relieved about.

I think a lot of us have a close relationship with our therapists. Its natural, given how much we confide to them, and how much

we rely on them to get us through our crises. Mine is careful to keep that professional "distance," and yet I know she likes

me as a person and is happy when I make progress.

I think now you are really ready for that move, my dear Sister!

Carolyn Marie

[JJ]

Sally,

It really is amazing what realization can do. It gives you the power to move on and to adjust .

I'm so glad you found the source of your unhappiness and can now look forward to your move with more joy.

As for becoming close to the people who work for us. I think their views are more valid in many ways than the people that are closer to us. Because they aren't looking through the filter of expectations and past emotions. So they have a cleaner, clearer view.

Hope the packing is going smoothly and there have been no more ceiling fan encounters!

Hugs

JJ

[Guest Evan_J]

Aw, thats good (that you know now I mean. )

And its excellent your relationship will evolve outside of just therapy/client

[Guest ~Brenda~]

Sally,

I am glad to hear that you are feeling better

Indeed.. knowing makes all the difference.

This applies to everything.

Love you

Brenda

Oh, and thanks for your post last night

[Guest Elizabeth K]

GRIN

Don't forget the can opener! Its hard chewing those cans open with my teeth!

Seriously - your therapist and you will probably always be in touch through the years.

lizzy