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Guest Lee-Asher Geo-James

I'm in love with you

With the pain that you give me

To make me feel better

But it's time to let you go, my friend

Every time I go to you

I damage myself

I hurt because of you

I hurt them

Because I go to you

When you hurt me

You hurt them

It's time to let you go my friend

Yes you make me feel better

But in the end you hurt me

You have ruined my life

Have done nothing but bring me down

I will admit

There will be times

Where I'll want to go back to you

To be held by your comfort

But I will fight you

With all that I've got

I know I may fall back in your arms

A few times before

Getting you out of my life for good

That doesn't make me a failure

I still love you

But I need to let you go

So that I can be me

No one can love me

Until I can love myself

In order to do that

I need you out of my life

Good-Bye my friend

Lee-Asher Geo-James

6/26/2010

5:59PM

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*takes a breath* Ah the title scared me at me first before I opened up the post to read. Heart skipped a beat.

Anyway I like this. It could have 2 meanings. I'm sure when you wrote it that it was about one thing in mind. But actually it could have 2 meanings.

It could be about an ex it could be about someone else in your life it could also be about depression and letting yourself let go of depression, knowing you'll sometimes fall back into depressions arms (as I've said before) Because it's weird what depression does to a soul. It hurts but we get so used to it we do kind of 'fall in love' with it. It's odd. Maybe love is the wrong word. I'm not sure. Either way you become comfortable in it.

You are gonna do fine Lee. I can see it in you already. You're a good person. :)

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Guest karl636

I have to say, that poem brought a lump to my throat. This was such a powerful and inspiring poem to read. Finally having the internal strength to say "no, I will beat this" is a wonderful moment

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Guest Lee-Asher Geo-James

*takes a breath* Ah the title scared me at me first before I opened up the post to read. Heart skipped a beat.

Anyway I like this. It could have 2 meanings. I'm sure when you wrote it that it was about one thing in mind. But actually it could have 2 meanings.

It could be about an ex it could be about someone else in your life it could also be about depression and letting yourself let go of depression, knowing you'll sometimes fall back into depressions arms (as I've said before) Because it's weird what depression does to a soul. It hurts but we get so used to it we do kind of 'fall in love' with it. It's odd. Maybe love is the wrong word. I'm not sure. Either way you become comfortable in it.

You are gonna do fine Lee. I can see it in you already. You're a good person. :)

I thought that the title would do that. :lol: I didn't think about it until after.

I guess you could say it could have more than just 2 meanings too :P

I was talking about cutting but after reading it when I was done there are a few things that it definitely could be about.

That's funny you mention the thing about the arms of depression because as soon as I read that part after it was written I thought back to what you said before :lol:

This was one of those poems that I write where I don't know what I am writing until the end :unsure:

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This was one of those poems that I write where I don't know what I am writing until the end :unsure:

Sometimes those are the best kind, I think.

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Guest JohnV

It was amazing and I love the poem. You're writing always moves me and reminds me a lot of myself.

The most powerful words is when the person that reads them can feel the same emotions coursing within them.

You are quite capable of that power

So never stop.

-John

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Guest Lee-Asher Geo-James

Sometimes those are the best kind, I think.

I have only wrote a few like this. I wish that I could write more like this.

It was amazing and I love the poem. You're writing always moves me and reminds me a lot of myself.

The most powerful words is when the person that reads them can feel the same emotions coursing within them.

You are quite capable of that power

So never stop.

-John

Thank you ^_^

I won't ever stop writing. It's my escape :)

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Guest ~Brenda~

I still love you

But I need to let you go

So that I can be me

No one can love me

Until I can love myself

In order to do that

I need you out of my life

Lee, the above shows strength, maturity, amd a clear sense of self.

Love

Brenda

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Guest sarah f

Lee great poem about the struggles you have had with cutting. I hope you can break the habit and live as a happy man for the rest of your life.

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Guest Micha

I love this. It's powerful, in the sense of taking control of your life and not letting anything stop you. It's realistic, but it's optimistic too, admitting the possibility of relapse but standing firm in that if it happens, that it will not mean failure. Rise above! Persevere!

*HUGS*

^_^

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Guest Lee-Asher Geo-James

Lee great poem about the struggles you have had with cutting. I hope you can break the habit and live as a happy man for the rest of your life.

I hope that I can break it for good too. :)

I love this. It's powerful, in the sense of taking control of your life and not letting anything stop you. It's realistic, but it's optimistic too, admitting the possibility of relapse but standing firm in that if it happens, that it will not mean failure. Rise above! Persevere!

*HUGS*

^_^

Thank you :) It is good eh?

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Guest Lee-Asher Geo-James

I have to say, that poem brought a lump to my throat. This was such a powerful and inspiring poem to read. Finally having the internal strength to say "no, I will beat this" is a wonderful moment

Wow I didn't see this before :(

Aw did it really? :( *hugs*

I love you buddy :)

And yes it is :)

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Lee,

I read this poem and the responses - I am so happy for you, a wonderful poem and an even better realization.

Love ya,

Sally

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Guest Jean Davis

Wonderful honey

Do you realize that in the process of finding a new outlet for your pain you not only help yourself but many others. I have read the replies and felt how you have inspired the members here, you should be proud of yourself. you have helped a few members that have replied and probably many more that could not reply.

LUV

Jean

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Guest Lee-Asher Geo-James

Lee,

I read this poem and the responses - I am so happy for you, a wonderful poem and an even better realization.

Love ya,

Sally

Thank you ^_^

Wonderful honey

Do you realize that in the process of finding a new outlet for your pain you not only help yourself but many others. I have read the replies and felt how you have inspired the members here, you should be proud of yourself. you have helped a few members that have replied and probably many more that could not reply.

LUV

Jean

Yes I realize this :) I lose site of that sometimes. Sometimes I sit here and forget that I have ever helped anyone. Sometimes I need a push with that. :lol:

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