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Guest Lee-Asher Geo-James

Don't promise me anything

Because I will not believe you

I was promised forever

That promise was broken

Don't ever promise me anything

I will never believe you

Don't tell me to talk to you

Before I cut

If all you are going to do is leave me hanging

If you want me to go to you

Make sure you can actually be there for me

Don't tell me to talk to you

Before I cut

When I say I don't want to talk

Because I scare people off

Don't tell me "you won't scare me off"

If you can't back that up

Because you will walk away from me

They always do

Don't tell me I can tell you my problems

That you are able to listen

And give advice

If you can't handle them

If you are just going to walk away

If you are just going to stop talking to me as I'm spilling my guts

Don't tell me I can tell you

Don't think I'll open up

It's so hard to open up

So why do I bother

When knowing you'll run away

Because they always do

Or they get bored with me

Even if I'm not talking about all my crap

My cutting, my fighting, my life

Don't promise me anything

Don't tell me to talk to you before I cut

Don't tell me "you won't scare me off"

Don't tell me you'll listen

Lee-Asher Geo-James

6/25/2010

10:50PM

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Guest ~Brenda~

Lee hon,

I can't promise you that I can change your life, but I can promise you that you can PM me and I will be there for you.

I will never walk away. What I have been through in my life... I am prepared for anything.

All my Love

Brenda

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Guest Lee-Asher Geo-James

Lee hon,

I can't promise you that I can change your life, but I can promise you that you can PM me and I will be there for you.

I will never walk away. What I have been through in my life... I am prepared for anything.

All my Love

Brenda

:( Last time I heard that they weren't able to deal with it and didn't reply to me after I opened up more... :(

Sad :(

Why is it sad? :(

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Guest JohnV

The words you have shared with us tonight

Seem to be painful and full of spite

But haven't fear,

There are those here

Willing to help and be a guiding light

In every line I feel the sorrow

The agony, dreading tomorrow

I know what that's like, I've been there before

The knife to my wrist when someone knocked on the door

I am here to say

Sometimes we cannot avoid the fray

Which is life, but there will be a day

When all is clear and you will see

Every happiness life is meant to be

Until then haven't fear

There are those here

Willing to help...and be a guiding light.

I hope your mind is at ease tonight.

^^ I hope you don't mind but I took the time to write this for you.

Please don't lose hope or courage, because I do it all the time.

It's no fun, and I hope the days of your future are happy,

or at least if they are not happy, you will get something out of them

That in turn will make you stronger.

You have my best wishes

-John

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Guest ~Brenda~

:( Last time I heard that they weren't able to deal with it and didn't reply to me after I opened up more... :(

You were obviously not talking to me.

I am almost 50 years old. Do you have any idea what 50 years of life brings?....

Wisdom

Love

Brenda

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Guest Lee-Asher Geo-James

The words you have shared with us tonight

Seem to be painful and full of spite

But haven't fear,

There are those here

Willing to help and be a guiding light

In every line I feel the sorrow

The agony, dreading tomorrow

I know what that's like, I've been there before

The knife to my wrist when someone knocked on the door

I am here to say

Sometimes we cannot avoid the fray

Which is life, but there will be a day

When all is clear and you will see

Every happiness life is meant to be

Until then haven't fear

There are those here

Willing to help...and be a guiding light.

I hope your mind is at ease tonight.

^^ I hope you don't mind but I took the time to write this for you.

Please don't lose hope or courage, because I do it all the time.

It's no fun, and I hope the days of your future are happy,

or at least if they are not happy, you will get something out of them

That in turn will make you stronger.

You have my best wishes

-John

Since it's your poem, but you say you wrote this for me, I was wondering if it would be okay if I saved it? I would put JohnV on it so that I don't get credit for it. It's up to you :) Since it's your work. :)

Thank you so much. :)

You were obviously not talking to me.

I am almost 50 years old. Do you have any idea what 50 years of life brings?....

Wisdom

Love

Brenda

:lol: Nope wasn't you.

I can give it a go and try again. But be warned I won't open up fully right away. :mellow: I don't handle rejection well, in any kind of way, no matter how small... Working on that though :)

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Lee, when I had to go last night. I HAD to go. Nothing to do with anything you had said or hadn't said. You hadn't scared me away.

I just hope you know that those times when I've had to randomly go offline or whatever there IS a reason and it's nothing to do with you or being scared or anything like that.

Sorry you're feeling so bad right now

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Guest Lee-Asher Geo-James

Lee, when I had to go last night. I HAD to go. Nothing to do with anything you had said or hadn't said. You hadn't scared me away.

I just hope you know that those times when I've had to randomly go offline or whatever there IS a reason and it's nothing to do with you or being scared or anything like that.

Sorry you're feeling so bad right now

Oh I know :)

I'll feel better soon. :)

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Guest miss kindheart

Hi Geo,

<<hug>>

You might find that if you would write about something happy you might in return be happy.

Just a thought :blink:

:wub: vanna

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Guest Lee-Asher Geo-James

Hi Geo,

<<hug>>

You might find that if you would write about something happy you might in return be happy.

Just a thought :blink:

:wub: vanna

I can't write happy things :lol: I have tried and all that comes out is sad stuff :blink:

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