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Silence Does Not Mean Peace

Why do people think

If someone is quiet

Everything is fine

With them?

You know

From past experience

Silence is...

A neon flashing warning sign

Of a fast approaching

Emotional disaster

About to erupt.

Free-falling

Through the dept

Of emotional despair and pain

Without any ability to stop

And apply the brakes.

Disappointed and hating yourself

For your helplessness

In this situation.

Tears

Trickle down your face

A small drop

In the vast reservoir

Of shed tears

Upon your soulscape.

Fast approaching

Near drowning levels

Which threaten to breach

Your emotional control dam.

All the while

A wide but shallow smile

Pasted on your face

As you greet the world

Because people

Do not know

How to deal with those

Who suffer with depression.

© 2010 TAG

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How very true and sadly the way that most of us spend our lives - with pasted on smiles like rag dolls.

Very good.

Love ya,

Sally

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Guest Sotha

Yes. I have known exactly how that feels. Wearing a mask.

And it is sad that people even feel the need to keep their emotions bottled up inside like that.

People shouldn't have to broadcast false wellbeing and false happiness,

especially if it is only adding to the tormenting tempest inside.

Your writing is very well written.

It flows smoothly and evenly.

It paints very vivid images.

It communicates your point fluently.

Kate

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Guest sarah f

How very true and sadly the way that most of us spend our lives - with pasted on smiles like rag dolls.

Very good.

Love ya,

Sally

I have to agree with this. How many of us put on that fake smile still today because we don't want people to ask us what is the matter because we are afraid to let them really know what is wrong. I have dealt with this most of my life and still do today in some ways. I am not ready to talk about me so when someone asks what is wrong I just say nothing I am fine.

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Guest Donna Jean

All the while

A wide but shallow smile

Pasted on your face

As you greet the world

This is the part that seems to grab everyone the most...

It got me, too....

Very good poem.....

Huggs

Donna Jean

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How very true and sadly the way that most of us spend our lives - with pasted on smiles like rag dolls.

Very good.

Love ya,

Sally

Thank you, Sally. Right now, the last stanza, is how I feel, as I am battling another bout of depression.

nior.

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Yes. I have known exactly how that feels. Wearing a mask.

And it is sad that people even feel the need to keep their emotions bottled up inside like that.

People shouldn't have to broadcast false wellbeing and false happiness,

especially if it is only adding to the tormenting tempest inside.

Your writing is very well written.

It flows smoothly and evenly.

It paints very vivid images.

It communicates your point fluently.

Kate

Thank you, Kate. Sometimes, those vivid images are too painful, to read after the words have left my pen onto the notebook that I write in.

nior.

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I have to agree with this. How many of us put on that fake smile still today because we don't want people to ask us what is the matter because we are afraid to let them really know what is wrong. I have dealt with this most of my life and still do today in some ways. I am not ready to talk about me so when someone asks what is wrong I just say nothing I am fine.

Thank you, Sarah. Personally, I think people ask us, this question, because they don't have anything else, to talk about. Prior to quiet my job, in March 2007, i would find the quietest spot in the warehouse and cry. Knowing I could finally be honest with myself, even if, only for a few minutes before returnging back to.

nior.

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All the while

A wide but shallow smile

Pasted on your face

As you greet the world

This is the part that seems to grab everyone the most...

It got me, too....

Very good poem.....

Huggs

Donna Jean

Thank you, Donna Jean. Truth can be a very powerful, when we least expect it, to show up.

nior.

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