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Still Lonely


Sally

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Still Lonely

With all of the changes in my life

Why is it still filled with strife

Even when I am among my friends I still do feel alone

Is that my fate always to be alone this Earth to roam

Is there no power or person so strong

To ever make me feel that I do belong

Why with all of my wonderful friends do I need more

Why can I not enter a room with out looking for a door

To lead me to an imagined better space

Though I am happy in my current place

My heart still feels a need and for it longs

Is there no one to help me right these wrongs

Why do I sit and cry yearning for something unknown

Something missing that I have never had in my home

And yet so many want me to be happy and try

So very hard yet I resist and choose to cry

What is it in my basic make up

That makes it easier to give up

My friends truly love me and that is great

I long for whatever romance is and I wait

Maybe these loves I have are the only kind that I will ever know

Is romance like many other things highly over rated just for show

I may never know this for myself it seems

Maybe better off keeping it in my dreams

One very important lesson from my friends I must learn

Be happy with what you have not sad for what you yearn

Love ya,

Sally

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Guest Donna Jean

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My friends truly love me and that is great

Yes, it is great....and true....

No truer words have ever been spoken....

you know who loves you......everyone!

LOVE

Dee Jay

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Good. :)

and

"Is romance like many other things highly over rated just for show"

To answer that question. Yes it is overrated. Even romance isn't perfect. In fact it can be pretty darn painful!

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Romance can sneak up on you wen you least expect it-my mother had a new romance and marriage in hr 70s. But romance-even the best- as rocky places and worries and pain. For all but a lucky few it's way over-rated.

As you live this new life and gain confidence and self acceptance the chances for love and romance grow because self-confidence and happiness are what draw others. Make them want to know and eventually love you.

For lovable you are with your sweet and giving heart!

Love

JJ

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Guest Evan_J

Good. :)

and

"Is romance like many other things highly over rated just for show"

To answer that question. Yes it is overrated.

Darn lol he beat me to it. Romance is like dating a beautiful woman or being a millionaire I sounds good till you actually have it, then its a LOT of work.-But then I'm not a millionaire :P

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Guest sarah f

Sally I am sorry you have never felt true love of someone but let me tell you that love can hurt for you and your S/O. I sometimes wish I never found love because it would be so much easier now. Then I read a post like yours and realize I am very lucky to have experienced it for myself. I hope you will get to experience it for yourself someday soon.

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Dare I go out on a limb and say that most Romance is in the form of a Novel ??

Hope you are feeling better. Your love and support helps us all.

Big Huggs,

Opal

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Guest ~Brenda~

Sally,

I saw your post earlier, but I was not in a position to reply... work was in the way.

To me, I think that you feel that you are missing out on something and that somehow you are incomplete.

Sally hon, you have always been a complete person. Unfold and allow life to give to you (very much easier said than done).

The grass always seems greener on the other side (where ever that is). You may feel that you are lacking something, but I assure you, you are not.

Allow yourself to be... it is OK hon.

All my love

Brenda

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