Leaving Laura's

[Guest SouthernBelle]

So I got my laptop cord in today. The thing is that I won't be using it for Laura's very much. Not for a little while.

I don't exactly know how to explain myself... I feel kind of bad. But I have to do this.

This isn't a mental breakdown or anything. It's just that I've been focusing so much of my time and energy on so many things and hardly any of them are helping me get my life back together. Of course, without Laura's I may have offed myself some time ago, but I can't really be obsessing over so many things when my life is in such shambles... I've got so many non-trans problems (screwed finances and no job, divorce, custody battle) right now and I've just been ignoring them.

And on top of that, I realize now that I still don't know who I am. My therapist sparked that (without her actually saying it) and I'm going through bouts of confusion--not depression; confusion.

Well I'm working on getting my life together and I've got my GT to help me through my confusion. Quite frankly, I think Laura's has made it easy for me to think I've found myself when I haven't.

So I need time. Away from the computer.

I'm going to miss each and every one of you and I promise that I will return. I just have to work a few things out. And if things go to hell for me again, I know that I will always have a loving family here just waiting to give me HUGGS and fresh baked cookies and... support.

HUGGS AND KISSES

Belle

[Guest sarah f]

Belle take all the time you need. We will be here when you get ready to come back. We will miss you but understand that sometimes we need a break. Take care and come back soon.

[Guest Donna Jean]

Bell, Sweetheart......

You can roam and find yourself....

Here is your home that will always be here...

You have a lot of things going on in your life....

It's understandable that you need time to work on everything....

Never forget that you are loved here...

Huggs

Donna Jean

[Guest Opal]

I wish you the best Belle! Thank you so much for letting us know. Look forward to the day you can return!

In the meantime.... Really big Huggs!!!

Opal

[Paula ult]

Belle hon,

I would be worried if you did not have doubts, i wrote something similar not too long ago. You do have allot going on right now, get that taken care of and then come back to us.

If you feel that downward spiral of depression coming over you please reach out to someone, and do not forget about chat.

Paula

[Milly]

Awww well I wish you the best in getting your affairs in order. I know it will be rough but you are a strong girl. You will make it *big hug til you return*

[Guest Cowboy]

Its completely understandable to need time to work on everything.

and i wish u the best while u do.

i dont give these out so often but...

HUG

a great big one.

Cowboy

[Guest ~Brenda~]

Dearest Belle,

You are always welcome here, and always welcome to PM me any time. I have been through a divorce and many other things.

That sense of yourself when you have been here at Laura's is genuine. If you noticed, you could truely be free here, in a non-judgemental environment. That is why you had a clear sense of yourself. You could be yourself here.

I do hope that your time away from here is positive and gives you renewed strength in your life.

Remember, you are part of our family here and we love you.

I'll keep the back door unlocked so that you can come back in where it is warm any time day or night.

With all my love

Brenda

[Guest Elizabeth K]

Belle

Go and see what you are able to see, seak what you seak, discover what you discover...

And come back to us.

We will wait for you.

Loving you and your inner-self, whatever that turns out to be!

Lizzy

[JenniferB]

I will miss you Belle. Please do come back when the storms subsides.

Love Jenny

[Carolyn Marie]

Belle, the most important person in your life is you. Take care of you, first and foremost. Whatever it is that will bring you

peace of mind, stability and happiness, is what I wish for you.

I'll miss you, we all will. But we'll be right here when you get back.

Love

Carolyn Marie

[Drea]

It is good that you have a therapist in the search to find yourself.

Well I'm working on getting my life together and I've got my GT to help me through my confusion. Quite frankly, I think Laura's has made it easy for me to think I've found myself when I haven't.

I think your statement is quite valid. Comming and getting support will always tend to make one feel they fit in and it tends to validate those feelings which are supporting while at the same time dismiss or invalidate feelings that perhaps don't fit. Finding space for yourself to sort things outside of any specific support enviorment can only promote a better and more open soul searching.

I personally was glad that I got into therapy while I was relitivly uninformed. It was difficult enough and I feel had I greater exposure to the information out there it would have been a whole lot harder for me to be objective.

I wish you well in your search.

[Guest Tess]

Good luck Belle. I hope you work things out. You will be missed. Looking forward to hearing from you again in the forums.

Best wishes, Tess.

[Guest KimberlyF]

Belle,

You have to do what's right for you. I'll be praying for the best for you and your child.

Its not easy but if a website (even one we love) starts to add to the stress in our lives then we need to walk away. Sometimes its a day or a week or a year or forever. However long you need to stay away please do what you need to take care of you and your son.

Kar